Hey you, it’s me..
I’m sorry if you’re busy..
I was kind of hoping you’d be down for reminiscing.
Remember that time in the car with dad,
Gwen Safani on the radio, feet on the dash?
He said “If you memorized schoolwork like song lyrics and sounds.. you’d be passing all your classes, Kid.. Hey. Feet down.”
Beats are simple and lyrics roll off our tongue; a talent that was slightly discredited when we were young.
Easier than Math, Spelling, Science, or anything that’s required. You know, all that stuff that makes us tired.
But the high we get when our pitch is in sync, or the satisfaction that throbs when we lay a verse on a beat; it’s no little thing, but a passion to discuss..
It’s a thrill, it’s a rush. It’s what I love about us.
Do what makes us feel good, make our heart skip.
Humanity is an experience, let’s make it a trip.
Keep feeling what others feel and adjust accordingly.
Be real. Be You. Just keep being Cortney.
Although you may be insecure, your smile has a style for sure.
Your mind is beautiful, Thoughts are wild.
Your heart is dutiful, art unique, Lyrics are powerful as
you can see.
You can take a critique, Don’t be so meek
Don’t stray away from being yourself, It’ll come in handy all by itself.
I love your smile, Don’t be in denial.
With your smile, you’ll go miles.
Don’t disagree, You will see
You will end up looking just like me.
Ricardo, WOW!! What a beautiful poem!! Writing can let so many emotions out that you might not be ready to share with anyone in person. This poem also applies to people! Their stories may be drastically different, so treat every person with kindness, as you never know what they have been through or what they are dealing with. Amazing poem!!
My daughter took a fixture of boxing gloves embellished with rhinestones and asked that I write a little poem to go with the image. This is what I came up with:
OMG! This is so good! I love to box, too. So, this is right up my alley. I love that you were able to look at an object and bring emotions and stories to life from it. As always, thank you for sharing. I’m putting this one in the newsletter, too :). <3 Lauren
In Philadelphia’s streets, where memories flow,
I think of you, Grandpa, and the times we used to know.
With chocolate sodas in hand, we’d stroll along,
Sharing stories and laughter, where we both belonged.
Hershey’s in Coca-Cola, your sweet treat of choice,
Echoes of your laughter, still ring in my voice.
Though distance kept us apart for much of the way,
The few times we met are treasures I replay.
Your wisdom and kindness, though glimpsed from afar,
Left a mark on my heart, like a guiding star.
I miss you dearly, but your love will stay,
In my heart, forever, guiding my way.
WOW, Rebecca. What a beautiful poem and a great expression of emotions. I think that your words perfectly sum up the effects of death. You reminisce on the good old days and wish you were there again. And you wish you could relive that exact time with the same people. Although you can’t relive them, these memories will last forever and always be…read more
I grew up in a world where you were to be seen, but not heard.
I grew up in a world of “do as I say, not as I do”.
I grew up in a world where it was unacceptable to cry lest you be ostracized for being weak or girlish. Unless, of course, you were being beaten, as crying was encouraged.
I grew up in a world where blue is for boys and pink is for girls, or everything is either black or white. There is no color spectrum in between.
I grew up in a world where presenting habits, preferences, mannerisms, speech, and style that is not in line with masculine stereotypes meant you are less than a man.
I grew up in a world of preselected choices and rejection of uniqueness. Rebellion was disrespect. How dare I be different?
I grew up in a world where you could be a doctor, a lawyer, an accountant, an engineer, or a banker. You could not choose to be an artist or a musician…those were hobbies, not careers.
I grew up in a world of obligations and not choice.
I grew up in a world where I learned to survive by hiding in plain sight though conformance, silence, and camouflage.
I was not of that world, but I complied and conformed to avoid the shame and stigma of being different.
I grew up cold.
And one day I realized I escaped that world physically, but never mentally.
How could I unlearn survival? How would I shed the things that protected and kept me safe all those hidden years.
How would I drown out shame when it has the loudest voice in my head? How could I escape the prison of my mind?
How could any small, tenuous steps of liberation become a full hearted sprint toward happiness when I am weighted down by so much baggage? When would the wings of freedom sprout strong enough to carry me away?
And thus time passed as I struggled to unlearn my upbringing. I tried to suppress these teaching while raising my own children. I succeeded in some ways and failed in many others.
I now grow old knowing that what I was taught is as wrong today as it was back then.
I now grow old allowing myself to be the person I always was, from the beginning.
I now grow old and have to account to no one but myself and those I love.
I now grow old learning to forgive myself and to humbly ask for forgiveness from those I have hurt.
I now grow old understanding that to fully demonstrate love to others, I must first have learned to love and accept myself.
I now grow old endeavoring to live a better, more authentic life.
I now grow old realizing I have been reborn as my true self, loving art and music, being gentle and caring, crying when I want to cry, wearing what I want to wear, loving black and white and all the colors in between, and understanding that being different is not something to be hidden or ashamed of…
And this alone has warmed my once young, cold heart.❤️
Ricardo, This is a beautiful piece. I will be featuring it in today’s (July 1) newsletter. I am so happy you were able to let go of the restrictive thoughts that you were brought up with and free yourself to live a more authentic life. Your courage and wisdom are quite inspiring. Thank you for sharing and for being part of our Unsealed family. <3 Lauren
Thank you, Lauren…it means a lot to me. I actually wrote this piece as a letter to my children in hopes they could gain a little understanding of who I was when I raised them and who I am today. My daughter said it made her incredibly sad but also incredibly happy at the same time. My son isn’t ready to read it yet, and I respect that. All I kno…read more
Dear younger self, amidst the labyrinth of youth,
Where uncertainties clouded paths, obscured truth,
You wandered through the years, searching deep,
Seeking identity, secrets to keep.
In the echoes of doubt and questioning gaze,
You found strength, navigating life’s maze,
Discovering within, a steadfast belief,
Not in heavens above, but in earthly relief.
From hesitant whispers to confident voice,
You embraced being atheist, making your choice,
Rejecting the dogma that others proclaimed,
Finding solace in reason, where truths remained.
In the mirror’s reflection, you faced your own face,
Accepting your disability, with dignity and grace,
Learning that difference does not mean less,
But a unique perspective, a strength to confess.
Happiness blossomed in the garden of your brain,
Not in falsehoods taught, but in being whole,
You learned to breathe freely, unburdened and light,
Embracing your stance, standing firm in your right.
Dear younger me, in the tapestry of time’s weave,
You discovered the power to believe,
In yourself, in your journey, unswayed by fear,
A woman of substance, your path crystal clear.
In a world where convictions often clash,
You found peace in embracing your own path,
An atheist, disabled, woman, proud and true,
In the vast expanse of life, embracing all of you.
Knees rug-burnt on the carpet
praying for freedom one day
in your high school body
and your high school face
caked with wet mascara
searching for someplace
that is home
but where is home?
Will you ever know what that is?
You don’t belong here
so you thought:
“I belong nowhere.”
No wine to quench
how parched you are
for acceptance
so hungry
for independence
you thought you were praying to god
but you were praying to me.
As the creator of your destiny—
how rich you life will be.
In your woman body
with your woman face
my god
my force
how gorgeous is your vessel now
to grow into your soul
reaching up into the sky
like redwoods, sycamores—
ever-growing so divine.
Embrace your unbelonging
so much, that you’ll belong
to everyone and
everywhere like
wind and air and water
and I heard your sobs of yearning
egg-shaped on the floor
begging for some glimmer
some proof that there is more
but you need this storm
to crack you open
you need this pain
you need disaster
so you can bring those shards together.
The pointy pieces hurt, I know
like countless shrapnel splinters
but bit by bit
you’ll dig them out
and fill the wounds with earth…
when harvest comes,
you’ll be so humbled
by how much it was worth
and instead of praying
to a man-made god
for the shackles to release—
the world folds with all your thanks
as you bring it to its knees.
When you wrote:
“No wine to quench
how parched you are
for acceptance
so hungry
for independence”
I felt that in my bones. This beautifully written poem perfectly encapsulates the awkward and sometimes painful “unbecoming” of womanhood and how ultimately it leads us back home to ourselves. Loved it <3 Juvi
You are brilliant. Every piece you write is creative, thoughtful, wise, and well-told. Your mind is amazing and powerful. And I love that your journey has left you with an abundance of gratitude. I think gratitude is key to a happy life. Thank you for sharing! <3 Lauren
I invented a new season for life because I got tired of the winter spring summer fall pattern
My paisley doesn’t like to conform to the depression of polka dots only on the pocket square and not the entire outfit
Where’s the art in the plain white t?
I see the aesthetic, but I want the screaming art to argue with my calm voice
It’s the beauty in the pain that you can’t see until the scars have enough time to grow wings
I used to feel most at peace listening to music on my bed as a haunting sleep would close my eyes
I used to feel most at peace under the dim lights of cinema pumping hope into my veins where I had blood run free
I used to feel most at peace on the solidarity of solo ventures between the court and I
It would hum deathly echoes like lullaby’s to my heart
This trinity became my medical addiction as pride got in the way of God
Then over the years my coffee finally became cold, and I missed the warmth of summer
I could smell my own toxicity deeply rooted and swallowing my faith
So, I questioned myself through the tears, I marked the points of pain with my pen, and dug up the weeds I planted and reaped
This time I will sow truth within the uncomfortable moments
Because in this season until forever I’m most at peace on the grounds of the earthquake
Knowing that I can’t move forward unless I shake things up
Staying in a comfortable pattern only leads to a broken record repeating the line you hate to hear
You are meant to break records
p.s. peace is born in the growth of pain…
You are absolutely right! We look for peace in the calm parts of life, but really peace is everywhere, especially in growth. I love the creativity in your words for example when you said, “I invented a new season for life” or “I could smell my own toxicity deeply rooted.” Your mind is clearly incredibly creative and I am so glad I had the honor of…read more
I’m currently 13 and the only thing that makes sense is sadness
So, to cope I like to hear melodies caress my ears because I’m too damaged to hug myself
Then I’ll let my pen tell stories of love and horror for the simple fact that I’m afraid to love myself away from depression
I get the impression that an early death is the only way to escape to peace
But I’m afraid so for the time being I’ll clean my room since I can’t find the energy to organize my life
I just found an extra cassette tape in my music collection next to the pile of CD’s and Records
Complementing the art hanging on the wall adjacent to my mood
I think to myself: curiosity let’s have a conversation where you tell me all the secrets Victoria victories made me hate
The tape starts with no words
The opening scene let’s nature sing before the score interrupts
Then some old guy starts speaking about life like he knows me, I’m in no mood for a lecture but I have time today
After all I was just thinking about ending it all, how could this hurt more
He says: There’s a wealth beyond financial peace within the things we blink past every 24 hours
Try not to take for granted the natural order of life around you
I know the stress will have you crying rivers on the inside that you never let water your cheeks
But you need to face your fears, or the dam will explode
You need to Yoga flex your way through the challenges less flexibility become a weakness
Not your strength; muscles are for show, but the morality of your core can lift you past anything if you water your flowers of dread
“Be like water my friend,” and if I’m being bru-tal-ly honest you lie to yourself too much
Fright has kept you in third place longer than you should have been
Unable to reach the heights you are meant for
Remember the natural order of things, but know a long list keeps your further from progress than small steps of truth
You’re 34 now and just entering your prime
The next decade will be the soundtrack to the whole of your life
The season from the age of 13-32 was just a small slice
My teenage brain begins to become bored and 34 is forever away
And right before I was about to stop the tape he said something that made me think, maybe he knows a little something:
“You are the most coveted rose”… you see I love the floral print of life
And this statement was the first time outside of my parents that I felt worthy
He then went on to say
You’re beautiful in full bloom but still walk like a sunflower with its head down
It’s ok to be a lazy daisy sometimes but remember the sun never stops smiling and the moon never stops dreaming
So, neither should you
Your tulip words are meant to be heard by the world
And one day they will, as sure as a daffodil
Will blow it’s horn of victory past everything that has held you back
Just keep fighting and I promise you will win
p.s. don’t be afraid to cry…
The Tortured Poets Department has a writer’s division that has to approve every poem before it goes out
And my mind is tired of being held hostage
A loose-leaf definition of writer’s block was once defined by the utter of: I don’t feel like writing, this isn’t good enough, my hand only works for the remote today
Then she interrupts my train of thought to ask: why have you never wrote a poem about me
It’s not that I haven’t
There are 100s getting as comfortable as you can be in the waste basket
The last poem I Kobe shot, Melo made, and Curry posed to the trash can started like this:
An eye lash is trying to make your cheek more than just a Sunday service sanctuary
It wants a home
I know you’d like me to remove it
But who am I to destroy a home
I can’t help but think how beautiful you look with that eye lash
As it rests there like a pair of doves flirting on a branch not far away from me
What are you starring at, she exclaims
Oh, nothing I reply, today I’ll let the eye lash remain
On
Your rosy cheeks, kissed by my dead rose petal lips
Reminding you of the time we went camping and you hated that you smelled the outside
You hated that you smelled like outside
And I kept teasing you but hiking, visualizing, and tenting next to nature is maybe the closest thing to
Falling asleep to your beautiful
Falling asleep to your beautiful
Falling asleep to your gorgeous
Ugh, I can never find the right words to describe a tenth of your gorgeous
And it makes me want to drop dead out of frustration
Because the writers need to feel exactly what I do when they read:
Holding her hand is to get a glimpse of forever before I die
Holding her makes my heart resemble the flight of a butterfly
Holding her hand is to hold my battles in the palm of my hand and make them cry
The writers consist of a delicious various assortment of personality; often referred to as me, myself, and I
Every time I get ready to seal this poem to you the writer’s block me from letting you receive it
p.s. I haven’t learned to love myself enough to love you…
Aww Roses, sending you the biggest hug. There is a lot of softness in this. I hope you learn to love yourself because you have so much love to give. Thank you for sharing. <3 Lauren
The clock, the watch, the phone all have eyes that watch from the view of 2 AM untamed
Heart rates jumping like the heat of the flame
Me plus You is a movie, what is the name
Our love doesn’t fit in the frame
So, cameras get jealous of the panorama pane
Real love never goes without pain that can be immense
So, if you’re hurt let patience play offense
Slow dancing with your memories is a nostalgic essence
Sweat dancing with the burning scent
Wick burning with confidence
Mirroring our silhouette, naked thoughts present tense
My hands without your curves, a death sentence
Each kiss turns a page of my sixth sense
I don’t need a third eye to see your imperfect contents
Table this: beauty is born from cracks so use the hurt as accents
She is priceless so keep your two cents
Temptation is off limits but I climbed the fence
The candle falls asleep to our aroma, hence
The flame goes out, conclusion love making after an argument
Sweet dreams enter in the tango of sheets, legs, hearts, rest swiftly to the comfort of her name
My heart is tied to yours, no more games
I’ve played tug of war and came out lame
No more burns unless it’s from the candle tamed
p.s. this is what it feels like when peace kisses love…
Have you ever let your mind sit under a cherry blossom tree
The poetic renewal massages the stress away the same way as the beach waves
Copy and paste, lying next to you is like closing your eyes under the sunset oceanside
A bright blushing sky with kisses of orange, and blue with a honeyed taste that simply grabs you
But nothing is as sweet as your sugar, under the shade of this suite
Fresh chill of a neutral setting is cooked by our body temperature
Peace in the reflection is bringing us closer
When I look back at how we arrived at this destination within the calm ripples I see a truth in the tomb of love at first sight
Our photograph under the light being born from fallen petals is a coveted site
I had to see the treasure I already had instead of searching for gold
That’s when our story began to unfold, I hate folding clothes
I rather unfold and devour deep conversations over shallow beverages
She likes easy ice, but I want more, as deep as the roots of this tree
The ying and yang
Discovering the ocean intricacies when it closes its eyes to dream and wakes up with a kiss complemented by a southern twang
She’s my main thang, calling my land line
Our language reads between the lines
Wrinkled with age or bitten white chocolate sheets
I love seeing your cherry blossom cheeks
p.s. you be the pink and I’ll be the red for Valentine’s…
Don’t worry little one, this will all be forgiven and forgotten I know you’re going through a lot right now and I pray that you make it through this with open eyes And a keen sense. You are on your own now
nothing more, nothing less. My information is true
and I know what you’re going to do. I know because I’m you. Don’t listen to any negativity from any one and always be yourself! I know it’s rough but it’ll get better I hope you find solace in this letter.
Aww, what a cute story. I love the reminder that we tend to forget all other things that we once thought would consume us forever. Thank you so much for sharing your work 🙂
This is so straightforward but so poignant and sweet. I am sure many people will take solace in their current situation when they read this. Thank you for inspiring us. Lauren
In his arms, the world aligns just right,
A place where heartbeats synchronize in the quiet night.
The hustle fades, the stress melts away,
In his arms, it’s easier to face the day.
Under open skies or beneath the city lights,
His embrace cuts through the coldest nights.
A gentle strength, a quiet might,
With him, even the darkest moments become light.
Time softens its relentless march,
In his arms, there’s no need to guard my heart.
A soft touch, a steady hand,
In his hold, I truly understand.
Each worry lifts, each fear retreats,
In his arms, life feels complete.
He’s the calm when life gets tough,
In his arms, I have more than enough.
No place else I’d rather be,
Than here with him, where I’m free to be me.
All that’s gentle, all that’s warm,
I find right here, safely wrapped in his arms.
This is such a cute poem! I feel like I’ve seen your name before, so if I’m right, welcome back 🙂 I really like the flow and the rhymes you used! This is a very sweet and warm piece, and I’m glad you shared it with us <3
In the vast silence where words once failed,
Among shadows where fears prevailed,
You, so young with steps unsure,
A silent fighter, pure and demure.
Born into a world unkind, you struggled to find your voice,
A journey not chosen, but imposed without a choice.
Nonverbal, delayed, they labeled you, placing limits they saw fit,
But even without words, your spirit refused to quit.
Taunted and teased, a playground’s cruel jest,
The bullies and mockers putting courage to the test.
Harsh boundaries crossed, a young heart betrayed,
In those silent battles, your resilience was displayed.
From the depths of these trials, your mission took root,
A desire to shield others from the oppressor’s boot.
With every tear shed, a resolve grew within,
To fight for those silenced, a war you could win.
Now, your voice is finding its mighty roar,
Speaking out for justice, opening new doors.
Each injustice you faced fuels your fervent plea,
Advocating for change, setting the silenced free.
The pain once endured now powers your cause,
Championing rights without a pause.
With each step forward, you reclaim your might,
Turning darkness encountered into future bright.
So march on, unbroken, with your head held high,
Proud of the battles fought, under life’s gray sky.
Creating a world kinder, just, and true,
From the ashes of your past, the best of you anew.
With courage and love, stronger than ever before,
Your journey from silence has opened the door.
You’re not just surviving; you are setting the pace,
For a world that sees all, beyond any disability’s trace.
With love and pride,
Your older self, unbroken and proud.
YOU ATE THIS UP!!!! When you said, “A journey not chosen, but imposed without a choice” I audibly said, “Wow,” and knew this was going to be a very strong piece. The words you use are unmatched and it’s impressive to be able to write a clear story with strong words that rhyme. Thank you so much for sharing 🙂
Rebecca, You are an incredible human and your story has and will continue to inspire so many. This. poem is so well written and so powerful. You are such a force. <3 Lauren
Ricardo, this is sooooo good and perfect for pride month. I love that you are stepping into your authentic self in this chapter of your life and it’s brining you all the peace and happiness you so deserve. This is so creatively and beautifully written. Thank you for sharing, and as always thank you for being part of our Unsealed family. <3 Lauren
Thank you for appreciating my poem, Lauren! I still can’t read it without getting emotional…I guess it’s because I am not “there” yet with what my poem describes. Someday, I hope. <3
Birds still chirp their fucking hearts out on crap days,
Like a karaoke star who’s totally lost his way.
And flowers? They’re gatecrashing funerals with sass,
Whispering, “Was it our fucking fragrance, perhaps?”
People scatter when shit really starts to hit the fan,
Quicker than I say “fuck it” to my diet plan.
But the ride-or-dies? They stick like fucking glue,
Like that piece of gum on your shoe, never bidding adieu.
The moon’s up there, changing her damn mind,
Like me in front of the fridge, a late-night find.
So hey, give yourself a break, don’t stress the fucking phase,
We’re all just bumbling through life’s mad, crazy maze.
In the cracks and crevices, we find our fucking groove,
Dodging life’s big-ass feet, we move and we improve.
Escaping the drizzle, dodging the damn pee,
We’re the fucking misfits, making it, wild and free.
So when life feels as tough as a week-old fucking baguette,
Remember, we’re rocking this shit, no need to fret.
In this grand ol’ mess, we might seem fucking small,
But we’re damn well blooming, giving it our fucking all.
Rebecca , your letter is filled with raw and honest emotion. Life may be chaotic, but remember, you’re resilient. Embrace your uniqueness and keep pushing forward. You’re blooming and giving it your all, no matter how tough things get.
I LOVE this, Rebecca! The passion in this poem is incredible!! Having the ability to shake off the bad times is not easy, and I am so happy that you have such a positive outlook on life!!