I’ve never went to pastry school
But a baker I am,
Maybe one day, I’ll add to the list-
home made jam.
Working in my own kitchen while I raise and grow babies too,
I won’t lie, never clocking into a serving shift wouldn’t make me feel blue.
An ideal day looks like this-
Coffee in the sunshine,
It’s pure bliss.
Babies feed the chickens,
while mama works in the kitchen.
The yard is large;
With plants and gardens
it’s easy to feel recharged.
Fresh foods and a bread business too.
Tired I’ll be,
but I bet that’s when I’ll feel the most free.

Life feels dark and gray
despite any good, I feel myself going astray.
Chaos in my mind and sadness in my soul
Most days I’d like to curl up inside a little hole.
What I love about myself most
is even when it’s dark, give up? I don’t.
Wallow for a moment, feel it and let go-
What is this teaching me, how can I grow?
It won’t feel like this forever so I need to just flow.
Love that I find balance between discipline and rest.
I swear, not judging yourself amidst the chaos will leave you feeling your best.

Lifting weights first thing
I just love the feeling it brings.
I learned a new skill,
rolling cappelletti
What a calming thrill.
Two hours lead me
directly to a nap.
Upon rising,
We packed the car and
grabbed the lil chap
Headed out for dinner surrounded by the sap.
Nothing but trees, him, you and I.
Can’t forget the calming night sky.
The grilled burgers were delicious
Hungry bears woulda been vicious.
Loved this day,
The work, the chill.
Time to finish it off with a hot shower and
clock in for a quick croissant drill.
Back at it in the morning
I don’t care
A life like this keeps me from scorning.

It’s being home for bedtime⁣
And adequate sleep too.⁣
Slow down activities-⁣
long walks, sipping coffee, stretching, ⁣
just to name a few.⁣
Fresh baked bread more often than not⁣
Me? Who would’ve ever thought. ⁣
Every day I change,⁣
Old me would think it’s so strange.⁣
We’re not chasing the money or the beers⁣
Just staying aligned despite any fears.⁣
Success to me looks different now-⁣
I’m grateful for those long, difficult, learning years.