Learning To Recycle
Loving yourself is not easy
Thinking about it makes me dizzy.
My head spirals like the wind
I think about what could have been
Would my love for myself be different if I had not let society’s opinion take me on this tailspin?
I wish I were a dog
Not remembering their last internal sin.
Giving myself love should not be difficult
But my happiness d…read more
I’m tired of living in uncertainty
what else does it take until I find someone
anyone (hell, anything at this point)
who is certain about me?
why is it always a fight for motherfuckers to see my worth?
why is it that as soon as I feel hurt
show someone that I am fallible
that suddenly my texts are left on read
our memories feel like a…read more
RX Ginny Pig
Hello in there, is your head working yet? Here just take another pill.
For breakfast every morning I have a colorful array of meds.
Just so I can fit in, I hate it I really do. don’t worry here’s another pill to cheer you up, one to keep u from your nightmarish dreams. One to stay awake, one for pain, another to be in a. Good mood, one to mak…read more
If I Won’t, Who Will?
I was asked why I loved myself.
Hmm, that’s a good question.
Could it be because of how well I play with the cards that have been dealt?
How I managed to cure myself of depression?
How I chosen to turn every loss into a lesson?
Maybe the compassion I have, not only for others but also for myself?
You’d think that I’d be put first in that previ…read more
Why i Love The Woman I've Become
This beautiful heart that has developed
To care about individuals as much as you do
The confidence you truly found in you
I’m proud and love the woman I’ve become
It took me a long time to get here
You’re a queen
You’re a goddess
You are it
No one can take this away from you
Let It Out
If i say what is on my mind
Will i be heard
Will it show on my face before my mouth says anything
If i express it
Will i regret it if i come out with it
The flashbacks are coming out
I can’t hide it anymore
It will release me
Get the burden off my shoulders
I see it still hurts me to think about
A moment where i truly felt weak…read more
What do you think of when I say that phrase ?
Do you cringe in disgust or feel a deep praise?
Whichever side you find yourself on the line..
let me tell you about mine, and how an injury to my spine..
Completely changed the way that I lived life,
I’m grateful to be a father, because my surgeons weren’t sure if I could give lif…read more
I wanted to be Hozier
I was in awe of the whimsies and romance.
I yearned for my art to comfort and soothe;
For my art to hold the listener’s hearthurt the way my hearthurt was held,
For my art to share imagery with songs of love,
To create beauty in death as he created it.
I wanted to be Hozier, but I have to be Poe, first.
I have to walk through my Inferno to r…read more
Maggie, This is really powerful. I love this part: I have to talk to her and make peace with her.
I have to parent her.
I have to hold her.
I have to become one with her once more.
Keep fighting for yourself and your happiness. Also, this piece was selected to be included in our newsletter today! Keep on the lookout for it! <3 Lauren
Thank you so much for your kind words and the recognition! I can’t wait to see the newsletter!
Stop, Drop, and Roll
I came up with an analogy to describe a battle with anxiety, I hope one can read this and feel less alone in their battles, or better yet, it will not resonate with you.
What every therapist tells you sounds a lot like stop, drop, and roll.
Firemen say that when there is an urgent flame upon you.
When you get anxious,
I’m sorry if I embarrass you
Because I’m not like other dads
This thought often makes me sad
So I write to shake the blues
Shame and guilt have haunted me
As I’ve watched you learn and grow
And someday I hope you know
That you’re all I want to be
But I had to make a choice
Though it may never seem that way
To reveal my self one day
Do you remember when I loved you?
I often think of the hell that we went through.
How many times did we almost die?
How many times did we whisper dirty lies?
Do you remember all the things we would see?
I often think of the affects you left with me.
I’d be lying if I were to say
maybe we could love again one day.
In the past, so many things you…read more
A Note Of Gratitude on Thanksgiving
A Happy Thanksgiving to those that celebrate the day. All the love and light to those that are going through difficulty at this time of year. It hasn’t been an easy year on my end with changing jobs and a major health scare within my family.
I wanted to share this list of people, places and things that I’m grateful for this…read more
It is strange to think
that I will never again
smoke a cigarette
for as long as you
and I live
Does the universe
Or do we just
push it to its
Already I feel
so unworthy of you
You are an angel
but I am no god
Maybe I will be better-
benevolent and unenvious
I would be anything
It’s strange to think
that I c…read more
Dampen your eyes
Steady as I go
Inspiration pouring out my soul
Mind and body collide
Heart and soul coincide
Fact and fiction divide
Making you feel alive
Sometimes I get real
I kneel and pray to a god not yet saved
Steal and pay for the next day
You’ll find a way
Just stay, don’t run
It could way a ton
My thoughts exactly
Don’t beg just ask me
I’ll stay till…read more
ESCAPING DEEP WATER
I often fall into bouts of deep melancholy and sadness when I think about my life prior to coming out. I’ve learned that expressing my feelings immediately through poetry prevents me from sliding into a longer state of depression. I write, I cry, and I liberate the feelings from my mind. This has helped me so much over the last t…read more
Crazy For Cranberry Sauce
Dear Cranberry Sauce,
It’s that time of year again to embrace you with an open heart. A lot of your fans are ready to devour you. Good memories of you flood my brain and give me happy thoughts. I’m eager to make more memories of you this holiday season with turkey, stuffing, candy yams, macaroni & cheese, and mixed vegetables.
Like biscuits…read more
STOP BOMBING BABIES
WE SAY THAT OUR ACTIONS ARE DONE IN THE NAME OF GOD.
The almighty creator who can do no wrong and across all doctrines
speaks of mercy, peace, and humility.
What kind of benevolent God would sanction this?
Did God tell you to murder babies in their sleep?
Massacre lives that have yet to begin
while mothers hold their…read more
Alacia, What is going on in the Middle East is incredibly heartbreaking. 41 percent of people in Palestine are under 14, and more than 52 percent are under 18. The median age of the people in Israel is 29 and a third of its population is under 18.
The reality is none of the people dying and suffering from these problems we are facing today caused…read more
Lonely and free
Dear Ideal Rachel,
I hope this letter finds you well. I am writing this to you in a tough time. It is October 29, 2023. It is a cold, sunny Sunday. The whole weekend I have been upset; I do not know why. I think it is because I am in a perpetual state of loneliness that I cannot seem to escape. In my ideal world I would not feel this pain,…read more
Voting starts January 3, 2024 12:00am
For most of my life I have smothered myself beneath the ideals of others.
These expectations pushed me into boxes where I did not fit, but I tried to contort and carve away at myself to appease the “rules.”
I thought if I broke them, I would be broken. They were unyielding, so I yielded my will to their commands.
And then one day I stretched out…read more
Voting starts January 3, 2024 12:00am
Ambitious younger self,
Ambitious younger Morgan,
I’m writing you this letter
To warn you of the future
In hopes that you do better
At age fifteen you’ve put
Your worth in all you do
Obsessing over everything you could
Now that you are older
You’ve learned it isn’t true
Some tension’s left your shoulders
And you sometimes do
What’s g…read more
Voting starts January 3, 2024 12:00am
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