Tribulations
Hush, I say to the monster inside my head,
I hate it when I find my way here
to the darkest, deepest, dirtiest
part of my own mind,
depression my old friend.
I get warped thoughts
that are better left unsaid.
It feels like I’m drowning 6 feet away.
People are pointing, laughing, mocking,
learn to swim I whisper to myself.
I beg myself for forgiveness for being clumsy, clumsy with my words, clumsy with my heart, clumsy with my feelings, clumsy with life …
it doesn’t last forever, and
no cliché will make it any better
I always find my way out of this voided space …it’s my own tribulations
I close my eyes and I beg for rest
I see myself standing, alone, no armor
naked almost, vulnerable, I look lonely,
I feel lonelier I remind myself,
nobody is coming to save you.
Nobody’s coming to push you
you must dig deep,
I become stronger than I ever envisioned.
I wipe my tears away from my eyes.
I brush my shoulders I stand tall
and I move forward my battle doesn’t end here not today
it’s just my own tribulations
save yourself. Good bye rock bottom,
until we meet again.