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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Poetry

    Expansion

    It is strange to think
    that I will never again
    smoke a cigarette
    for as long as you
    and I live

    Does the universe
    expand?
    Or do we just
    push it to its
    limitlessness?

    Already I feel
    so unworthy of you
    You are an angel
    but I am no god

    Maybe I will be better-
    benevolent and unenvious
    I would be anything
    for you

    It’s strange to think
    that I c…read more

    Cnschultz

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    • Aww, you have a beautiful baby. The people we love can truly bring out the best in us. Congratulations. Thank you for sharing. <3 Lauren

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  • Chloe responded to a letter in topic Poetry 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you for your response, Shelley 🙂 Everything has turned out just fine

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  • Chloe responded to a letter in topic Poetry 1 month, 1 week ago

    Thank you 🙂 It all worked out- I wrote this in a moment when I couldn’t recognize myself from then (my youth haha) because of how much greener the grass is here & now. It’s funny how in the moment it’s just reality, it’s just happening but looking back it’s like oh my god that’s awful. Anyways, I got away for a few years, lots of healing, an…read more

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Poetry

    “wide open”

    Eat your shame
    It doesn’t go away
    Regurgitate
    like you’re overweight
    You need more meat
    on your body to hate

    She promised to suck him off
    in the parking lot
    for her drink of choice
    She was far too young
    for either one
    but had nothing left to lose

    Swallow your pride
    It doesn’t go down easy
    Don’t let him see you
    cringe in disgust
    You need mo…read more

    Cnschultz

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    • Awww Chloe…. you are wonderful. Your heart is so beautiful. Love in the mirror and tell yourself every day how much you love yourself. There are so many reasons to love yourself. Never forget that. <3 Lauren

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      • Thank you 🙂 It all worked out- I wrote this in a moment when I couldn’t recognize myself from then (my youth haha) because of how much greener the grass is here & now. It’s funny how in the moment it’s just reality, it’s just happening but looking back it’s like oh my god that’s awful. Anyways, I got away for a few years, lots of healing, an…read more

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    • Hello Chloe,
      I am sure you are a beautiful person and deserve the best in life. Be strong and good things will come to you.

      Shelley

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Current EventsCurrent Events group 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Trial & Error

    ****trigger warning: explicit mention of sexual violence****

    In response to events surrounding a recent high profile trial.

    You give your seal of approval
    He’s such a good guy
    He was a good friend to me

    You bring up the wife and child
    He keeps them safe
    from all the dangerous men

    You’re the face of a cause
    but you mustn’t believe it at…read more

    CnSchultz

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    • I have been obsessively reading about Danny Masterson, Ashton Kutcher and Mila Kunis all week. I am incredibly disturbed and upset by all of it. For me, when someone stands up or stands by a known rapist, it makes me feel like we (any and all victims) don’t matter. But I do feel justice and progress in the fact that they prosecuted him and a…read more

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  • Manifest

    He told me his favorite features of mine are the people pleasing characteristics-
    to which I replied, “do you really not understand how awful that is?”
    And maybe it’s not all bad
    But when you give because you know
    it will all be taken from you anyways
    is it really giving?
    How am I supposed to feel hearing
    the defense mechanism I’ve been fightin…read more

    CnSchultz

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Poetry

    Excerpt from “Letters”

    You say, “I’ll see you in an hour”
    Oh, so soon I fall devoured?
    All is fair,
    and I knew,
    love had lost its power

    “Oh, promise me you will never tell another”
    “I promise this will never happen again”
    “Now take me like your scarlet letter
    and keep me at the seam of your hem”

    It was your bones
    against mine
    not skin to skin
    It was your bones
    agains…read more

    CnSchultz

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  • Chloe responded to a letter in topic Mental Health 3 months ago

    It is for sure a “by all means necessary” situation and I am better for it. I think others may commiserate that when looking back on the situations that land you there and the experiences you have there- the loss of autonomy & fishbowl feeling, it’s all a trauma. I’m undecided on whether there’s truly a place for such a thing or if there needs to…read more

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Mental HealthMental Health group 3 months, 1 week ago

    a dream about a hospital

    ~getting help is traumatic~

    Wake up in an unfamiliar cold bed
    Warm blanket, back exposed
    Not sure how you got there-
    but you did it to yourself

    Fighting tubes- back to sleep
    You only wanted to apologize
    They will never understand
    And again- you never want to wake up

    Rushed back into full consciousness
    No compress for your bruised arms
    Honesty…read more

    Cnschultz

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    • Sometimes the the things that all us to grow and heal are the most uncomfortable in the moment. But it takes so much courage to do whatever it takes to get better.

      Also, the mention of socks stuck out to me. A girl I went to high school with started GripCity Socks after being admitted twice. I think you might find her story interesting.…read more

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      • It is for sure a “by all means necessary” situation and I am better for it. I think others may commiserate that when looking back on the situations that land you there and the experiences you have there- the loss of autonomy & fishbowl feeling, it’s all a trauma. I’m undecided on whether there’s truly a place for such a thing or if there needs to…read more

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of Poetry

    “meat”

    ~Learning how to find safety & healing in sensuality after trauma; building positive associations and being myself for the first time~

    I know you’ve just gone
    but I miss you already
    Oh, why not just stay
    until I’m all done?

    Not meant to be a lover,
    but call me your concubine
    to meet your needs
    as well as mine

    Oh, come into me
    in the flesh, in…read more

    CnSchultz

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    • As someone who has gone through sexual trauma, keep writing your feelings, and now that you will continue to heal yourself. You are so powerful. You’ve got this! <3 Lauren

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  • Chloe shared a letter in the Group logo of ParentingParenting group 4 months ago

    little light

    When, oh when
    did I stop smelling your head?
    3 months in
    and my life is already flashing
    in your eyes
    Oh, my little kin-
    it will never be the same
    as it is right now,
    as it is right now

    Why ask why
    when I know you are the answer?
    You give me reason,
    so much joy
    and light
    Oh, sweet child-
    you move me with every smile,
    with every smile

    Your…read more

    CnSchultz

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  • "I will love you"

    I am trying to love you
    I will try to love you
    I’m trying to love you
    because I’ve hurt you enough

    I am trying to love you
    I will try to love you
    I’m trying to love you
    because you tried so hard to fight him off

    I am trying to love you
    I will try to love you
    I’m trying to love you
    because you still opened for love

    I am trying to love you
    I w…read more

    CnSchultz

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    • Awww Chloe, congrats on your beautiful baby. Keep telling yourself how much you love your body and keep expressing gratitude. Over time, you won’t need to say it anymore, because you will truly feel it. Thank you for sharing. You are clearly so strong. And thank you for being part of our unsealed family. <3 Lauren

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