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To: My son, Creed

From: Chris Hubbard

Charity: NAMI

Sponsor: David Yoffee is donating $50 to NAMI in honor of the first 50 shares of Chris' letter

Dear Creed,

You are only three years old but I already know exactly what I want for each and every day of your life.

Happiness.

To be happy you need to love yourself.

Despite the fact that the name Creed means a guiding principle, as a child, you follow by example. That is why I know for you to be happy, it is important that I am happy too.

Unfortunately, there was a time in my life that I struggled. I didn’t always like myself.  I was depressed. I was losing weight. Constantly, I had negative thoughts. It is important that you know none of my pain was because of you.

Creed is the only child of Tamara and Chris Hubbard.

Your mom and I tried to have a baby for three years before you came along. Unable to conceive naturally, we needed help from doctors, using a procedure known to adults as IVF. It was a stressful process. Your mom had to take shots regularly. I couldn’t always be by her side because of training or traveling for football. As you know, I play for the Cleveland Browns. When we found out about you, we were pumped that we were finally going to have the child we had been trying for for so long.

When you were born, I remember hearing your cry. It was the most amazing sound during the most incredible moment of my life. It’s so hard to describe the feeling of seeing you, my son, for the very first time. The second you were born, you changed my life in so many ways.

To be happy, you need to love yourself.
Chris and Tamara got married in 2012.

Both your mom and I didn’t grow up with two parents in the house. For you and for ourselves, we wanted a different foundation for our family.  As amazing as your mom is, at times, marriage isn’t easy. I don’t think any marriage is without challenges. But with you at the center of our family, driving us to figure out how to make a two-parent household thrive, we have learned to communicate. I know your mom will always support me and she knows I will always support her. The way we see it, is if our relationship is not solid, we are not only hurting each other but we are hurting you.

Independent from your mom, when you came along I became more responsible. From how hard I worked to how I balanced my life, I have become more aware of each decision I make. That is because I don’t want you to grow up ever having to worry about basic needs. When I was a child, your grandmother worked two jobs to take care of our family. While she was making money, I made sure to help out with chores around the house, so I could ease her burden. I want better for you, as I want you to enjoy your childhood and leave the worrying to adults.

Also, Creed, you have introduced me to a more selfless version of myself. I get a burst of joy from day-to-day interactions with you. Whether it’s reading you a book,  playing games or teaching you a new word, just to see you explore and learn makes my whole day better.

Creed loves football and the Browns.

With that all said, as much as I would like you to be happy every day, I am aware that you will likely face tough times, which has made me want to be healthy and mentally strong for you. This way when you do face challenges you know it’s OK to talk about it and you know that your mom and I can and always will always be there to listen to you and support you.

If you are hurting, we will get through it together and if you are thriving, we will enjoy it together.

That’s what families do. That’s what we already do…

When I was going through a hard time, you were there to brighten my day with your carefree joy for life. And when I step on that football field, you jump and scream in excitement.

While right now you are jumping up and down rooting for me, I hope you know I am going to be cheering you on long after I am done running out of that tunnel.

You have given me clear goals and a healthy perspective, as my focus is making sure you are able to do and become anything that you want throughout your journey.

Chris says he finds joy daily in simply seeing his son smile.

I realize now that your smile will always be my greatest win in life.

Therapy helped get me on track when I hit my low point but  being a good father to you has made me really love myself.

So, while each and every day I do what I can to lead you to your happiness, Creed, despite only being three years old, you have already stayed true to your name, guiding me to mine.

I love you more than you know,

Dad (Chris Hubbard)

 

Written with Lauren Brill

About the author:

Chris Hubbard is a starting offensive lineman for the Cleveland Browns. Hubbard played for the Pittsburgh Steelers from 2013-2017. He is also an advocate for mental health.

About the sponsor and the charity:

The National Alliance On Mental Illness is a United States-based advocacy group originally founded as a grassroots group by family members of people diagnosed with mental illness.

David Yoffee is donating $50 to NAMI in honor of the first 50 shares of Chris’ letter. The Unsealed will match the donation if we get 50 news subscribers and 50 new Facebook followers by 11/13/19.

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So nice Roger <3

Pat, Your letter touched me in a very profound way. It left me in tears in the middle of my work day. It made me want to share something with you. On a July morning in 2007 a police officer answered a 911 call I had made when my Mother went into cardiac arrest. Between that officer, my best friend and the fire fighters who showed up minutes later they were able to restart her heart, however at the hospital she passed away an hour later. At the end of his shift that officer stopped by my home to check on the situation and cried when I told him the unfortunate news I received only 4 hours prior. He tried to apologize to me. I looked at the anguish in his eyes and asked him directly what for? He described the ways he felt sorry. What I want to leave you with was my reply to him. I told him he had nothing to be sorry for because he answered the call in what was the darkest moment in my life. I told him that he was a hero regardless because it takes a special person to answer calls like that. You are a hero to people Pat. No one can ever take that away from you. I understand the process you're going through as I've been there myself and like you I still struggle with it when no one is looking. You aren't alone in this. I hope your healing process continues on and you can regain the happiness in this beautiful life. You'll always be a hero to those people, because you were there when the call came Best wishes Roger Chamberlain

Ruth, your letter moved me to tears. Once upon a time I was very closed off about the LGBT community but over a course of several years, I turned my fear into understanding and I actively stand with the community for their equal rights because it is the right thing to do.