Hey you,

I know.

You are seen.
I see you.

Your bloom is just around the corner so don’t lose your footing now. The load is much lighter here, after learning to get comfortable with being uncomfortable. Elevation is right there. I see you spending days cuddled up in bed with God’s Word because you think the entire world doesn’t understand depth. Plus, speaking kindly to yourself just doesn’t feel natural. I see the mirrors decorating every wall just to reaffirm yourself: ‘I am well spoken and articulate’. From where I sit, Indian style and lifted of course, people do understand you when you speak; the depth, the substance. Our words penetrate souls and who is for you will align with you. And yes, it is ok to leave a little room for delusion in your life because reality is heavy and the truth is, everything seemingly holding you back is all an illusion anyway. Never mind the diagnosis and crises you believe could never get better.

Time.

All in God’s timing, for you know ‘His ways are not our ways; His thoughts are not our thoughts.’ Yet and still, you are there to give valuable and necessary think pieces. Here, you’ve finally made it to be remembered as a lighthouse; you store light, you pour light. You are a pathway to peace above all else. Your gift guides life directly to and from the Creator so don’t doubt yourself. For now, focus on being present in every task without strategizing the outcome.

Breathe.

Your feet have already been blessed in every step you take. The ground you walk on is sacred. You can rest.

Rest.

Send kudos to the soldiers in their bullet proof vests; ours became too heavy to suit up in every single day so on this new land, I decided to take it off and bury it. Now, I protect myself by going where I’m celebrated and resting where peace greets me; speaking in spaces where my language flows freely and is reciprocated with flowers while I’m breathing. You are doing everything we first learn to do alone on our own – alone, so yes, you will know what beauty feels like when you invite someone along. Our wildest discovery in healing was that the process becomes a little easier once you learn to hurt. Not avoid it. Not fight it. And it is ok to count your blessings but mourning the pain and the scars of the lessons holds real weight too. So smile, Angelface, through the highs and the lows.

Trust.

Keep your balance and embrace the moments of weakness too. For when you are weak, He can be strong for you.

Be.

You’re free. Survival mode taught you well but now softness is your robe. Adjust your crown and recognize your throne. Predestined for peace, is what you are – what you’ve been. The prayer hadn’t even existed on your lips until the plan to answer it said ‘begin”.

Sow.

Accept with worthiness what you deserve to reap, through and through. Most of all, don’t forget to remember what God says is true about You.

I’ll wait for you.

Love,
The Future You

Dear younger me,

I thought of you today, recalling the letters you have written to me, your future self. I remember and can feel the pains you are going through now. and I am sending you three wishes.

I know deeply your worries of the future. Worries of how you will make enough money to pay your bills, how you will build the life you want and how you can do all these and not disappoint your family. My first wish for you is to let go of the desires of others. The dreams your mother has for you and the future your father wants for you. The ideas your family has for your career to ensure stability and a life of safety and comfort. Their wishes are only for the best, but remember it is the best in their eyes, not yours.

You know what is best for you.

Trust yourself to do what is right for you even when you make mistakes. Success is found amongst the mess. Don’t try and keep your decisions clean and minimal. Dig into the box of your hopes, dreams, and ideas and try a few of them out; you’ll find the right one. Let go and enjoy the experience of making a mess. I can already sense your anxiety about this idea and I’m telling you- we made it just fine.

Another wish I’m sending you is to trust others, instead of expecting the worst from loved ones. I recall the lesson we were taught so long ago that has cut so deep, that the world is cruel and no one is to be trusted but us; yourself. But you’ve created a bond with a partner that has heard your deepest and darkest secrets and sees the truth of who you are and loves you unconditionally- the whole of you. Others can and will do that too, and you can share your love without fear. Build deep connections and let go of those that don’t work out. Send them love and accept that you were meant meet for a time, for growth, to learn and to move on. You will find the ones that are meant to stay.

My finally wish for you is to stay the dreamer. You have always been a big dreamer and yet you have been afraid for so long of what others will think; about the way you look, the way you act, what you eat and what you do. Others will always have something to say. Don’t let their thoughts and your fear allow them to take your dreams of writing, of creating an artist world that you can live in and share with the others. it’s ok to be afraid, take a breath and hold hands with your fear and work together towards your dreams.

I know it is scary to do what is right for you. Remember, we have chosen the right partner, we will find and choose the right path.

I love you. The whole of you, with all my heart.

I can’t wait to connect, in our future.

Love,

Self,
I wish I had the time to sit with you at a young age and prepare you for what was coming. How bad I wanted to nurture you, hold you and slowly ease you into what living on Earth really is like. Maybe that is why I was given a daughter. A second chance. An opportunity to teach you, support you and love you how you were supposed to have been loved. I wish I could have been an accessible guide from the moment you came into the world.. Today, I write from the future self to my past self as well as to the woman I am raising. May the words that I wish someone told me empower her.
Let me start by telling you one important, yet powerful thing. You were born a baby girl to become a woman. That is deep and has power to it. Women were given the gift of birth, many magical, spiritual energy is in our wombs. We create life and then we heal from the process. From the start we are asked to always be on the go. We are asked to become strong and dismiss how we feel. We are asked to put others first and rest later. We will be told no. But no is only the determination you need to keep going. You will be restricted. You will be told how to dress, how to act, and what to look like. Baby girl, I am here to tell you that they are all wrong.
When you were born, you were born with choice. Freedom. Beauty. Abundance. Faith. You were given a fresh new start. God made you different from others but yet we are all the same. You were born in a beautiful world, one with adversity among other challenges. You were taught to survive and put feelings and emotions aside. But that does not always work for everyone. I want to tell you to feel, to cry, to laugh, to fall in love. I want you to feel safe to ask questions about the world. About being a woman. About your very own strengths you hold as a woman.
What are those strengths? They are those of your voice, intuition, creativity, alchemy and compassion. Understanding your very own energy and reading the energy of others. Your Sovereignty. Please know you do not have to think like others around you. You can have a mind of your own. You have the gift of creation, you can bring together what you want for your life because it is already yours. You have to believe in yourself more than anyone because sadly, those around us may not push us to believe in ourselves. Happiness is something that you have to go out and birth yourself. No one will bring you happiness and no one will love you like you love yourself. You will fall, you will fail, you will get your heart broken and you will experience loss. Never reflect back on these times as something negative, as these cycles in our life bring you lessons. You will learn from these life experiences and apply them to your future so you will be step ahead of falling.
Do not be afraid to dream. By that I mean, be authentically you with no apology. Take up room and do not be afraid to take up the whole room if need be. They need to make room for you, never make room for them. Let your voice be heard. You are a leader. Be a teacher but also know when to be teachable. Stand up to bullies. Stand up for change. Stand tall for the people that came before you and the people that will come after you. Baby girl, it all happens with you.
Love always,

Your Empowered Future Self