Oh hi grief, we meet again and this time I am not fine. I was hoping that was the last time we would meet but once again I find myself counting down the time

Like the silent second hand of a watch everything feels numb
I can’t believe I’m here again but this time I don’t feel as dumb

Optimism use to shine bright like the sun reflecting off the waves but now I will have to sit alone- can I even be that brave

How can I even push through this horrendous season when last time you were the one who led
I guess I’ll have to hold my own hand and remember everything you said

Trying to feel the feels and maintain life for a while will be tough
I don’t want to do life without you- like omg why is life so rough

In the worst times of life you were my support and now this hardest time of all is coming and I feel all out of sorts

We have talked about our dreams and plans and never thought we’d have to go at them alone but one day I’ll be here with no other voice on the phone

You taught me to stand on my own and always look ahead and I’m so thankful for that because I am where I am today because of all the things you said

You pushed me, challenged me and always had my back and when things got crazy you helped me get back on track

I guess I’ll pack your things away to keep them safe and tight
All the while with tears streaming wishing you were here still in the fight