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mjudge931 submitted a contest entry to
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My Unlovable Lover
Dear Anger,
I’ve been dishonest in my feelings for too long. I couldn’t stop loving you even if I tried. The level of intimacy that we share is unrivaled. My body knows you’ve arrived long before my brain does. You cause my hands to feel weightless as you cradle them warmly. Your voice is a melody that my ears never tire of. The taste of you spreads across my tongue into every crevice of my mouth. I can feel your spirit like a firecracker within my chest, threatening to make me come undone. When I breathe, I inhale your scent and exhale your passion. You challenge me in ways that I never dreamed possible. When I shirk and shy away from confrontation, your ardent embrace entices me to demand better. When I’m at a loss for words, you grant me yours, even if just for a moment. Your presence is commanding and frightening, and yet I wouldn’t know how to live without it. When something is unjust, it is you that calls for change. It’s one of my favorite things about you. I have to admit that you’re always on my mind, even when you probably shouldn’t be. I think of you in traffic, at work, and especially when I’m watching the news. More than anything, you push me to live my life outside of the bubble we share. You don’t feed into my codependent tendencies; instead, you motivate me to fight against them. You challenge me to consider all the options that I could pursue without you, even though we both know you’re always there for me when I need you. It’s comforting to know that even in my darkest moments, I can rely on your fiery spirit to brighten my path. You are my one true love. Everything I feel, I feel it because of you. You are difficult to love. Most people find you difficult to be around. You can be impatient, vulgar, and rude on your worst days. I’ve grown fond of calling you my unlovable lover in conversation. Sometimes I wish I didn’t love you because maybe then life would be a little easier, a little quieter, a little smaller. But you constantly remind me that love should be hard, loud, and large. I can’t promise much in this life, but I can promise you this; I will fight for your love every day the same way you fight for me. I love you, and I only hope everyone experiences the love I’ve been fortunate enough to share with you.
Your lover,
Makayla Judge
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Makayla, this is such a unique perspective! While anger usually gets a bad reputation, it has its merit as well! I love that you see injustices and use your anger to promote change. When it is used for the greater good, anger has the potential to truly make a difference. Thank you for sharing this different outlook!
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threadsofalife submitted a contest entry to
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Dear Fear
Dear Fear,
I see you. I know your patterns. You slip in quietly, not as a roar but as a whisper, as a slight hesitation, a second round of overthinking, a perfectly rational reason to wait just a little longer. You don’t paralyze me outright–you just keep me moving away from stillness. You make sure I’m always reaching for the next thing, because as long as I’m reaching, I never have to ask: Is this already enough?
But I’ve unraveled your disguise.
You call yourself ambition. You dress up as refinement, as striving, as self-improvement. But underneath it all, you are the belief that I must earn my right to rest, to be seen, to feel fulfilled. You have convinced me that I am safest when I am becoming, because if I am becoming, I do not have to confront the truth that scares me the most:
What if, after all the becoming, I still feel like something is missing?
I won’t play this game anymore.
Here’s why you won’t win:
I know now that I do not need to chase anything to be whole. Growth is not the same thing as peace. Motion is not the same thing as meaning. Reinvention is not the same thing as belonging. The future version of me–the one you keep telling me will feel better, lighter, more at home in herself–she is not waiting on the other side of more effort. She is already here.
I am overcoming you not by fighting you, but by refusing to let you dictate my pace. I will not let the next project, the next revision, the next version of myself be the condition for my contentment. I will write, create, share–not to chase an outcome, but because the act itself is enough. I will let my work exist without over-editing it into submission. I will let myself exist without constantly preparing for the next iteration.
I will stay present, no matter how uncomfortable that feels.
You can stay, Fear. I’m not exiling you. But you don’t get to lead me anymore. I will walk forward, not because I am afraid of stillness, but because my soul chooses movement from a place of fullness, not lack.
And the best part? I don’t need to win against you. Because I have already stopped losing to you.
Sincerely,
Me.style score 84%
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Hope, this is a great message! I love the lines “I’m not exiling you. But you don’t get to lead me anymore.” Sometimes, fear serves a purpose; but, fear should not always be in control. I’m glad you have taken that ability back for yourself. Excellent work ♥
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kellie_lieberman submitted a contest entry to
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The Pool of Possibility
Dear fear of mine,
Imagine peak summertime, peak childhood, skin fully lathered in Coppertone.
It was a Friday, my last day of swim lessons.
You introduced yourself to me with the persistence quite like a morning glory, winding from belly to throat until I became entangled with the unavoidably obvious fact that my time had come to walk the dreaded plank towards my destiny .
The final test.
The diving board.
Shuffling one foot in front of the other, I gripped the edge of the board with pruned toes and watched as the crystal blue oasis below transformed into the darkest pool of uncertainty .
Paralyzed, I wondered why anyone in their right mind would put themselves in a situation such as this one.
I looked over at my dad, whose words echoed in the canals of my water logged ears.
“You can do it”
Your vine of flowering hesitation tightened with each beat of my terrified heart, but somewhere, beneath the ripples of doubt, a quiet knowing grew.
So I made the leap, nose pinched, eyes closed, and plunged into the realization that the anecdote to loosen your hold is only to jump unabashedly into what I am called to do.
And as I continue to navigate life’s pools of possibilities, standing on the water’s edge of all that is before me, I see you not as the vine that holds me captive, but the current that unravels its grip, leading me from the tangled shores of uncertainty into the deep reservoir of my own courage.
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Kellie, what a sweet story. I loved this part: “leading me from the tangled shores of uncertainty into the deep reservoir of my own courage.” Fear can bring out the worst in us, but it can also show us how strong we can be! Great job ☻
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rolashoe submitted a contest entry to
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Clown Masks and Other Fun Things!
My Dearest Coulrophobia,
Whaaaaats uuuuup, my colorful, curly tormentor. How has life been treating you?
It’s been years, and now I don’t want to give you the wrong impression, but… well, sometimes, I don’t even think about you anymore, at least not since my daughter’s best friend died. That was sad. She was so young and beautiful, with so much of life ahead of her, and she and I shared our affiliation with you, but then I think to myself, “Why didn’t you stick around after the funeral?”
Where were you when I became a grandmother? I wasn’t one bit afraid on baby girl’s fifth birthday when one of your many garish minions appeared with its slimy fist full of balloons. Nope. I just lightly grimaced as he handed the most precious person in the world his helium filled hell rat and danced away. I didn’t even care when another of your cronies came to work a month later. In fact, I even opened the door to my boss’s office for him.
It was, after all, the nice thing to do.
He was a guest.
Still, I miss you. Sometimes I sit back, and I remember the stories my mom used to tell our family about when you were born.
You remember.
It was the sixties; I was three. We were in that new grocery store in downtown Alsip with the banners and the “big deals” on grapes. They had lights and horns with wild attention getting techno sounds grasping at everyone’s sensibilities, including my mother’s.
That is how I ended up alone when your lackey found me standing there, already afraid, already looking around for my salvation. Perhaps that is what he thought he was doing when my mind snapped. Mom said she and that poor little old lady never even saw me coming. One moment Mom was fighting for the juiciest grapes in that shiny new plastic bin, and in the next an ear-piercing scream ran through the crowd like a butcher knife through warm butter. People stood back almost as if to say, “I didn’t do it,” and then in the clearing, she saw me. I was crawling up that little old lady’s leg in my white dress, white stockings, and Mary Janes, and my whites weren’t white anymore.
Just seeing all that blood galvanized my mother into action. She was finally on the way to save me, but by that point, both me and that poor little old lady had broken away from her walker, and we were going down. Your serial killer wannabe looked like he wanted to escape—desperately. Yet, the crowd quickly converged to save me, or maybe it was just that little old lady because she was the one who was screaming. We all got squished together like a bad soup with chunky little bits of purses, shoes, carts, stockings, and one fluffy orange and green wig. It was awful. I dream in black and white, but all my nightmares are in strange shades of orange and green to this day.
Then, the ambulance came, my mother profusely apologized, and I left that brand new grocery store with a shiny new phobia to take to birthday parties, circuses, and grand openings till the end of time, but I guess it didn’t work out that way.
Yes, it was that funeral.
The last time I saw you clearly, I was standing at her gravesite. They called it suicide, and you were the one she was afraid of—you were the one that kept us both on edge, but the real enemy… that was much closer.
My real enemy dug her Mary Janes into that little old lady’s legs and sent her to the hospital.
I wonder what they call a fear of small children.
Anyway, I’ll be taking the King train to “It” land later today, but I know you won’t be there. You’re probably busy with all those pre-menopausal females out there cringing at that bathroom scene. What is this irrational fear of menses? I thought only women feared that monthly visitor.
Oh hey, but there is a thought. What if I developed a fear of irony? Would I fear myself? Would I go insane? What kind of name would my new fear have?
Do you know? If you do, please tell me when you write back. I would love to hear from you. We could reminisce. Mom would love that.
Much love,
Laura
P.S. If you see atychiphobia, tell him I said, “hi.”Style score for this piece is 100%
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charnelldunlap submitted a contest entry to
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isaacisme submitted a contest entry to
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Bam bam (food love )
Love it
Since the moment i saw you i fell in love
The age of 5 is where my mind goes watching All that at nick at night
At the age of 7-8 i would watch more channels and just couldn’t get my eyes off of the food channel
“bam ,bam” is the words i heard and the audience clapping right after it
Right before a commercial the show band will play doc gibs
It was chef Emeril lagasse i could not stop watching
He made me fall in love with the kitchen
Influencing my young self to make my first scrambled egg all by myself
Even though i was afraid of fire i still tackled that stove on medium low for a few minutes to cook the eggs
Food and music is a universal language on any occasion it soothes your soul from a birthday or attending a funeral
It is cold comfort food fro a reason
Learning that we have some many spices and seasonings other than salt and pepper
I would later on learn how to cook selfish ,chicken and other protein and just be so proud of myself
Impressing my mom and grandma with my dishes at a young age was the biggest pride
They can leave me alone at home and i will be fine i could cook for myself and sibling if i have to
My biggest pass time is in the kitchen whether it is with family or just trying out new dishes
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Isaac, I have always loved watching people cook who are passionate about food. Seeing them put their heart and soul into the food they cook is so inspiring. I am sure that your friends and family appreciate all the time you spend making delicious meals for them! Thank you for sharing your experience!
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isaacisme submitted a contest entry to
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fear who ? fear you ?
Dear fear ,
I have been avoiding you most my life until i figured out what was happening.
You see , i was the first born so my mom overprotected me from everything.
Every time i would fall she was there to catch me both literally and figuratively.
My dad was not around much and when he was i did not listen to his advice due to him not having my respect. Although a neglectful parent, he sought my attention to follow his counsel. His selective role-playing prompted me to selectively heed his words. Though some bitterness remains after all these years, a significant portion of his claims were accurate.
Its just the messenger was the right one to get the message across.
I was afraid of success to be honest because i was fine with being just average.
Was not into education but i was intelligent just never applied myself.
Was not into socializing i was okay being by myself
Am i good enough ? Am I not smiling enough? laugh more ?
I am okay with being alone
I remained completely frozen by fear and did nothing for years.
Now it fuels me and with those voices of self doubt i still go
My daily routine includes self-care, even when battling tiredness, depression, or anxiety.
I still go out , still workout and remain active not sitting much on my couch or laying in bed
Face your fears is what my grandfather always says
I learned to not only acknowledge you feat but to appreciate your role in life
Even when those voices tell me to stop i keep going
I’m afraid of the unknown, but I know what’s best for me lies ahead, so I’ll keep growing.
I hope you’re aware that I won’t back down from a fight with you.
Sincerely: your biggest and toughness rival my will to succeed , Isaac is me
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Isaac, this is such a great message. I love that you said you appreciate fear’s role in your life. It serves a purpose!! We just have to make sure that fear doesn’t overtake us and hold us back from doing things we truly want to do. Great work!
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ala submitted a contest entry to
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metamorphosis.
if “happiness is a butterfly”,
you are a bumble bee.
honey suckles seep
with opportunity
to propogate potential.the unversal gift
of the life // death // lifethe ability to embody
a honeycombtransmuting
persperation
into pollinationfinding a melody
in the hymn song
of the heartbeatsolice in the comfort
of faith,
knowing that Earth Mother,
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This is beautiful! Finding peace and comfort in faith is something that not everyone has. I am glad that you can trust that there is a plan for you no matter what happens. Great work ☺
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Thank you Harper! It’s not easy to trust what you can’t see, but I’ve been given so many reasons to ride the waves that life throws my way. & by doing so, I hope I teach others too 🙂
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kim3889 submitted a contest entry to
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rsmak submitted a contest entry to
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The Fear of Dying Without Ever Hearing 'I Love You'
Dear The Lingering Fear That Three Simple Words Will Never Be Mine,
You have always tried to define love for me. You told me love is something I’ve been denied, incomplete, something I’ve longed for but never truly received. You whisper that without hearing those three words—I love you—from a man who chooses me, my life will close like an unfinished story, a book with missing pages.
And I’ll admit, you’ve gotten to me. I am battling my mortality at 38 years young. And in the face of death, I am supposed to find peace. I have prepared myself for the idea that cancer may claim my body, that my time may be shorter than I ever imagined. But my deepest fear isn’t cancer killing me—it’s dying without ever having heard those three paltry words from a man who is not my father.
Is love real unless someone speaks it? If a tree falls in a forest and no one hears it, does it make a sound? If love is only ever felt in silences and gestures, and never spoken, did it ever exist?
I have loved before, in the quiet, secret way that women love when they fear their love is too much. The first time, I swallowed it whole, afraid that if I spoke it, I would lose him entirely. The second time, I gave it words, typed them out in an email, sent them into the void. He never responded. And now, I say it wholeheartedly to the man I share my life with, and still, there is only silence where those words should be.
At night, you curl up beside me, filling the emptiness left by unspoken words. Either I’m not enough, or altogether too much, you whisper. Leaving this world without hearing those words means I was never profoundly, unquestionably loved, you breathe. That I will be one of the few who slip through life without that moment, that whisper, that confirmation. You taunt me with the idea that I will never know what it feels like to be loved in the way the world deems most important.
But I am learning something about you, Fear.
You shrink in the face of love.
Not just the kind I have been waiting for, but the kind I have always had. The kind I have given, over and over again, without needing it to be mirrored back. The kind I have received in ways that were quieter than words—the hand that lingers on my shoulder, the friend who answers the phone at midnight, the dog that follows me from room to room, needing no language to tell me I matter.
You tell me I have been deprived of love. But maybe I have been mistaking the sound of it.
Because love is more than eros, the kind I have spent my life waiting for—the kind that burns bright, passionate, fleeting. Love is also phileo, the steady, unwavering presence of those who choose me, not out of obligation, but out of devotion. The grandmother who carries my stories as if they are her own, the people who stay through every season, the love that is chosen, not just felt. And above all, love is agape—the deepest, purest love, the love that gives without asking, the love that does not waver whether it is spoken or not. The love that outlasts life itself.
And I see now, agape is the highest form of love, because it is love that exists without condition. It is love that does not demand to be named. It is love that has surrounded me all along. And if I can accept that, then I can choose to live not in fear or longing but in abundance.
Because victory over you, my dear fear, is not waiting for love—it is being love. It is pouring into myself as if I am the greatest romance ever to exist. It is saying I love you even if I do not hear it back. It is no longer shrinking myself to be more palatable, no longer fearing that love given freely is love wasted. It is loving fully and without restraint, not to receive, but simply to be.
So regardless if I ever hear these words spoken by a man who is not my father, I will vanquish you with love.
Because I am already loved.
Because I am love.
With Love Always,
Rachel
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Rachel, this is so sweet. Love can be complicated but at times it can be so simple. Whether it is telling someone your romantic feelings for them, a baby stopping its crying fit as soon as it enters your arms, or even seeing a colorful drawing from a graffiti artist, love is EVERYWHERE if you look hard enough. Once you get past the negativity that…read more
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freeindeed-biblegmail-com submitted a contest entry to
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Dear fear,
Same principle as-Dear John.
You are not leaving, So-I will!
You tell me so much-untrue,
So I am divorcing and leaving you!
Not married to you, nor addictions few-
You won’t go, won’t budge, So-I will move!Though I have no idea how,
My learns of Jesus-He makes free,
Giving me rest… And He will best teach me,
How to defeat your homemade nest of Glee.
The one you built for years on end,
A false comfort-false feeling friend…
You was/is/am not who I thought-
You’re lying surviving, dread to me brought.You can have me no more!
No reason any longer to fear myself,
For I don’t control me anymore -Jesus does!
Under His umbrella of Grace-
I’m found and completely safe!Fear… whence comest thou?
I know not-though we are parting ways…
No evil to fear for the rest of my days!
No lies beside me-Jesus keeps them away,
Though around the bend you may sit at Bay-
I see thee far off and turn to you deaf ear,
You seek but don’t find… Your voice I cannot hear!No words to you I have of my own,
Because Jesus true-builds me a new home!
You cannot have my kids, you cannot have my wife-
For you are dead my old cheating friend…
Because Jesus has ended your life!I’ve already known fear,
Now it’s time to know God-
And fear cannot win because…2 Timothy 1:7
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, of love, and of a sound of mind.… This promised fact I trust and love!!!
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Timothy, yet another amazing piece! Fear can hold us captive and control our lives if we let it. I am so glad that you trust and faith in God has allowed you to defeat some of your fears. Keep up the great work. You have improved so much as a writer!! ♥
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Ty soooo much Harper V 😊
You are completely cool 😎
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How sweet! I always love reading your pieces ☺
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Thank you so much Dear,
But no…
You are the sweet one
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roselol2001 submitted a contest entry to
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Dear Me,
I grew up in a household where anger was first, love was last. No one nurtured me lovingly. I spent my days in fear. My parents were so wrapped up in their own world it seemed they forgot that parenting is more than just food, shelter, clothes, etc. My biggest fear is becoming anything like them.
My father was not the best. On the outside, he was a teddy bear that the world loved. If you asked anyone, he was overall a good man. The man I knew, however, was terrifying. He drank and did drugs. He also was very abusive towards my mother and I. The things I seen go on between him and my mother no child should ever see. The things he did to me, on the other hand, were far worse. Without going into too much detail, black and blue were colors I was very familiar with. When around outsiders, he was loving, which at that young confused me. I could not tell what was reality. I never knew who to trust. I had a very hard time with things such as making friends, understanding who to ask for help, controlling my emotions, and many other things. He also put me in situations with other adults that had no business being anywhere near me in the ways they were. This caused more issues. Like not understanding boundaries, allowing things to happen to me that were very bad, and other unspeakable things. To some it up, he was my dad, but in reality, he was my nightmare, day in and day out.
My mother is a gentle being. She worked very hard to make sure me and my brothers had everything we could ever need in life. Within that, she lacked in places that are very vital to a child. With everything she went through with my dad, she forgot what it was to be a mother. Or at least to me, anyway. My mom got pregnant with my twin brothers when I was two years old. Sadly, my dad was not happy about this and begged her to get an abortion. When they were born, one of them was ill and almost died. This sent my mother into a rage against my dad for ever wanting an abortion. So when things with my dad got worse, she made it her mission to protect them against anything bad that came from my dad. Sadly, this left me in the dark. I at the very young age of three years old had to learn to protect myself. She would clean up after every mess they made, always alert them if they did something my dad didn’t like, and to always take the fall if he was upset with them. This caused me and my mom to become very distant. I did not feel love and nurtured by her at all.
I just had my first child. He is the sweetest little guy in the world. I could not imagine him going through anything I did as a child. My biggest fear is becoming like my parents. I don’t worry about me becoming like my dad too much. Sadly, I have some of his mental problems, such as the bipolar disorder, depression, and major anxiety. I worry about these things because I could hurt my child with my words or my distance. However, I go to counseling and get treatment for these things, working really hard to ensure I am more than just my mental status. I also fear that overworking or becoming too focused elsewhere might create a distance between my child and me, similar to the distance I experienced with my mother. I don’t plan to do these things, but I am not perfect.
So, to my son, I promise to try. I promise to focus on everything that involves you. I promise to put you first, no matter the situation. I promise to use all I have inside me to ensure you never feel unloved or unprotected. Most importantly, I promise to make sure you never have to question yourself one day the way I’m questioning myself now. I will always make sure you understand what true love is and how to give it back to the word in your own ways. I know I will not always be a perfect mother, but I will do my very best to be the best that I can be because you, my child, hold my heart and soul in the palm of your hands.
Yours truly,
A very nervous momma.
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Rose, I am left almost heartbroken at this piece. I can’t believe that a child could be put through this much mental and physical torment and have to act like ti was all okay in front of others. You are an incredible person and I know that you will be an amazing mom. Despite what you went through being such a negative experience, this will only…read more
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I somehow did not see your reply until today. But thank you your words mean more to than you will ever know💛
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rsmak submitted a contest entry to
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A LOVE LETTER TO COLON CANCER
My Dearest Cancer,
When I saw the prompt for this competition—Write a love letter to something, not someone—I knew immediately what I would choose. And I knew it would be controversial. A love letter to cancer? To the harbinger of suffering, the thief of time, the unwelcome guest in so many bodies? It’s a touchy subject, raw and untouchable for many, but for me, meeting you has been a love story—as odd as that may sound.
Not the kind that sweeps you off your feet, but the kind that guts you open, that forces you to see yourself in ways you never dared. You arrived without invitation, burrowing into the most private parts of me—my asshole, of all places—demanding attention, forcing my hand. If nothing else, you’ve got a sense of humor. At first, I braced for war. That’s what everyone told me to do—fight it, beat it, don’t let it win. But I have never been one to follow convention, or accept an easy narrative.
And I found something unexpected.
You became my permission slip. To grieve unapologetically. To cry without restraint, to let others witness my sorrow instead of tucking it away in the polite folds of I’m fine. You made my grief legible in a way my mother’s suicide and my father’s dementia never did. When I lost them, I learned how to disappear into my pain, how to mask my devastation in ways that made others comfortable. But you? You made it impossible to hide. You turned my suffering inside out, made it visible. And people—finally—saw me. They didn’t look away. They sat with me, showed up, and held space for my sorrow in ways I never allowed them to before.
You made my life urgent in a way that only cancer can, forcing me to take inventory of every choice, breath, and heartbeat. What is worth my time? Who do I love? How do I want to spend this one wild, unpredictable life?
I never wanted to beat you, not in the way others do. How could I fight something that has given me so much? Instead, I want to sit with and learn from you. You are the manifestation of all I have endured—trauma that settled into my bones, choices that I made with my body before I understood what they meant. You are not some foreign invader; you are a part of me, shaped by my past, by everything that has ever happened to me. And if I am to heal, I must first love you. Accept you.
You’ve made me take chances. Cracked me open a second time, made me braver, softer, more compassionate. You have shown me the art of forgiveness—not just for others, but for myself. You have sharpened my hunger for life, not in the vague, theoretical sense, but in the way my hands now linger on warm skin, the way I savor the taste of food, the way my laughter rises unrestrained, the way I say I love you first, without fear of how it lands.
You have given me the courage to write again. To pull my stories from the marrow of my experience and lay them bare. Without you, I might never have let my voice slip into the world in the way it was meant to. And maybe that is what you were always meant to do—not to silence me, but to make me louder.
And when you leave, as I hope you will, I will carry the lessons you’ve etched into me. I will cradle the urgency, clarity, and appreciation you’ve awakened. I’ll remember how you taught me to live as if every breath is borrowed, every sunrise a rare gift, every touch a tether to the divine.
I know someday we will have to part. You will fade, and I will go on. But there’s a small part of me that wants to hold onto the urgency you have given, the sharpened awareness of how precious, fleeting—miraculous my existence is.
And while I may have embraced you, I will not become your sycophant. I do not want to love you so much that I let you consume me. I will not bow to you or glorify you beyond your purpose. You have been my teacher, my reckoning, my reminder. But I won’t let you write the ending.
After all, all is fair in love and war—and I have chosen love.
You haven’t merely helped me answer the question of whether I want to live. You have shown me what it means to truly live. And when I think of you in the quiet of my solitude, I won’t curse your name but instead whisper a soft thank you.
And for that, for all of it, I love you.
With gratitude,
Rachel(PRO WRITING AID STYLE SCORE 91%)
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Rachel, I hope that if I ever receive a diagnosis of something as terrifying as cancer that I can approach it with the same courage that you do. The way you are able to see that even something terrible can be a learning experience is truly inspiring. I wish you the best as you continue on your journey and I hope that you are healed! Thank you for…read more
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Rachel,This is beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. I am glad you feel you can let go and be free and live in a way you never have. But I want to give you the biggest hug in the world. I hope you feel better and your life is all you dream it to be and more. Sending lots of hugs. <3 Lauren
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Unwanted
Dear My Mental Hindering Voice,
The sense of defeat is my fear. There are many mental emotions that are associated with that. Which includes; Frustration, Self-doubt and being powerless.
Just when we have reached the peak of our goal, that negative intellectual-emotional wave comes through mention, “You have the inability to achieve anything higher than your normal shift job.” She happens to be in her car and stated, “Insecurity and cognitive dissatisfaction no longer lives here rent free, because I am her, and she is a shining light!”
Thinking, “You so see, you are a failure, right?” Like everything you do is a loss. Whatever your abilities are, they’re lacking; you fall short and no one is pleased. So, I am speaking out loud, “Confidence is why I get me out of bed!”, attacking new tasks, and making someone day is the highlight of my life. My darkness, I expel you from all my personal tunnels!
“Defenseless obstacles that inherited setbacks. That also caused you to have a change in strength that made you useless and minor authority.” stated her abstract self. She looked at her beautiful reflection and stated, “Being beat down & paralyzed or being a victim.”, I eject you from any influence on my cognitive thoughts, even on my dark days.
I, Jamie Rachelle Smith, nullifies any negative intellectual, anything less than confidence and paralyzed influence on cognitive thoughts. Because you are her, a d she is you and you are Mrs. Jamie Rachelle Smith.
With so much Love and no misunderstanding;
A Victorious Woman
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Jamie, this is so sweet! I am so glad that your gain of confidence helped you battle your fears.It is crazy how quickly fear can grab ahold of us. We just have to stay strong and our light will shine through the darkness fear tries to instill in us. Keep up the great work! ♥
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I greatly appreciate that! That means the world to me I hope it was a inspiration to you ❤️
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Awww, of course! It was, thank you!
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You made my day! Thanks for reading
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Dear Fear of Unbroken Cycles,
Through contemplation, self-work, and a willingness to set and stick to my goals, I have already overcome you multiple times. However, every time I overcome you, instead of slinking away, vanquished, you morph instead. You have remained linked to the root fear, that this cycle will never be broken, but you sagely switch from one facet to another, evading full decimation through your ability to evolve.
I remember the dread that things would never change and never improve, that I would be stuck forever in this emotional and psychological abuse. However, with my adulthood came a freedom to make my own choices. One of my first choices was to leave rather than continue taking abuse from my would-be-protectors.
My second choice was to seek professional help. I had a more concrete fear, one I could name to said professional. I wanted to work on ways to avoid what felt like an inevitability. I did not want to become my father, with his anger, pride, and addiction, all of which would always be more valuable to him than his family. I also did not want to marry my father, an adage that my mother had been scaring me with for longer than I could remember. Little girls always marry their fathers, she would say, and I would shudder myself to sleep at the idea that I could be so blinded or affected as to end up with a monster like Him.
So I worked through those fears. I grew, and I changed. For a time, I was convinced this fear was gone completely. I became engaged and married to a man who was kind, who had no vices harder than video games, and with no adverse anger issues that I noticed in our three years of courtship. Better yet, when we did have conflicts, he was the first to say we should see a counselor to avoid our small problems becoming insurmountable. He was willing to work on himself, too.
As years pass, I continue to work on myself. I am back in therapy due to work stress and burnout. I work on creating healthy boundaries between myself and my parents. I can only have them in my life in a way that feels safe and manageable. Now my fears are about my siblings, whom I practically raised at times. They have not had as easy of a time extricating themselves from the habits and mistakes of our parents. They have fallen into similar patterns and pitfalls. I look at my sister and see shades of our mother. She is stronger in many ways and is actively working on herself as well, but she struggles to find peace within herself and is always trying to seek affirmation from her partners. When she is stressed and lonely, she leans too heavily into her vices. She can be erratic and difficult to communicate with. I want to help her veer of this path, because we all know where it leads, but I am not sure how.
I look at my brother and hear my father in the thunderous roar of his anger. He can be irrational and prideful. He takes every comment as an attack and steps forward guns blazing, ready to defend himself. Even when the “enemy” is a loved one, even his three-year-old daughter. I see him treating his daughter the same way our father treated us and it breaks my heart. I want him to look inward and find a way to soothe his anger, but I worry he is too much like our father to ever think that the problem lies within him. To ever consider that maybe he is the one who needs help.So I stand here on the outside, having broken free of the cycle. I watch my family still spinning in these pre-made ruts, unable to break free. Unable to see for yourselves how stuck you are. My fear is that there is nothing I can do to help you. I have offered a hand and you’ve smacked it away. I have held up mirrors and you shatter them with denials, detract with your dismissals. I ache and I stress, because not only do you suffer and wither away, but you hold my niece and nephews close, tying them to the cycle. Will you give them no other choice than to follow in your footsteps as well? Will this endless cycle of addiction and abuse be their fate?
The only way to conquer this fear is admit to myself that these choices, your choices, are ultimately out of my hands. I have to find some way to accept those things I cannot change. And learn to love you anyway, warts and all.
With much trepidation,
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Michelle, this is a beautiful piece. I am sorry you had to go through this; that must have been so difficult for you. While I was reading this I was thinking exactly what you said in your last paragraph: you have to recognize when things are out of your control. Leaving things up to the universe can be scary, but some things you truly have no say…read more
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My significant other
Meeting you was like winning the lottery. It was the best decision I ever made to become your girlfriend. Thank you for loving me for who I am and not wanting to change a thing about me. Thank you for helping me love myself more each day. You consistently go above and beyond, and you have been nothing but a blessing in my life. I’m grateful for you every day, in every moment.
Your touch, your scent, your smile, your eyes—everything about you is perfect to me. You are the most selfless, unique, outgoing, and loving person I have ever known. I remember the first time we met and our first conversation. I recall the moment you thought I was cute and when you asked me to be your girlfriend. It was in Central Park, and it was raining. We stood under a bridge, soaked, and you held me in your arms, asking, “Will you be my girlfriend?” It felt like a scene from a romcom.
I remember our first kiss and all the special moments we’ve shared. We have now been together for 992 days, and we continue to promise each other forever. With you, it truly feels like eternity. I remember when I first fell in love with you; it wasn’t love at first sight. I fell in love when you stayed with me at the hospital for ten hours. That’s when I knew you were different from other men I’ve known, and I love you for that.
People say that when you are truly with the right person, you start to look alike. That’s what I see in us. I love you, handsome, forever and always.
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Jacqueline, I am so happy that you’ve found a person that you feel happy and content with! Being in a relationship that helps you love yourself more sounds amazing. I hope that your relationship continues to grow and flourish. Thank you for sharing your experience!
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To the Shadow I Called Home
To my greatest fear,
I love you. I mean, how could I not? You’ve kept me safe from the horrors of what I could become, what I surely would become without you here to protect me. I love you for it, and everything else you’ve shaped me for. I thought you should know that.
Years have gone by, standing in your shadow, trembling in the cool comfort of the darkness cast because of it. We exist in a harmony like none other I’ve experienced, and I am forever in your debt. I repay by only knowing what you’ve allowed me to know: I can truly be safe in what I find familiar. That and never more.
The heat could have taken me out. The sun could have blinded me. It could have burnt me to a crisp if I dared reach into the world around me. With every step, I trusted your judgment. I knew you’d lead me into a new city, one away from dangers, from prying eyes, from the light that would surely hurt me if even a finger got caught in the rays.
In time, I’ve grown to enjoy it. At least, that’s what my captive mind has told itself. How could I understand true, unfiltered joy through the lens of false security you’ve given me so graciously? The rose-colored glasses you glued to my eyes turned out to shield the unknown and the scary and the horrors, but also the feeling of freedom every soul in the world longs for. That’s when I knew I had to crack the shades.
Believe me, I saw it when you protested. You contorted in every way to keep me under your belt, ignoring all the times I told you I wanted just one hour in the sun. Really, it made me wonder who I was without you, if I even knew the person I could be out of the shadow. Your words played like a broken record over and over, again and again. “I can truly be safe in what I find familiar.” That reassurance had gotten me through years of hard times and missed opportunities, and I turned out alright. So, what’s the issue?
I wasn’t happy. Iron chains turned into your iron grip, holding me back from a wonderful life I knew I could have if I only broke free. Tearing off those chains to see the light was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Trying to find peace in the unknown ate away at my sense of self, or what I thought that was.
The beautiful thing is: the light warmed me. Gentle heat radiating on my skin eased the shivers and tears and shallow breaths. I inhaled the air the sun had touched for the very first time. Sure, the path ahead was bright, casting a ring of white into my eyes so I couldn’t see over five feet in front of me. Sure, any monster or creature could be lurking outside my periphery. If I’d hidden in my shadow, I wouldn’t have seen all the beauty this world could, and does offer to those willing to look.
We, as real, authentic people, are handed fear to protect us from the dangerous things; some that could kill our bodies and some that could kill our hope.
Even so, I am you, and you are me. Accepting a fear like you to live with, learn and grow with, and explore who I am outside of is nothing but a blessing. I promise you that.
Sincerely, me.Style Score: 89
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Norah, this is a powerful piece. Most people think of their fears with regret and sadness, so I like that you acknowledge fear’s impact on your life. You are right that fear protects us and keeps us from putting ourselves in unnecessary danger, but it can also hold us back from seeing all the world has to offer. Thank you for sharing this…read more
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natalieyurek submitted a contest entry to
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Goodbye Fear
You have always been a good friend to me, the best honestly. Dedicated to keeping me safe when I myself could not. Like when I run off to explore the highest cliffs, tallest trees, and biggest waves that this world has to offer. You keep me from falling, from failing. I always pushed myself, but you knew my limits. I think I began running from you years ago. Slow progress at first, but now I am moving full speed. Yet, you still follow, always with me. Popping up in the most unexpected places. I am afraid that every year has been a lifetime and somehow they have all passed me by. Because of your worries, I have kept myself from all the world has to offer, because I was too afraid to get hurt. There are just some things I will never know without taking the risk. When I step off the edge of the cliff, I do not know if I will fall or fly. But it is time to find out. I cannot chain myself to the ground any longer because I am afraid of what lies among the clouds.
Fear, it is time for me to try to live without you. I will always trust you to keep me safe, but safety is not what I’m looking for anymore. I love you, but it is time for me to move on. Thank you for everything. Maybe I will see you again someday, but I really hope I do not.
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Natalie, fear gets a bad reputation but I agree with what you said about it: “You keep me from falling, from failing.” Though fear causes us anxiety, it also protects us from making decisions that might end badly. Despite this, we still need to learn to let our fear go so that we can thrive and reach our dreams. Thank you for sharing!
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