When you think Happiness — What do you see ?

For me — Happiness is a lot of different things

Like finding banana bread in my car from last night

& realizing — hey cool — now I have a midday snack 😋

Happiness is noticing I put my keys on the hook

& the following day not having to run around like a chicken without a head — while I desperately look

Happiness is the days — I wake up to a clean room

& the days my son gets ready — without step by step instruction — on what he needs to do

Happiness is his comical personality —
a free in house comedian — just for mommy

He still cost me a fortune — but that’s ok
Mommy thinks he’s worth it

Happiness is arriving to my destination on time

Or watching the kids playing soccer outside

Happiness is a mani pedi night
& tik tok time with my beautiful niece

Happiness is watching lifetime movies
with my mom — (even tho they traumatize me)

— Or her guilt-fully admitting to me
she gave a stranger — a good chunk of money

Happiness looks different for everybody

Some ppl think happiness is only in the future
While others may only see it in the past

There’s been times — I’ve been both those people
but I no longer wanna be like that

I feel the sooner we learn to release the idea of happiness being anywhere but now

The sooner we unlock the chains — that have held us hostage

& blinded us from the blessings — we currently
have right now

So I look around at my now — and I think about all the things I currently have — that make me happy

& suddenly the things I don’t yet have — start to slip my mind

Not because I don’t want them anymore
but because obsessing over it — is unhealthy

So just incase I start to forget my blessings
I jot them down to revisit them

& I remind myself that happiness is not a perfect situation or timeframe

Happiness is a way of liven

So I try to be happy —
minute by minute — hour by hour — day by day
if I have to

Until happy moments
turn into happy days again

Ik it’s easier said than done
— I also struggle with it

Some situations make it hard to live happy each moment

— like a sudden loss or separation
Or being in an abusive relationship

Identity theft — sudden illnesses — You name it

But I spent a lot of years of life carrying the weight of burdens that weren’t mine to carry

Not because these things didn’t happen to me
— Because they did

But because I tried to control things that were out of my control — instead of letting go

Letting go is hard — I know

But it’s freeing 🦅

So I put my worries up on a shelf — let them worry about themselves

— & redirect my focus to something else

Like listening to my brother telling me — he successfully completed a mission

Wether I’d be — home remodeling
or that he recently replaced a transmission

I don’t understand what he says to me half the time but I’m happy to listen

Happiness is the sun setting in in front my eyes
or in my cars — rear view mirror

Happiness is — long curly hair & colored eyes
on that one stranger — who helped me heal

Happiness is my sitter & I playing rumikub
Or my sons sister finally telling me — I love you too

Happiness is watching a father interact w his son
& heal the inner child in him — that never had one

Happiness is the smile I see on my granny — while giving her a gel mani

Even more so — watching her regain her strength after amputation — & learning how to walk again w her prosthetic

Happiness is — my friends famous enchiladas
Her venting to me — all pissed off
Or us having a self care day — with an amazing massage

Happiness is a good talk with a stranger
Or a God answered prayer

At times — happiness is receiving peace
in exchange for the ones — unanswered

Happiness is changing the situation when it no longer makes you happy

Or changing your perspective on it
— if that’s not an option

Happiness is listening to
(Reckless love)

Or finding a safe place to express myself & my feelings like — theunsealed.com

Happiness sometimes means to hold on

While other times happinesss means to let go

Happiness may look different for everyone else tho

This is just some of my happiness
summarized into a short little poem 💙