Life feels dark and gray
despite any good, I feel myself going astray.
Chaos in my mind and sadness in my soul
Most days I’d like to curl up inside a little hole.
What I love about myself most
is even when it’s dark, give up? I don’t.
Wallow for a moment, feel it and let go-
What is this teaching me, how can I grow?
It won’t feel like this forever so I need to just flow.
Love that I find balance between discipline and rest.
I swear, not judging yourself amidst the chaos will leave you feeling your best.
Lifting weights first thing
I just love the feeling it brings.
I learned a new skill,
What a calming thrill.
Two hours lead me
directly to a nap.
We packed the car and
grabbed the lil chap
Headed out for dinner surrounded by the sap.
Nothing but trees, him, you and I.
Can’t forget the calming night sky.
The grilled burgers were delicious
Hungry bears woulda been vicious.
Loved this day,
The work, the chill.
Time to finish it off with a hot shower and
clock in for a quick croissant drill.
Back at it in the morning
I don’t care
A life like this keeps me from scorning.
Karissa, I love this! My favorite days are the ones like this. Good food, good people, and just enjoying the day before us. It really is the simple things in life. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for being you. <3 Lauren
I lived in a house
with black out curtains all about
my partner liked to drink
Much more than anyone could think.
For seven plus years, I took myself down the same path
I didn’t know it was such a violent wrath.
Thought that’s how life was,
everyone was living it –
health was barely a buzz.
Everything felt broken,
I hated the outdoors.
A bird chirping with my hangover?
Close the damn doors.
I lived inside, waiting for the next divide.
My life was a fight,
but not the kind that brings future light.
Woke in the morning and decided to run-
I couldn’t live like this much longer,
i was tired of being spun.
Cleaned myself up, got it together
it wasn’t a perfect trial but my what a surrender.
Learning how it felt to live a “normal” life –
I didn’t know it’d lead me to becoming a wife.
Cared for and loved,
what a way better drug.
How each of us should feel,
but the only way to get there
is to let go and heal.
Omg Karissa, This is beautiful! I am so happy for you that you were able to heal and get better. And now your life is filled with love and a wonderful family Congratulations! Your strength and your journey is so admirable.
I love this! I’m beyond happy for you that you left behind a previous way of living that was not good for you. It takes fortitude (and several other things) in order to leave the past behind and create change for yourself in the ways that you have. Kudos to you 🙂
It’s being home for bedtime
And adequate sleep too.
Slow down activities-
long walks, sipping coffee, stretching,
just to name a few.
Fresh baked bread more often than not
Me? Who would’ve ever thought.
Every day I change,
Old me would think it’s so strange.
We’re not chasing the money or the beers
Just staying aligned despite any fears.
Success to me looks different now-
I’m grateful for those long, difficult, learning years.
Aww Karissa, this is beautiful. I can feel the peace in your life and in your soul through this poem (along with the gratitude you feel for that peace). You’ve clearly come a long way, and not only do you have a lot to be grateful for but you have so many reasons to be proud of yourself. I love your poetry. I am so glad you are part of The…read more