Be yourself entirely and unapologetically
Be love purely and magnetically
Be wisdom openly and prophetically
You will detour as you explore to become more
You will rise as you begin to amplify your core
You will experience moments to recover and restore
Redefine what you value and believe to be true
Stand in love and harmony to be the most authentic you
Don’t allow shame to hold you captive
Negatively evaluating yourself is maladaptive
Your purpose is deeply rooted within
Release the fears that make you pretend that you don’t have what it takes to win
The world awaits your creativity so PLEASE begin
Your words give a powerful testament to resilience and strength. Your words are inspiring, reminding us of the inner strength we possess to push through difficult times.
I feel like we forget sometimes that it’s not about sharing our story but the wisdom that comes from the experiences.
You don’t have to have everything figured out to be great. It is who you are naturally.
You just have to be you.
And continue to be you.
That is your power.
Because no one else can do that
It’s all you.
And knowing that
is the greatest thing you could ever know.
I feel like we get caught up in trying new things
or trying to figure out life
that we forget to check in.
To check in with the one who got us this far in the first place.
It’s important to check in
it keeps you balanced
and connected
to the source.
The source within
Life is beautiful and ugly
Life is loud and quiet
Life is light and dark
Life is sad and funny
Life is long and short
Life is exciting and boring
Life is lonely and congregated
Life is here and then it’s gone
In the blink of an eye life will turn and show you the dichotomy that surrounds us every moment
Never be complacent in this world and appreciate the NOW because that is all we really have
There is always an outcome… unpredictable. The constant is knowing it will either be positive or negative – this is the power of the universal energy
Be present always and understand the value of recognizing these possibilities
Never fear change as it will happen regardless
Focus on the space you inhabit right where you stand
Realizing your place is ever changing and malleable
The freedom of this
acceptance and no expectations is priceless
So love this life and those you meet along the way
They too are learning the lessons
If we pay attention we are each the teacher and the student
We each have so much to offer and so much to gain
So much to lose in failing to see this in everyone walking their own path
Purple SKY
This thing called life
It’s your chapter
No matter if this is your CHAPTER 1
Or your CHAPTER 21
Life isn’t just short
It’s precious
Don’t be alarmed when it’s only YOU
Even if your sky is Purple
And not so much of the color baby blue
Don’t forget the one up above chose YOU
Don’t give up
Do it afraid
Because GOD knows the true YOU
You see
Life doesn’t accommodate our trials
Nor does it wait until things are just so perfect
The moment when we hold on to something so tight
We slowly start to feel that fright
The fright of letting go
And the fright of the what IFS (of course)
THIS THING CALLED LIFE
We continue to ask ourselves
Can I do this ?
Is it me you chose for this assignment GOD?
This thing called life hits a little different
But, It’s ok to be different
It’s ok if your sky is purple
It’s ok if you have to rehearse before it’s time for your actual rehearsal
It’s ok to be in the PRESENCE of your own moment
Even when others are so far gone in their future
Don’t worry
You will get there
You will get to the finish line
Now to be honest
Maybe not as fast as Track star Ms.Richardson
But soon
Dare to be different
Even if your sky is purple
Who cares if you’re a little different
This thing called life
I remember thinking that I’d get sucked into the drain along with the water after a bath. I know now that it was because I could not see what was on the other side. Just a baby in the universe, so it made sense you know? My Ama would laugh & tell me not to be afraid…I believed her but I still didn’t know what was on the other side.
I remember looking at these little pieces of me- afraid of going down the drain after a bath. But I knew what was on the other side, so I’d laugh & explain how it wasn’t physically possible to go down the drain. But they were babies… so none of it made sense.
I remember opening my eyes to see God before me, laughing- with the same adoration in her eyes that I had when my babies clung to me. She was confident that there was nothing to be afraid of & amused by my fear of the unknown.
I realized a few things then, but mainly that I was just a baby in the universe. Afraid of silly things that I don’t know yet & things that I can’t see. I can bet that if I just have faith to keep going wherever life leads me, I will find myself on the other side of what was once unknown…& I will probably laugh. So I want to encourage the readers to let go of fear & go forward in peace. You don’t need to know what is on the other side, you don’t need to play it safe or set limitations. I promise you will get to where you need to be if you just persist. It would be a much more pleasant experience if you do so in peace. So have faith in yourself & in your ability to achieve your desires. You are here for a reason and it’s your job to make it there.
If you find yourself getting frustrated because you haven’t gotten there yet, channel that energy & label it instead as motivation to keep going. Your soul is telling you that you’re so close. If you find yourself in a stagnant place, take that time to recharge. There is so much beauty in the now and you only get one chance to be present in the now. Just be, before the moment is gone. That faith will remain in the back of your head- what’s for you will always be for you. Expect it just like you know to expect the reflection in the mirror looking back at you.
We do not have to fear the unknown, we’ll know it one day.
In a world so vast, a message clear I’d send,
A truth I’ve learned, a lesson to commend:
No words can teach what life itself imparts,
For wisdom blooms within our own brave hearts.
We craft our tales through trials, joy, and strife,
Our lessons etched by moments in our life.
The paths we walk, the choices that we make,
Shape who we are, the truths we come to take.
So while my message might be wise and true,
It’s life’s own lessons that will guide you through.
Embrace each moment, let your spirit grow,
For through our stories, deeper truths we know.
This life’s a high-thrill roller coaster ride
with climbs and drops, with loops and turns— you blink
and future’s past— it’s transience defined.
Cry.
Or don’t. It matters not, for wheels still clink.
Along the track of destiny we fly,
entrusting cars attached by tungsten links
to comfort whether plunging from the sky
or taking corners, screeching, on the brink.
There are no brakes, nor gear that’s marked reverse.
Since seatbelts won’t keep everyone from harm,
enjoy the passing scenery of Earth
and all its blurry, ever-changing charm;
remember nothing lasts— not hurt, not mirth—
so, open up your eyes and raise your arms.
Hi sweet heart.
How are you doing?
I see you standing there,
Alone in dark, cold rooms,
Trying to brighten them with laughter and smiles.
All while the weight of raising adults at such a young age crushes you beneath its state.
I wish I could tell you it gets better,
Because we always believed everything would be alright,
As I held my pillow to confort me
crying myself to sleep at night,
But we both know we’re bad at lying,
And that would be an egregious one.
The truth is ….
And I hate to say this…
It’s get worse
And worse, and worse,
And I’m so sorry but
Im here to tell you we can’t control any of it.
So don’t try or else you’ll tear us apart.
It’s simply
a very dark start
To our story,
But if anything I want to prepare you
Give you a look into the future of tommorow.
So Brace yourself.
We lose all of our closest family members
mom as you already know ,
But Too young to yet comprehend.
Watching that coffin close again,
And…Mikey
The pain of a loss you thought you’d never understand
As they buried our brother in ashes
We hold our own hand
Ourselves,
our only friend,
No savior on the other end.
The ones that actually seemed to like us and care,
Are no longer there
So we’re left with the ones that hate us
Yet smile in our faces
A toxic fueled mess of toxity and stress you never wanted to ensue
But nevertheless,
They do.
As they maim, mock, and hurt you .
I’m so sorry for how they blame you
Or For the way you blamed yourself as if you could change fate
Saying if you could just change
Your whole life would rearrange?
By rearranging yourself.
Being anything, anyone else,
But ourselves.
Because that is deemed the worst hell.
I’m here to tell you you can’t
make them love you or change them
Especially not by changing or blaming ourselves.
And though we argue that we aren’t,
that’s not true.
Because we branded ourselves with their actions,
And can’t see clearly enough to know how to escape from the reactions.
I’m sorry it hurts so much that in the process of changing ourselves we were only crushed, and rushed to grow up,
But I can tell you from the multiple suicide attempts
Death isn’t the answer for us.
But the truth,
Is in case they haven’t told you
I’m so proud of you,
Because despite our pain
The one dream that always comes true,
Is your strong
And we can make it through.
Even if it’s by ourselves
we face the fires
And walk through.
Always the one lesson to stay with you
When you get tomorrow morning, it may not be the best, the car doesn’t start, your breakfast is cold, you will go to work and people may not talk to you, you ask WHY ME, it’s not fair, Stay focused, you want to scream at times a loved one is sick and THERE’S NOTHING YOU CAN DO, STAY FOCUSED, you will make it, YOU CAME THIS FAR, finish strong and STAY FOCUSED
If I were to share one thing with you, it would be to recognize the hidden truths of this universe. We as humans have grown into an only practical world, putting ourselves in a box. Imagination depletes with age as we fall into working 9-5 jobs, raising children, and making money, so that “one day” we can live the life we truly desire. We follow those before us, in this practical lifestyle, without reaching out or opening our minds to something new. This is the exact opposite of how we are truly meant to live. In my world, through simply being myself, I attract an abundant lifestyle where there is freedom to live wherever to do whatever, and to feel fulfilled.
You might be asking yourself, “How is this even possible?” As it turns out, it’s not as complicated as you may imagine. It all began in 2020 when the world was on lockdown to prevent the spread of COVID-19. I spent a lot of time inside, often reflecting on my life. This then triggered my first-ever spiritual awakening. A spiritual awakening is when you realize that you have the power to create your life, and also that you are the result of everything happening in your life now. As a young girl, this was a lot to process. And, it is an ever-growing process as I grow into adulthood. Following the awakening, I read a lot of spiritual books. I learned that everything comes down to your mindset and your drive. Through this, you can make your way towards your dream life.
Speaking poorly about oneself and concentrating on the bad is normal in modern society. Yet, this mindset has brought us nowhere. What I have learned is that the only way to attract the life you desire is to fully believe that you deserve it. This may take a bit of rewiring in the brain. You may have to become aware of when you come from a place of lack or abundance. For example, I want you to focus on your mindset when shopping. Do you buy what your soul desires? Or, do you stick to the budget and sacrifice your happiness? Buying for yourself is an act of showing the universe that you know you deserve money, whether you have it or not. Because, when you think about it, there are so many different ways we can run into money, effortlessly. So, spending on yourself a little bit more is worth it. Plus, when you act this way, you do not come from a place of lack—your mindset shifts. And, when you continue to treat yourself and see money as something you can easily give away, you will naturally attract more money in your life. This is why people may say that abundance is a mindset. Through this mindset, you may start to purchase small. But, in the end, this may translate to spending on your dream vacation, car, and home.
Another important lesson I have utilized is a belief in myself. The majority of the world is middle class or lower. So, it can be a bit difficult for us to visualize an abundant life because we become used to the way we are living. It is easy to get caught up in a job because we rely on it heavily. But, when we follow the crowd instead of our true desires, we stay stuck. So, the best way to get unstuck is to ask yourself, “If you could do anything in the world and make money doing it, what would you do?” Once you find your answer, trust yourself, and make your way towards it. So, if you are an actor, carve out a time for yourself every week. Practice. Create your portfolio. Apply for openings. In doing this, you are showing the universe that you trust yourself and that you will make your way on this new path. Act as if your true passion, will be your money-maker in the future. And soon enough, you will make your dream job a reality.
All in all, it comes down to you. Whether you realize it or not, you have the power to do anything in life. So, trust yourself. One day you will look back and have zero regrets.
To you, I beg
Treat every day with your loved ones as if it’s your last or theirs. You probably think death is something far off, you push it to the back of your mind and don’t think about it. Until it punches you right in the face. For me, it was on a rainy Tuesday morning in November. When I walked out of the office building where I had therapy, something felt off. Like the world had shifted. I sat passenger side in the car with my mother, headed home to my father whom I’d taken care of for 5 years since I was 18. Then, I had to endure the worst 3 phone calls of my life. My spouse first, hyperventilating, crying, tears endlessly streaming down their face. They could barely stutter out the words, “The house is on fire.” We were not home. My stomach fell to the ground. The next call was my friend, who was friends with my neighbor home from college at the time. He told me the same, my whole world was spinning, the cracks starting to appear in the crust of it. I let out a slow breath, it hadn’t hit me yet. I asked him, “Is my dad alive?” There was a pause, and then, finally, the news that tore me to bits. “It doesn’t appear that way, no.” I could hear my dad’s voice in my head, “Don’t panic until it’s time to panic.” I quickly hung up with my friend and then the 3rd call went to my 78-year-old grandfather, to tell him that he’d now lost a second child. He’d lost one, my aunt, just 11 years prior, to cancer. I don’t think I’ll ever make a harder phone call in my life. Arriving at the scene, our usually quiet street was lined with fire engines, police, and ambulances. I remember telling my mother, who was sobbing already, to park away from the house. I couldn’t bear to see it yet. She and my dad had been divorced for almost 17 years, but they were best friends. My mother, in hysterics, was taken to an ambulance to ensure she wasn’t having a heart attack. I stumbled to the first firefighter I could find, yelling, “Someone talk to me! Please, please, that’s my house!” When I got to him, already soaked by pouring rain, I asked him, “Is my dad dead?” He eyed me sympathetically and informed me he couldn’t give me that information. The chief was on his way over. When he came over to officially inform me, I fell back into my neighbor’s muddy grass and screamed. I screamed and sobbed until I was hoarse. My dad and I had a complicated relationship. He was Mom and Dad for most of my life, someone I could always rely on. But, he had his flaws, as we all do. As an exhausted caregiver, and him, weighed down to a bed 24/7, we often fought. But, he was a lover of music and movies, so we bonded over that a lot. We’d sing together, play Jeopardy, play fight all the time. The good times outweighed the bad in the end for me. There was no goodbye, no preparation. Only agony, pain, torturing myself. In the torched remains of my childhood home, in a fire safe, a CD was found. It’s 20 minutes of him telling me how much he loves me, how he’s proud of me and so much more. He was not a touchy-feely guy, none of the men in our family are. But, at the end of the day, he loved me and I loved him immensely. That’s what matters. I cherish that recording. My plea to you, is don’t leave anything unsaid to anyone you love, don’t go to sleep angry. Tomorrow is not promised, and I learned that in the worst way. Don’t leave this world with any regrets. I dedicate this letter to the memory of my Dad, Gene.
This is the truth of it, the world is cold blooded, and I don’t mean under the skin, I mean in the eyes and in the soul, people have changed in so many ways from being someone they never wanted to be, and to turning out just as that person. We live and learn, they say but how much can you really take, after you’ve been brought down by people that just didn’t want your light in the way, my message is simple, you can go looking for a penny on the floor but never find it you have to go out get up and earn it. This is from my graduation speech 2018. If I would tell my 18 year old self i would be here right now, she probably would have just laughed in my face. I had ambitions and goals so high i didn’t think anything would ever get in the way of that, but it did. I didn’t end up making it to college. Yes, I met people who needed to be a part of my life for the moment and learned more about myself school would never teach. Like how to channel your energy by meditating, and taking the time to really soul search which i did, but then i let it all slip down the drain with one mistake that ended up being 7 years later, and I have no idea who I am but I look for her every day, because I know she is still in me ready to soar and fly. So putting it plainly, don’t give up, but things aren’t as simple as life changes, and life changes you. Sometime you cant come back if you lose a part of you forever that bravery i had to go on stage and talk in front of people, is not the same woman i am now, BUT I LEARNED THE GREATEST LESSON OF THEM ALL school is just another way to make you think one career is all you are, and that is just wrong and corrupt to keep a fake system continuing for the sake of money, doctors pop you on pills, the government controls sh*t, and I found out there’s some stuff you can just not speak about. I started to research and thought journalism was the perfect fit for me, only to dig into the surface and even below that. To find out what really is in power to find out what we truly are and how this makes a sad world filled with people who don’t even love their job half the time but just get stuck in it. So i’d like to just say you can do it all. In A STRESS FREE manner with a calm state of mind. I love photography, I love dancing, I love creating, and writing and to some this is not a real career, but this is where what we’ve been taught is wrong because instead of looking inside of ourselves for the answers we look elsewhere including a ai software that doesn’t even really know anything. That saying is true “it’s never too late,” and it is true, it is never too late until it’s too late.
Belief is such a strong thing it literally changes everything that you do and you become. Never let time pass you up because that was my mistake.
I hope this reaches the people it needs to and also everyone in the world to know that it’s not just not too late, but it’s never too late to be brave. Stand up and create the change, make a way. Even if it is different and people dont understand it, be happy for you. Be the you you wish to see, and most of all be free while doing it. It all comes down to this…
To you, chasing what feels right in your heart-love
Dare to dream and use the resources at hand.
Social media was my canvas, but I misread its purpose. Instead of pursuing poetry contests, I spent time on irrelevant posts. Now, I focus on achieving my ambition, which is my top priority.
One message I have for every person in the world is don’t take life for granted because tomorrow isn’t promised anything can happen to yourself or your loved one. I for one took life for granted and I lost my soul pet, you may ask what you mean by that well If I didn’t go out as much to be with friends or be busy with work and had taken care of my Mitsu aka my black cat he would have still been here with me and not get sick too easily and quickly. One thing I regret is not taking him to the doctor’s first thing instead I waited until he got worse, he was always meowing at night in pain and I always thought he wanted attention, but he was just in pain I think about how I failed as a cat mom because I couldn’t do much at first but overall, I loved and cared for my Mitsu he knew that because everyone abandoned him, abused him, locked him in cages but with me he was free to do whatever and he was happy. I remember every morning he would come into my room by opening the door with his head and get on top of the bed waiting for my mom to give me my breakfast which was tea and biscuits and Mitsu waited for my mom to give him biscuits and once she did, Mitsu ate all the biscuit he could. All the memories I have of Mitsu are blessings I’m glad that I could share my life with him, and that he could share his love and commitment with me, he showed me a pet’s love is pure and more trustworthy than a person’s love because a pet is more loyal than certain people. My message to everyone in the world is don’t life for granted because life isn’t promised tomorrow, life is precious and people and pets are also precious I took life for granted and lost my Mitsu but God gave me another chance on make things right with now my Mocha aka my black kitten spending lots of time with him, taking care of him and making my Mitsu proud from heaven.
Three times I’ve prayed over a vision You, the Lord of hosts, have shown
First You said “trust Me” second “just be” third You said, “you’re not. I am. Just sit back and be amazed at what I’m going to do.”
And however “it” is to be, I have not a clue…
But You said I was going to Russia, when others told me the idea I should abort
Because they were leaving in two weeks, and I had not a passport
Yet we were all baffled when it came in a week and a half.
Or when You said I was going to the Middle East
But as to how, an idea I had not in the least
Only to sit in a church, with the specific destination You said on the screen
And the pastor reading genesis 12:1, “Get out of your country, from your family
and from your father’s house,
To a land that I will show you.”
Therefore I knew, You mean what You mean
Only to visit another church, for a man to introduce me to a woman
She said they were leaving for there in three weeks
But in my spirit, I knew it was the journey I was to take
And my job, security, and life I was ready to forsake
Or when I awoke, and You said Guatemala while I was still in a daze
No money, no means, but a trust in Your ways
Only for people You touched to give me money to go, and to buy the ticket for my plane
Or how I still find it insane
How You’ve sent me back three times to the desert sands
Without a dollar leaving my hands
Downtrodden and feeling down on my luck
Praying because I needed to find a new truck
But You already know the needs that I have before I ask
And I found myself basking in Your glory with a huge grin
When I test drove a truck with a sermon on the radio and my name in the VIN
Thinking back to when my book I knew not how to publish
Yet You sent a long lost friend, who randomly told me how to fulfill my wish
But that is not all
For You care about the big things, but also the small
Like when I needed stove top cleaner
And not a soul on this earth knew but You…
The joyful demeanor I had when I came home to find it hanging from my door
I could go on, for You’ve done so much more
But as part of my story has been unfurled
The message I wish to share with the world
Is just what the Lord said… “trust Me.” And “just be.”