Life is so strange and I just really wish I could understand it
That’s one of my flaws
I tend to put myself in a mental black hole from trying to figure life out
Questions constantly run through my head
Questions that have no answer
And each individual question has a novel of possibilities and different perspectives attached
With that being said imagine trying to read every single novel at once
Picking up each book in desperate search of nonexistent answers while only reading two pages at a time and constantly switching books
Doing this gives me the same feeling of panic I might get from being locked in a room with 6 doors
but only one of the doors will provide bliss and comfort
while the others just lead to the same room with 6 doors
It’s almost like the definition of insanity
See now my issue is constantly thinking about the feeling of bliss that “The door” will provide
Thinking the frantic search will be worth the headache and stress
I mean if all the other doors lead to the same thing anyway
Than what’s the harm in fighting for a answer as to why
or in other words “finding the door”
As I mentioned in the beginning this is truly one of my biggest flaws
due to how heavy each novel of answerless questions is
They can weigh you down and hold you back like balls and chains
Don’t become prisoner to life by simply trying to understand it like I did
Burn the books and write your own if there’s no answer make up your own answers and live by your own novels
Instead of frantically opening those doors in search of basically nothing
Put furniture in each room, make one a art studio and another a movie room or even a greenhouse
Make it yours
Because this life is yours
You just have to work to make it perfect
Wow, Anastasia, your words sit deeply with me. Life’s mysteries can be overwhelming, and the quest for answers can engulf us. But perhaps, instead of seeking untouchable answers, we can create our own journey and find joy in the process. Welcome the power to shape your own story, to fill each room with the things that bring you happiness. Life may…read more
WOW, Anastasia. This is so beautiful. When you start to wonder about the unknowns of life your mind can start to spin and panic. It sounds like you have worked through some of your worries and created better situations for yourself, which is not easy to do!! Amazing work!
I’m still new to this community and I do write quite frequently but in my personal journal so to start building a “portfolio” I’m going to start posting some of my old writings I have in my journal from over the years starting with this one
I’ve always said life is a book and your the author writing your own story
Which is very very true so with that being said there usually comes a time where we as the author must sit back and take a break from writing and read the masterpiece we’ve written.
We read it from start to finish while we do this it’s important to pay close attention to that first chapter and take notes of who your character was at the beginning and than compare that version of your character to who they turned into as the story comes up to the current chapter
Did your character progress positively
Did they learn anything
Are you happy with the progression of your story
And if your not than I suppose taking the time to sit back and read and analyze the “Big picture” of your life was beneficial because of how re reading your own story possibly opened your own eyes to your imperfections and flaws
Because even in your own story where your the main character we aren’t always paving the perfect path for ourselves
So remember every once in while
Take a break and read your own story
Anastasia, I couldn’t agree with you more! We are all writing our own stories, and it’s so important to take them time to reflect and recognize all of what we achieved and persevered from… Thank you for sharing and thank you for being part of our unsealed family. <3 Lauren
Wow this is so powerful I’ve been raised in mental hospitals and medication has been shoved down my throat my whole life and I have always described the process of being properly medicated as this and you perfectly put the reality of it in the best words well done
Upon summers conclusion
Life enables transformation,
Forcing temperature to plummet
Causing leaves to crash down
Sparking tragedy among reality regarding moments,
our sun involuntary shows her face less and less each day
In replacement of enabling
seasonal depression’s attempts
to drag my spirit down a path
similar to the leaves,
I perceive it as
a natural exigent
transition in life that
motivates me to analyze reasons
I am eternally grateful to participate in this lifetime
Blessed for every opportunity I receive
allowing me to join the audience as the wind chants,
her whimsical songs while dancing among the trees,
reminds me of being free
Embracing the anxiety,
Obtained from hearing her melody make its way.
Anticipating that moment she manifests the ability to flutter through me
While attempting to take my hair
for a ride as she passes by,
causing it to freely fly,
leaving behind a feeling of being alive
Embracing times
I can supervise devoted water
rapidly rushing to his designated destination,
Crashing and blasting as he barrels past whatever hinders the path
While empowering natural flow
I divert my focus down below to the surface
that serves a crucial purpose of
supplying a extraordinary ability called opportunity,
while providing all power to evolve
This almighty surface that gifted us a purpose to
progress consistently for all eternity,
therefore forever ill idolize this world
and all it’s achieved
I shall cherish moments that remind me
what life is supposed to be
worshipping every second
I’m able to explore life’s
beautiful natural sense of harmony,
that nature attempts to maintain a mystery
I shall permanently honor
all opportunities, life presents me
most importantly I am immensely grateful
for times
I can simply breathe,
As I sit
listening to the trees
bringing me to feel
free
Anastasia, It is an absolute gift to be able to sit and take in and appreciate the world around us. The gift of simply existing on this magical planet is certainly plenty of reason to be grateful, and this piece is such a beautiful testament to that. Thank you for sharing and thank you for being part of our unsealed family. <3 Lauren