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artistphilly shared a letter in the
Parenting group 1 years agoAn Apology to My Unborn Daughter: Reflections on Loss, Pain, and Regret
Rashan SpellerDear precious daughter,
I am writing this letter to you with a heavy heart, as I never got the chance to hold you in my arms and tell you how much I love you. You were taken away from us too soon, and it has been a source of immense pain for me and your mother ever since.
I want to apologize to you for not being there for your mother after we lost you. I was in so much pain and felt so helpless that I didn’t know how to be there for her. I thought it was the right thing to do to distance myself from the situation, but looking back, I know that it only made things worse.
My inability to be there for your mother during that time caused a rift in our relationship that led to the eventual breakdown of our marriage. I know that I bear some responsibility for this, and it’s something that I have been carrying with me for a long time.
Losing you left a void in my life that nothing could ever fill. It felt like a part of me had been taken away, and I was unable to find any relief from the pain. But then, one day, you came to me in a dream, and it was like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
You let me know that you are with me, even though I can’t hold you in my arms. You are here for me in my heart and my soul, and that has brought me some measure of comfort over the years. I still cry for you, thinking about how I wasn’t there for you and your mother when we needed each other the most.
I want you to know that you are loved and missed every day. I know that I can never make up for the pain that I caused, but I promise to honor your memory and carry you with me always.
Love always,
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I’m so sorry that you lost your daughter Rashan. I’m sure that must have been very hard for you. Sometimes in life we go through a lot of suffering wondering why things happen. I’m glad you were able to learn from your regrets and build yourself up for the future. We aren’t perfect but we learn from our past.
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Thank you for your kind words and understanding. It’s true that we all face challenges and regrets in life, but it’s important to learn from them and grow. Your empathy means a lot to me.
It can be helpful to remember that we are not alone in our struggles. Many people have faced similar challenges and have found ways to overcome them. It’s…read more
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Awww Rashan, I am sending you the absolute biggest hug. You need to forgive yourself. When people experience trauma like that it’s so hard for us to process that sometimes we don’t always deal with it in the best way possible, but it’s our brains just trying to protect ourselves from the immense pain. You clearly have a big and kind heart. So, be…read more
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😍 I have healed a lot since then gone to therapy to understand and speak about my feelings and grow from them. I even started a business with my daughters name so she can always be here with me.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine what that must have been like for you. God sends us signs when we need it most. I’m so glad that you have learned from your past experiences as far as being there for the ones you love goes. Losing someone you love brings great grief but loving and supporting those affected brings great healing. Gods speed.
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I appreciate you and the time you took to respond and send positive energy to me. Thank you and yes it was very hard but I know she is watching over me every day.
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artistphilly submitted a contest entry to
Write a letter to your future self 1 years, 1 months agoA letter to my future self
RashanDear Rashan,
I know that this letter is a cry for help and a plea for answers. Since seeking help through therapy these are the questions I have for you and hope when this reach you that they can be answered. I just want to know if I’m still here, if I’m still alive, and if I’m still fighting the same battles. I want to know if I’m still trying to find my place in the world, if I’m still trying to make my mark, if I’m still trying to make a difference.
I want to know if I’ve made it, if I’m still here, if I’m still alive. I want to know if I’m still struggling, if I’m still trying, if I’m still learning. I want to know if I’m still searching for my purpose, if I’m still trying to make sense of this world, if I’m still trying to make something of myself.
Most importantly, I want to know if I’m happy. I want to know if I’ve found my peace, if I’ve found my joy, if I’ve found my contentment. I want to know if I’m living life to the fullest, if I’m living life with purpose, if I’m living life with no regrets.
No matter what, I want you to know that I love you. I want you to know that I’m proud of you. I want you to know that I believe in you. I want you to know that I’m here for you. I want you to know that I’m cheering for you.
We may not have the answers now, but I hope that by the time you read this, you have found the answers you have been searching for. I hope that you have found your place in the world, that you have made your mark, that you have made a difference. I hope that you have found your peace, your joy, your contentment. I hope that you are living life to the fullest, with purpose and without regrets.
So you know therapy has been going great, getting to be in touch with my thoughts and how to express them. There are rough days when I feel the disconnect between my emotions in regard to others, but it’s a start. So I hope we worked on it more and discipline ourselves on that aspect of ourselves It’s something much needed to help deliver the self love and growth we always talked about. The search for these questions have somewhat improved since implementing therapy to our lives.
I’m sure that a lot has changed since I wrote this letter. I’m curious to know if you have children now or if you are still a nomad, drifting off into the abyss. I’m also curious to know if the development of your own soul has changed since you looked in the mirror. I’m sure that you have grown and changed in many ways since then.
I’m so excited to hear all about your successes and failures, and to learn more about how you have grown and changed since I wrote this letter.
Sincerely with Love,
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Rashan, This piece is so powerful. You are clearly doing everything you can to heal and empower yourself and live your best life, not only for yourself but also for others. As for having more answers, I believe we may not always have all the answers we want, but we already have all the answers we need. Keep growing. Keep healing. And never lose…read more
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