Hey! The hurt little girl and the brave woman inside me!
I tried to suppress one of you for the other for a long time and refused to acknowledge your strengths and weaknesses.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, both of you are celebrated.
I see you and have abundant space in my heart for both of you.

Hello! My beautiful smile and my big fat arms!
To hide my shame-filled fat arms, loose belly, or big thighs, I also hid my smile.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, all of you are visible and equally beautiful.
I smile at all of you and am here to flaunt you.

Wake up! My bold, confident self and the self with very low self-esteem!
I thought both of you could not coexist, and I got lost in search of who I really was.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, both of you can come alive.
I respect you and am here to show up for my purpose with both of you by my side.

Hola! My suppressed feminine self and my wounded masculine self!
When I learned to survive in this patriarchal world, I missed understanding both of you.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, both of you can be safely expressed.
I love you, and I allow you to express both the magical and the wounded parts of you.

Aloha! My angry self and my most kind self!
You are often misunderstood by others, and I haven’t been able to fully accept the complexity of your existence in me.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, I validate both of you – You are both beautiful!
Thank you for your fierceness, and I am here to create a sacred space for both of you.

Ciao! My deepest fears and my bravest self!
Why do I keep seeking protection from a man outside? Maybe because I have never really identified myself with my brave self?
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, I seek refuge in both of you.
I seek your wisdom and am proud to learn from both of you.

Hi! My sweetest heart and my brilliant brain,
I understand why the poets always put you against each other, and I have cursed you both many times, too.
But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page, and in this chapter, I realize how much you both help me stay human.
I am grateful to you and here to listen to both of you.

Oh, my dear wounded selves!
I was so focused on trying to dissect and analyze all parts of you that
I got lost in the duality.
I denied space for parts of you because of shame or guilt,
And fit you into good and mostly bad,
All for the need to be loved by beings outside of me.

Oh, my dear, healthy selves!
I forgot to proudly embrace parts of you because, as a woman, I was confused about which parts of my existence are my best as defined by me vs. society.
I constantly disbelieved when anyone appreciated me because I gave away my power to those few trusted loved ones around me and let them define me.
You have shown up for me throughout my life, and we have achieved so much together,
Yet, I have not shown up enough for you all, and I sincerely feel sorry for how much I hurt you.
All for the need to be loved by beings outside of me.

But enough is enough!
Let’s turn the page from outside to inside, and in this new chapter,
I welcome all parts of me to exist, come alive, interact, and play with me.
I promise to stop searching for the container outside, to hold the whole and broken pieces of me.
I promise to come home to myself and realize that I have been the container all along.
In this new chapter, I am ready to fill my container with the gold elixir called self-love.
In this new chapter, I am here to gather the bare broken bones of me and lay it all out next to each other.
In this new chapter, I learn the art of Kintsugi and glue the broken, scattered parts of me with what is left of my raw self.
In this much-awaited chapter of my life, I am most excited to become one whole, perfectly imperfect self.

With love, me.