Most of my life, I’ve lived afraid.
Relapse after relapse I gave in
Purposely finding ways to hurt me
So that I can’t feel the pain that I buried deep
I grew up in a house where I ‘knew better’
But I became an addict to my own destruction
I thought myself as this ugly beast unworthy of love
So I purposely carved scars into my skin to look the par…read more

What would a perfect day look like to me?
What a great question
I guess it would be to break entirely free,
From this cursed nightmare called ‘people pleasing’.
It would be me waking up and not despising the outcome of each day
Man, that would be euphoric
I can see it now, painted like this
A cool, refreshing breeze flowing through my long bro…read more

I don’t mean to sound conceited
But now I’m focused on respecting me
I’ve lived my life trying to people please,
Finally done with it, I broke free
I need to respect me
By setting boundaries
Boundaries stronger than Titanium
I need to practice saying no
Saying no to compromise
And stand firm in my beliefs, feelings and healing
I need to pract…read more

What am I grateful for?
Theres a lot you see
I’m not the same girl in the mirror that I see
I’m grateful that my past doesn’t define me
Rather, I’m grateful that it has certainly shaped me
I’m so grateful that I’m not as gullible as I used to be
I can read people now, like I can with a book
So that I can finally be free
Free from the toxicity that…read more

I know I haven’t been the kindest to you,
But it’s hard to be nice when everyone leaves, it’s true.
The ones who stick around often use and abuse,
And there’s no one around to believe your own cues.

I’ve heard you cry alone, serenading your pain,
In the solitude of night, tears falling like rain.
I know your kind heart’s been played and tossed…read more