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  • YOU NEVER KNOW

    Never ignore a person who cares for you.
    Because someday you’ll realize
    You’ve lost a diamond, while you were busy collecting stones.
    You see…I’ll do a lot for a man I love…
    But I’ll do even more for a man I know that loves me…or so I thought.
    You’ve got to build with somebody who wants it as bad as you do.
    I thought he did but I was fed something until I didn’t want to be fed anymore.
    I never wanted to control him.
    I wanted to let him do what he wanted so I can see what he would rather do.
    I let him lead.
    There is something sexy about letting a man lead in the relationship, just as long as he’s not controlling it or controlling me.
    His actions will show how much he respects you and how much he loves you.
    Just because you’ve brought something up, it doesn’t mean you want to argue.
    It means communication.
    It means you want to resolve things, get some clarity, learn, and grow together.
    You both are adults and should be able to communicate.
    I did so much for a man and was left because he couldn’t communicate and I believe he grew bored and that it broke my self esteem.
    Maybe the 6, almost 7 years was too much for him.
    But he told me this:

    “You care and worry about the wrong things and let them eat you up to the point you turn and lash out so how about you know something. If it wasn’t for you half of my ships wouldn’t have sailed, you saved my ass on numerous occasions. You are worth more than money can buy and know that you yourself just in care alone… your currency is priceless, you’re more than dreams can buy. Like stop letting the little things you think and feel deter you from being in a happier place. Yeah things suck and aren’t what you want but that doesn’t make it worthless.”

    He lost his diamond.
    Funny because I was born in April.
    He knows what I am worth now after everything he’s done to me but yet I still ask myself this question…
    Why didn’t he fight for me?
    Why wasn’t I enough for him to stay around for?
    Why has he stayed with who he’s with now but has let me go so fast?
    Oh wait, I’m sorry, he repeatedly tells me he’s not with her.
    Things aren’t what they seem.
    He’s not happy.
    He wants to get away from all of that.
    I am the mother of his youngest daughter.
    The woman his other children love and who I love so much like I was the one who carried them inside of me and gave them life.
    His best friend of over 20 years.
    We planned a forever together, chose the colors, the theme, songs, and now look.
    Nothing…
    All due to his infidelity and I can’t seem to shake it off that maybe it was also due to me growing half of him inside of me.
    He and I weren’t ready to be parents again.
    But I accepted this beautiful little blessing that came to be another girl.

    Helen-Marie Rivera

    Voting starts November 5, 2024 12:00am

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  • WANTING YOUR REAL LOVE

    I want you.

    Nothing more than to just give you those soft kisses on your lips and to have my eyes connect with yours so you feel my love exude from my stare the same way they exude from my lips when they kiss you so passionately and so softly.

    Like they did when they saw you for the first time after all of those years.

    When my tongue slipped into your mouth and felt your tongue as they began to slow dance with mine.

    I pulled back just a little so I could suck your bottom lip so softly stopping slowly that at the end you heard that pop just when I let go as it ended it with a soft tap kiss as both of our eyes were closed.

    I want you to want me the same way again.

    To take me in and in every way possible…in all ways…always. Take in my words, take in my body, take in the softness of my voice as my “I love you’s” come pouring out of my mouth like the emotions and the feelings come pouring out of my heart.

    Grab my thighs and hold my hands as you begin to thrust and make love to me so passionately.

    Interlock your fingers into mine and take my body like you have taken my body numerous times before except you have somehow managed to make every intimate moment feel like a distant memory because that’s exactly what it is…just a memory that we might not be able to relive or make happen again. They won’t happen ever again as much as I would like it to but we both know we have been avoiding the possibility and my insecurities and negativity are a big issue and get in the way.

    The memories of when you would release your love into me and then seal it with a forehead kiss are my favorite. We’d then fall asleep in each other’s arms grinning with satisfaction as I lay my head on your chest while hearing your heart beat racing because you put in a lot of work doing what you did to me. That was electrifying, intensifying, yet peaceful.

    I used to live for these moments and I loved the intimacy. The communication we had and still do have was and is amazing. You are my peace on my most chaotic and most challenging days. We are slowly gravitating towards each other back slowly. I am loving the smiles I see on your face, the sun as it hits your eyes on some mornings and those full lips… goodness those full lips make me want to grab your face and give you the most beautiful yet passionate kiss ever so I can grab your hands and place them on my thighs so you can make your move but I will refrain from doing that. The intimacy is intensifying again and intimacy isn’t just sex. It is everything.

    Helen Marie Rivera

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    • This is so moving and describes the intoxicating feelings of love. When love is new, it is all we can think about. Once those feelings of newness wear off, we begin to see the cracks. Then, it is “just a memory that we might not be able to relive or make happen again”. You did a wonderful job of capturing those conflicting feelings.

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