Dear Leah,
You thought you would have it all figured out by twenty-five, as if it were some kind of coming-of-age, a time when you would finally get there. You thought you knew where you wanted to be.
You had no idea where. What you wanted changed when you met yourself at twenty-one for the first time, reclaiming and rediscovering your authentic…read more

To Leah, with love.

What is love?
I wonder if it’s something I got from my parents
They sustained me through my childhood
I wonder if it’s something I got from my friends
Who listened and said they understood

But how can love be something
I get from others
When I know myself wholly like no one else can

Is love something you get? You tak…read more

On September 27, 2023, corresponding with the Jewish Calendar date, the 14th of Tishre, my son turned one year old. They say the months go by fast, watching your child grow. The year did not go by quickly. It was packed, busy, complex, beautiful, delightful, frightening, life-changing.
At the beginning of September, I was admitted to inpatient…read more

Dear Leah,
I see you now, floundering mindlessly through your days, wishing them away.
I see you now, holding so tightly onto your beliefs that they’re almost killing you. I see you now, your thirst for adventure, your wish to break free, the tightening in your chest, willing you not to. Stopping you. I’m so sorry for stopping you, Leah.
I wan…read more

I woke up with you this morning
Somehow we do everything together
I don’t believe you are me
Just a part of
What makes me able
To do things like live
Even if sometimes, I question if I want to.

It’s like an old friend that tags along
Even when they’re no longer wanted
But the only reason they do is
For your benefit
But you treat them badly
Fo…read more