To a woman I have not yet met,
In life, people get lucky all the time. But usually, they don’t even realize it because you have to be ready for luck when it happens. I was lucky when I started to find myself through my music.
Growing up, my parents played music all the time. At a young age, I remember watching concerts from the top of my father’s shoulders. I always loved music, but not a lot of people knew I had any talent.
In school, I didn’t have any friends until I was in eighth grade. Even then, I only had one friend. When I tried to talk to other kids, everyone would look at me weird or make fun of me. So, I was quiet and terrified to speak in public. I became a bedroom musician, meaning I only played music in my room.
As a teenager, I wasn’t even close to finding you. Terrified of rejection and commitment, I didn’t date at all in high school. Even in my early 20’s, I never had a serious relationship and did not so much as set up an online dating profile.
When I was 26 years old, everything began to change for me. I was barbacking at a local bar in Cleveland called Maproom. The manager had a radio show and asked me to come on and play a little music. So, I did. [/vc_column_text][vc_row_inner][vc_column_inner][vc_column_text el_class=”quote-p”]
Terrified of rejection and commitment, I didn’t date at all in high school.
He responded immediately and said, “Wow! I didn’t know you had this in you.”
My boss paid out of his pocket for studio time so that I could record a song. One song turned into an entire album.
As I saw more people positively react to my music, I grew more confident. I started playing shows and performing in front of live audiences. Simultaneously, I began what I see as a journey of self-discovery, exploring the world. Italy, Spain, Japan, Australia, England and Brazil are among the places I traveled. Half the time, I went on trips with a friend from college. The other half of the time, I visited countries all by myself. Often, I felt something was missing, wishing I could share certain moments of my trips with a person I connected to emotionally.
However, dating was still hard for me. The only women I seemed to allow myself to like were unattainable. Because with those women, I didn’t have to worry about commitment or rejection.
As I delved deeper into my music, I began to write more and more songs, discussing mental health and heartache, among other topics. Music became a place where I could be honest and express myself.
When the pandemic hit, I couldn’t do anything or go anywhere. Daily, I walked, ran, or biked ten miles while talking to my friend in Vegas for hours upon hours each week. It has been a terrible time to be single and I started to think a lot about you. During the pandemic, the time alone led me to write a song about you – a girl I have not yet met.
It’s called “When Our Story Comes to Be.” You will be someone who accepts me for who I am as we share our lives together. As I get older, I sometimes worry that I waited too long and it will be hard to find you. But the world is a big place and when I meet you, I am sure that your smile will change my universe.
Wherever you are and whoever you are, I hope you hear this song and understand music didn’t just build my confidence, it opened my heart. And the reason I am so lucky that I found myself through music is that I know it’s the reason I will one day find you.
Can’t wait until our story comes to be.