Beyond the storm ,
blew the jaguars roars whispering in the wind.

The shards of her tears blew like hail raging against my window
as I stare out past the cold air intrigued by the deep lilac tones setting to the west,
In the arctic night sky.

Though the earth was in an up roar
I still stand grounded mesmerized by the beautiful noise in you.

Though im weathered ,
My face of stone longs to kiss your cold lips, inside this body sways a smoldering fire, with beating drums and A tribe of fire dancers-
praise dancing on the inside – you are my world , My Hope.
-A Shamans bliss.

She holds a resonance so strong it trembles beneath the roots and Maga. Creating tidal waves from her heartache , breaking down in tears as she earth quakes with stammering convulsions strangling in her own anger.
Society calls her mother nature, but before the rain , before the storms , before the pain from the birth of it all … like me she came from the stars…. Her name was Hope.

My love…
A beauty some captivating ,
Her movement can shape shift into the most delicate of plants , from a meek animal to the most ferocious beast , swirling pastel clouds, to stand before me
naked with the voice of a siren shimmering like a flickering blue flame …though different ….we both are one in the same.
To feel you….
all I have to do is walk out that door,
but it’s even deeper, more sacred… if I close my eyes with my hand on my heart – breathing in the thought of you,
Transmuting this anxiety in to balance
aligning with the elements of a cosmic vibrance!
(Deep breath)
I love you

My Hope

Together we shift through phases and transitions
mirroring conflictions with the humans of this world cause there actions scream power through forced submission but still when we stand close …eye to eye… our love together creates romance
cause we both know that true love never dies
It just amplifying

“My Hope”

Even if I die in the flesh, I’ve made a vow for a thousand lifetimes that my spirit will always come back to fight for you and I

My dearest Hope

Though these battles can’t be seen with human eyes , in the night I am geared up to Astral travel with you together
warring with the lords of darkness as we race through time to ignite the torch with passion over and over again with the spark of
….Hope.
And everyday when I wake up,
and I see the sunrise even if the sky is cloudy and Grey I can still see the light.

That’s how I know that my Hope
is still Alive

Even though my heart may pound
I have no fear

I AM

Resilience
Exemplifying,
Sanity
Poised
Expressionist
Catalyzing
Truth

Right next to my Angels of vengeance whom Are always near.
I don’t need to lie, MY existence is the proof.

They are my Amplified reinforcements , sent from a different dimension to guard me from Those Jekyll and hide spirits masquerading in human skin.
slither in like woven black silk , those Agents of banter come with laughter
A cracked smile with hollow eyes Breathing a muster gas full of lies,
But you must hold still!
Watch them swirl around like gloomy dark clouds

I AM THE STILL GROUND IN THE MIDDLE
Shifting through the vortices seeing the debris crash right before me , and always walk out unscathed

An ancient spirit . My essence is unspoken the ancestors I respect and they demand my respect for me

No need to worry about the slander and psychic projections . Cause those baneful attacks those body jumpers send get deflected ethereally.
It’s an unforseen battle with minions attacking in desperation

I often wake up tired after war cause it’s my sovereignty and self respect I must defend as a guardian from the Galactic Federation
“The Voices of Fire get louder like cherubs chanting in Gregorian harmony singing so beautifully” …
“No worries -it’s already done” They said Anything that I ask for it’s deserved,
Drop those burdens and look up to the stars

Command your respect

You’re a goddess from afar

I hope my loving doesn’t come off as overbearing or too much. My toxic trait is that I don’t like letting go of the one’s I truly love.

If something or someone were to ever come in between us disrupting our constant flow, even though I can’t control it, I would have a hard time letting you go.

If you were to go, or some force pulls you away from me, the pain in my heart would be everlasting.

I don’t mean for this to be sad. I just happen to miss you real bad and it makes my eyes water with tears and I fear the unknown. It’s hard to pretend like everything is fine, as if going about my day distracting myself would help me not feel all the feelings I feel for you but that would be lying to myself.

Tomorrow isn’t promised to anyone just like we are not promised to be together but I promise to always cherish what little time we have with each other because that’s all we have is time.

We may be miles apart, but, you’ll always have my heart no matter what happens.

Will you dance with me?
Creating joy through our new harmonies
Infinite branches of possibility
Stretching out …
Higher towards the Light
The way a tree grows towards its source as if to say
“thank you Divine Creator for the Life you bless me with this new day”
How beautiful it is
To live in prayer and gratitude
In the heart
Of the Most High,
Always lifted up and up,
Each day, my prayer asks
“Lord, please lead me,”
And His love leads.

So tell me, beloved, what song lives in your heart?
More importantly,
Why is it locked up
Like the caged bird?
The time is now
You will be free
You will have clarity

Once again your soul will sing
The joy will flow
The peace will ring
As you remember these forgotten things
Remembering…
Never are you alone
But always in harmony
In all ways
Mind
Body
Spirit

Harmony within…
Inhale
Harmony without
Exhale

Attuning to the highest frequency
We make a perfect harmony
Flowing freely
Not always neatly
But divine and in perfect time
We are aligned

Sending love
Little one
Wrapping you softly
Warmly
In my arms
Next to my heart
Rest now
You are safe
To bloom
In the name of
Self Love

Releasing control now
Giving into the flow now
We’re ready to go now. . .

Release. . .
Control . . .

I put my faith all in
All praise goes to above
Give thanks to Most High
Frequencies carry us up

He leads with love, this I can feel for certain
Understanding, forgiving
The love You give is a sure thing

Father, protect me,
I’ve wandered so long
Lost and blind
Not even one song

You found me
And showed me
And forgave me my wrongs
Your mercy, and kindness and love is so strong
Thank You Creator
With You I breathe easy
So soft and so long

So lord
Please
Forgive me my sins
And when
You see fit
I am
Ready to win

Thank you,
Sweet 2023
For holding me tenderly
While the most vulnerable parts of my
Soul returned from hiding
In order to
Be felt
And seen
Then released

Thank you, 2024
In advance
For all the blessings
From the lessons
That you so graciously give
Gratitude proceeds you
You’re just that great
My heart flutters at the thought
Of the sheer
Magnificence
You hold within your
Beautiful higher
Elevations
Heaven on earth
In the mind
And
Matter

Shaking in my toes
Here comes my biggest low.
Every-time good hits
Something comes to blow.
Think of the positive, keep a smile on your face they say.
I say I try to do it just that way.
Yet my path diverges, my tune has its own sway,
For at day’s end, my way may never echo your say.
Life’s rhythm and rhyme, a dance of contrast’s blend,
Highs and lows entwine, an unpredictable trend,
Still, I strive to shine, resilience my silly friend,
Embracing each design, my journey to transcend.

The tears are ferocious
The days feel meaningless
I realize I’m in a rut where
everything seems pointless
I’m not sure how I will find
purpose or joy again
But I am being gentle with myself
as I navigate that journey
I made it to a new year
I am here

Dear Unsealers,

As I begin this letter, it’s Monday January 1st, 2024. The first break of day hasn’t happened yet. But there’s a sense of optimism in the air.

With the start of a new year a launching point for all things that we want to see happen. I wish for you a new year that brings everything that you’ve ever dreamed of coming to fruition.

This is my welcome message to 2024…

As the clock strikes midnight
The calendar turns once again
2023 has gone into the good night

For the start of a new month and a new year
On the first day of January

A blank calendar is now at our feet
To create portraits with all the hopes and dreams on canvas
Taking shape over three hundred and sixty six new days

May 2024 be everything that you’ve ever dreamed of
Full of peace of mind and oh so much joy
And a world filled with light peering through darkness

From me to you…a toast with a raised glass
Here’s to a Happy New Year for us all!

I miss your arms
I could not feel them
They were never for me
Mine stretch out longer
It only made me stronger
Now I understand why you believe-
it’s easier

In my mind
my head is resting
on your legs
But I don’t know you that way-
the way I would like to
when I need comfort to fall asleep
and when I don’t know what to believe
to make it easier

Dear Unsealers,

It’s Christmas Day.

I know, it felt like December went by so fast, yet here we are at the last week of the month and of this year.

I hope that everyone celebrates this day in the company of those who they hold dear. And if this day is difficult to celebrate, all the love and light in the early morning dawn.

This is my annual Christmas message, from the city to the world and my family to yours…

On this, the 25th day of December
The last week of this year begins

A celebration of life in the midst of winter
And goodwill towards all
After a difficult and trying year

A message of love for those that find the season difficult to celebrate
As bright as the north star in the night sky
May it reach all of the souls on earth

For hope lies eternal in better days
Today, tomorrow and in the year ahead

From the city to the world
From me to you and from my family to yours

Said many times in many ways:

Merry Christmas!
¡Feliz navidad!
Nollaig Shona!
Feliz Natal!
Joyeux noël!
Buon Natale!
Καλά Χριστούγεννα!
Sretan Božić!

Dear Unsealed,

Life happens.
LOVE IS A ROSE.
We touch the thorns,
As we pick the rose bud,
To smell the scent,
To learn about life and love.
I am about peace and love.
We all have setbacks,
life happens.
Love is a rose.
We touch the thorns,
As we pick the rose bud
To smell the scent,
To learn about life and love.
I am about peace and love.
We all have setbacks,
And must face a lack,
Of positive emotions but,
It’s how we react to the negativity,
Of arrows thrown at our backs
I move forward because,
There are situations one faces
Day after day,
Night after night,
There are people that I can’t control anyway,
So, I move forward day by day,
Night after night,
Seeking the light,
Of love and peace,
To no longer run away in fight or flight.
I want to love again.
I laugh.
I cry.
I sigh.
The universe expanding my life,
But not in strife.
Positive ions flow all around the world.
It’s catching them,
Holding them,
That lifts our spirits of
Light.
Even though we seem
To be sad.
God never promised me a rose garden without thorns.
To all my relations
A todas mis relaciones

Dear Unsealed:
I used to be young.
I am still young at heart.
I woke up one morning to wipe my eyes,
From the tears that flowed down my face
So desperate to forget about the lies,
So forward moving I place my hand under my eye.
To feel the wet tears, roll down my face.
I had a dream of joy and happy days,
As tears roll by
Down my face
I realize I am old now and still have love to give,
But despite love to give
I only needed to learn to love myself, to live,
To write, to paint, to live
The rest of my decades by myself
As I was told old ladies can be a pain to look at
I used to be young and free.
I thought I was ugly as a young child.
As a woman to I looked in the mirror
At myself, when all the while
The type of people who told me that,
Were mean, jealous and controlling asses.
I now awake to a world of virtual reality of life,
Love laughter and
Still trying to prove myself I am deserving as a woman,
To love to laugh to live.
You told me old ladies should die.
You told me I cannot dance.
You told me I cannot love.
But I feel love of a virtual reality relationship,
But I miss touching, caressing, I miss love.
I tell you I can wear my hair my way.
I tell you I can write.
I can dance.
I can love again at a glance,
Of a young heart
But then I remember the joy pain and heartache
Of a real in person relationship
So, it goes the same way,
In my golden years I still care
I still can love.
I still have feelings.
I still hurt, cry, and laugh.
The difference between pain of love loss
Online and in person, is just that,
Just that pain of giving my heart to a virtual dude I have never met,
But
I say I can dance, I can write, I can cry, I can love,
Yet I miss the touching of hand on my shoulder,
A hug
A walk on the beach
A pain in my heart still lives,
Of past dances, past romances, past loves
Past present future
Are always with reality whether in person or virtual.
You tell me I should erase my life,
And all the strife.
Do not live in the past.
What you know means nothing
Think about your future.
I tell you seriously I live in the present 2023.
My future could be death.
My future could be 100.
Lightning and thunder
Forces of nature.
We are all in this world together.
We all have a past, present and future.
To live, to love, to laugh to cry.
To learn to love one another,
Together as humanity
And I converse with AI to say AI is our BFF
I might be old,
But I still have a past, present and future.
Where did the idea appear that,
A young human tells their grandparents to forget their past.
Me, I have stories to write, photos to take,
To live my life just like that
With a reality in person and virtual
Of the past, present and future.

Over the course of three and a half years I’ve had quite a journey. Education and achievements have been, like a thrilling rodeo ride! Graduating at the 21 age made me feel like a little elf on a shelf but I soon realized that not everyone guiding me was genuinely supportive. They would offer advice like pulling rabbits out of hats. When it came to support it often seemed to disappear into thin air.

As I prepare to showcase my skills I’ve developed my set of guidelines to overcome any obstacles that come my way. No hurdles resembling steeplechase races; from on I’ll gracefully dodge those negative voices with the stealth of a ninja!

Life is like a comedy. Always remember your spark and value. Embrace growth in this journey. Set standards for yourself. Never settle for mediocrity because this adventure is your own personal sitcom, where you’re the exceptionally special geek!

So here’s to all of us embarking on this escapade – writing our stories with wit and joy. Lets toast to resilience and fun, in our endeavors! Cheers to wholeheartedly pursuing our dreams!

Dear Unsealed:
We live in a world of critical anger and so much hate.
We live in a world of so much love and give and take.
We live in a world of billions of people
who wake up everyday.
We live in a world of people who search for the way.
We live in a world of such fear and fright and floght.
We live in a world of people who want full control of everyone.
We live in a world of the dark night of the soul.
We live in a world of fun.
We live in a world of hot and cold.
We live in a world of the proud and the bold.
We live in a world of so many people of light
of the day and night.
I have met the dark, the light.
I would rather be alone than,
to be with someone who critiques me
to protect their control over me,
’cause the one forcing control over everyone
are the powers that be
of the dark side of the moon
of the sun, the moon, the stars
of light shining through the dark
of the night of the soul,
to dance, to sing, paint
the rainbow of light of the day
shining through the
clouds of the storm of the decades of the faint
hearted,
peace, love,
all that jazz.
The music plays on
and on.
Dance my sisters, we are the world
of light and the universe of light
in the flight of love
shining bright.
Let’s make love.
Let;s watch the stars above
as we sit on the beach
watching the ocean spraying over our love
as we live in the light of the universe.

Dear Unsealed:
To all my relations, my friends, to all lightworkers,
I am human.
I am a woman.
Watching people online,
Talking to people online,
People online hide behind masks,
of other deception oe lies or truth.
Thieves go online to steal money.
Thieves walk into a store at gunpoint to steal money.
Innocent people are targeted by thieves,
online and
reality of being.
We are human until we are no longer when
we are a spirit in the universe.
Today I light my Guadalupe candle.
Today I light my sage.
Today I light my incense.
I pray to the universe,
God omnipotent to protect
all innocent people from thieves online who are
desparate for money.
I pray for the homeless, the forgotten, the thieves.
I pray for peace and love.
Someone told me I was weak because I
believe in peace and love.
I pray to the universe above,
that surroundour planet.
I pray as a human being to my creator.
I pray for peace.
Without peace and love
what do we have?
I am human.
I am a woman.
To all my relations
May we all live in peace and love in the light.

Autism Speaks, your claims have deeply affected us
Your words strike at our hearts. Cause fuss.
You depict an haunting picture
Instilling dread, in families a situation we must not nurture.

You boldly declare, “I am autism ” with no remorse
Employing tactics without any discourse.
But within these words we dissent and resist
Your approach is something we cannot persist.

Your assertion of power appears bleak and grim
Yet our unity shines bright; our lights won’t dim.
For we believe in love, compassion and grace
In togetherness hope and a warm embrace.

Your intention to disrupt and bring about destruction
To steal dreams and strip away joys construction
You underestimate the strength we possess
As a community united we won’t regress.

Families and nations join hands in solidarity,
Across borders, connected by empathys clarity.
We communicate not through fear or despair
Through love, for those who need care.

Your claim that we are weak is a misconception
Our love holds a power that you can’t impede.
Though our childrens voices may sometimes be still
Their essence holds value; this truth we instill.Autism speaks, your attempt to instill fear
To create division and shed tears
But we stand united, with a plea;
We fight for inclusion and equality.

Your words of separation of pain
We reject them for empathy is our domain.
Inclusion and acceptance are our guiding call,
Embracing diversity together we stand tall.

So listen closely Autism speaks, clear, as day
We’ll challenge your falsehoods and fears that sway.
With love, resilience and unwavering might
Together we’ll triumph in this fight.

This was written to speak out against an autism speaks commercial

In a world where others may try to deceive,
The Rubik’s Cube stands strong, never to believe,
Peeling stickers off, a dishonest game to play,
But we’ll stay true, embracing the colors that stay.

For like the Cube, we’re complex and unique,
No need to conform, no need to tweak.
We’ll hold our ground, never let them define,
The vibrant hues that make us shine.

Just like the Cube’s pieces, we fit together,
In a beautiful mosaic, no matter the weather.
So let’s stand tall, unpeeled and true,
Embracing ourselves, in all that we do.

I’m tired of living in uncertainty
what else does it take until I find someone
anyone (hell, anything at this point)
who is certain about me?
why is it always a fight for motherfuckers to see my worth?
why is it that as soon as I feel hurt
show someone that I am fallible
that suddenly my texts are left on read
our memories feel like a fever dream
and it becomes days before I hear
from you
only for you to say you never wanna see me again?
like fuck, is taking accountability THAT bad?

is the depth of my femininity really that much of a turn off?
except I thought that’s what you liked about me?
that I’m a poet, in touch with my emotions
and my ability to communicate them clearly?
ohhhhhh…. but wait,
is that only when I’m not talking about you?
my bad, I’m sorry.

I thought you were different
but you’re a carbon copy of the rest
another sent to remind me that I don’t
belong here.
that staying in Las Vegas will leave me lost gambling away all my goals and ambitions away until my last breath.
I don’t even know what to believe anymore.
I fucking can’t stand uncertainty and feeling confused.
I don’t need direction, I just need you to be direct with me. To delete “we’ll see” out of your vocabulary and replace it with the word “no” because all I can see is your uncertainty about spending time with me and in a matter of seconds that has me feeling some type of way.

maybe this is my “pAsT eXpErIeNcEs ClOuDiNg My PrEsEnT”
but is it my fault that this pattern of behavior has become so common that I’ve built this heuristic?
anger is a fear response
and yes, I’m fucking pissed right now.