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  • When someone believed

    To people everywhere and anywhere,

    The kindness challenged my self perception from the inside out. My heart was being held so tenderly, no judgment, no input, no shaming, only a simple listening and understanding of where I was right then.
    Before all this, I was told what to do, ignored, or invalidated. They said it wasn’t real. I did not need help all while looking at me like I was some kind of monster. My heart ached to be heard. All around me they had it worse or I was completely alone.
    I became numb, small, miserable, unloved, and unloving. Nothing brought light to my eyes, my soul was empty. Was there a forward in all this?
    Desperately I reached out to a stranger. I asked for nothing. Only sobbed my story and nearly wanted to be agreed with on my lack of worthiness.
    She did not. She told me I was human. Mistakes did not make up who I was. There was more to the story than I was letting myself believe. The opinions and lack of empathy of those before her did not define my experiences.
    The shadow began to recede and the mugginess waned. The storm calmed. The winter ended. The chill lifted. Gently the sun poked out and flowers blossomed. Hope was born.
    A hope I had never known. My heart began pumping, my soul returned. What was this clarity? Acceptance? Change and growth?
    She allowed room for the pain and cleared the cobwebs of years from people discrediting or not believing me.
    I saw a glimmer of light. My life was forever changed the kindness of a stranger.

    By Rose

    Voting starts June 17, 2024 12:00am

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  • By Rose responded to a letter in topic Why do you love yourself? 1 months ago

    Thank you so much Lauren, that means a lot. This journey has taken most of my life. I appreciate your kind words!

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  • Thank you so much! That is very kind of you!

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  • In what Order

    Was there a time that I persevered when I wanted to quit?
    Was there ever a time I did not?
    At the age of 5, when most kids learn to read I could not.
    Hour by hour, my mom showed me flash cards of phonics and sounded them out.
    My grandpa and grandma read books with me.
    I could not get it. Words did not make sense.
    I could not see them in the order they were supposed to be in.
    I would see a page of words and it would shift to say something other than what I was being told it said.
    My eyes deceived me.
    Hours passed. Weeks flew. Months turned to years.
    I could not read.
    One day, the words made a tiny bit of sense. The sounds were memorable. I was nine.

    Hour by hour. I read what was expected for school. I traced letters and sounded it out in my head.
    Workbook after workbook, page by page.

    I could read.

    Five years later I walked into the local library and brought home the Hobbit.

    Three weeks later I returned it with a head full of stories.

    I am now a writer.

    Perseverance pays off.

    By Rose

    Voting starts May 16, 2024 12:00am

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  • Backwards through Perfect

    What is a “perfect day”?

    My head rested heavily on the pillow. Memories of the long day swirled in my mind. Exhausted, but content from my perfect day.
    The empty tea mug was set gently in the dishwasher. My book lay closed by my ruffled bed. Sleep was calling.
    A movie left unfinished, the kitchen was clean. House reset for another day.
    The evening had been bustling with dinner preparations. The counters dusted with flour, pans, and spices. The food sizzled on the stove. Dessert wafted through the room.
    Sunset called the evening home as we walked along the water. My darling pup ran in ahead as the city lights danced in the eyes of my lover.
    The afternoon vanished from sight as pages were written, rewritten, and tossed. The book was being born.
    Lunch was a quick salad break from a morning of creativity. Papers were strewn across the floor, books on the coffee table, and my favorite mug forgotten amongst the piles. My typewriter pierced the air with the prattle of the keys. Ringing to remind me I was at a new line.
    The late morning awakened my senses as I sat in a quiet coffee shop, mulling over plot lines, speaking commitments, and blog fantasies.
    Breakfast was a moment of calm before the crazy, my mind released all emotion and thought as I journaled a planned my day. The pup dashed around the house, energetic from the morning run.
    Water gushed from the faucet sputtering in protest from the shower head. I washed all sweat and worry away, hopeful for a new day.
    The sun crept from behind buildings and slowly woke up from its sleep. I smiled, walking back from the gym. Another beautiful start to another beautiful day.
    My mind woke up moments before I pulled myself out of bed, my lover squeezed my hand as I left for the gym.
    What is a perfect day if not one spent doing what you love with who you love.

    By Rose

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  • Lovely: Here Forever

    My dear lovely,

    Has another year passed already? Look back, you’ve come so far. Don’t linger too far behind my dear. The future is bright. I am so proud of who you are becoming and the progress you have made in the last 365 days.
    There are more reasons I am proud of you than there are droplets of water in the ocean you love so much.
    The curves of your hips, thighs, and stomach as you pursue the things you love is an inspiration to me. I cannot linger enough in your presence. Those chocolate eyes could pierce the soul of the soulless. The curls of your hair tease the wind with their beauty. Your bright smile brings joy not only to me but to all those you love and all those who see you.
    Your puzzled frown when you don’t understand something and the smirk when you do, all make me happy to my core. You are the most lovely one I have had the pleasure to see every day.
    The core of who you are is pure gold and you weather storms like the seasons coming back each time, stronger, better, and more vibrant. You are fine liquor, age only enhances your features.
    Your mind is so complex and you are smarter than anyone gives you credit for. You are wise beyond your years. Your open mind and heart will one day find its way home, wherever that ends up being.
    You are one to be envied. The confidence in your stride as you take on each day is unmatched. I turn in wonder when you enter a room. You are fierce and strong. You are one in a billion and yet you are not alone.
    You love deeper than the ocean and forgive more than the sun shines. The moon guides your heart back to me, every time I fancy that I have gone too far or hurt you too deeply.
    My favorite time of day with you is the morning coffee and the eggs and bacon frying in a pan. I adore the late night camomile tea with the book in hand and the weekly Epsom salt baths. I will always take good care of you.
    When you drift into paused consciousness tonight, remember these words. You are a goddess of written text, a queen of beauty, the master of balance, and the heir to a world of unknowns and learning. I will cherish your heart and soul with every breath and to the beat of your heart.
    I will love you until I journey to the path beyond time.

    Sincerely,

    Your forever love

    Rose Sheila

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    Voting ends May 16, 2024 12:00am

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    • Aww Rose this is so sweet and so beautiful. Parts of your poem reminded me from a quote from Winnie the Pooh that I love which says, You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart…I’ll always be with you.”

      I am glad you are able to see how wonderful you tru…read more

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      • Thank you so much Lauren, that means a lot. This journey has taken most of my life. I appreciate your kind words!

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