Every once in a while your heart is awakened
Someone or something makes it smile
For a moment it feels brave & comes out to play
It abandons all of its armor
Embracing the euphoria of deep meaningful
human connection
Time goes on & it gives with no restriction
Its warm and free
Grateful and happy
Then one day you change
You treat my heart differently
My heart shuts off
It loses its luster and warmth
It fades its red vibrant color into a cold, gloomy, black, and blue ball
It walks and walks until it can find shelter…alone
Away from the pain and sadness
“Im just looking for shelter, relief, and protection” it murmurs to itself as it saunters away from the glowing light/life it once knew
It keeps walking…wandering around for a safe place to go
It finds a cave
A private cave
“No one will look here”
It diverts from its wandering path into the cave
The cave is dark and isolated
But there’s a bolder in front of its entrance that permits light to come in once removed
The heart takes a rest on the cave’s walls
It strikes a match on the wall and holds it
Sobbing uncontrollably
For hours and hours and hours
It does think
It doesn’t speak
It just releases
Everything
The heart blows out the match, falling to its side it falls asleep
At 5am the heart wakes, greets the morning
Sun-rays are peaking past the large bolder blocking the entrance…protecting the heart
The heart embraces the traces of light but refuses to go out and play
Day in and day out
Every night the heart prays for guidance, release, and peace
The heart focuses on self control and not speaking
The heart spends hours dreaming, planning, visualizing and investing in a better future
The heart is in isolation so it begins to heal
Tiny pieces of it…day by day
The heart is focused on protecting itself
Day in and day out the sun shine creeps its way into the cave
Comforting the cold heart with its warmth
Then one day the heart says….

(…To be continued)