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  • Ashley Rivera shared a letter in the Group logo of Mental HealthMental Health group 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Poem about leaving trauma behind and Waking Up

    Here’s a poem I wrote to not let shame confine me anymore to its demands I talk openly about it in order to normalize it.

    Felt undeserving and unwhole when I grappled with that day.
    It spun me around as the vicious cycle begun under way.
    The clueless side of the trauma revealed itself, I blamed myself more than you know.
    I wrestled with being rejected and shunned, I can recount it blow by blow.
    It felt as if the breath had been knocked out of me.
    I had hid most of my misery.
    My authentic self was buried underneath the rubble.
    I began to live in a reclusive bubble.

    Disorganized thoughts are stamped on my brain,
    I’ve held on to so much shame.
    Trying to regain composure when adrenaline keeps running through my veins.
    Where is this peace of mind that is supposed to be so effortless to find?

    I’ve realized it’s out of my hands,
    There’s no point in forcing it at everyone’s expense.
    I’ve gotten good at blocking out the overload of demands,
    I’ve learned to desensitize my experiences when they’re too intense.

    Bring it back to reality as I burn through all these cigarettes,
    It’s foolish to think it’s over just yet.
    But when I wake up from this bad dream,
    You better believe I’ll return from the ashes.
    I’ll be the one standing among the masses.

    Ashley Rivera

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    • ASHLEY!!!!!! This is soooo good!! so strong ! So inspiring and so powerful. I think we have all felt shame at some point in our lives – often for something that wasn’t our fault. I felt a lot of shame after my sexual assault. This poem is so powerful. You are taking your power back. You are owning ! Claiming it! And letting the shame fall by the wayside. So proud of you! Thank you for sharing.

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      • @theunsealed Thank you for putting my poem on the board it really means a lot to me. And also for seeing and hearing me through this poem. Shame is a ferocious beast that we all can learn to tame. I see you and hear you as well Lauren. We are mighty warriors that get to tell our stories through our voices. I am grateful to this platform and we don’t have to shy away from our struggles, it’s what makes us stronger in the end. 😉

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        • Aww I am so glad you like it here. We are happy you are here encouraging us, inspiring us and showing us love as well. What we go through in life I truly believe just shows us how strong and powerful we truly are. Thank you for being a part of this community! We <3 you!

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    • Hi Ashley,

      First of all, this poem was just splendid. I liked how, what’s the term, it’s like cut-throat and openly vulnerable to how we feel about ourselves. Shame and trauma, I hate how shame is put near trauma, since we shame ourselves for the trauma we went through but we need to keep reminding ourselves it’s not our faults.

      I liked your ashes and dreams comparisons. Our trauma is burning ashes, intoxicating and basically it has no more life to bite us. However, trauma still lingers as the the taste of burning ashes, and we still dream about and get pulled in this viscous cycle by doing it all over again. It reminds me of a hamster wheel we keep running into and facing our trauma, it feels like an endless cycle.

      I always find wiring and poetry a great outlet with our spiraling emotions. I can see how much you pour into this, I don’t know who’s next in the picture with ya, don’t want to make assumptions. Whoever it is, I hope that person has helped you walk through your own traumas. I find letting people in the hardest, so I hope this person gave you that:)

      Remember, we’re survivors, to the traumas we live through. Keep on thriving and never let your personal demons and monsters win.

      Best wishes,

      Danni cat whiskers

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      • @dannicatwhiskers

        I’m so happy I could write something that lifted our voices together and reminds us how strong we are on the inside. I like that you recognize how powerful writing can be for our therapy and healing. You definitely get me thinking how trauma is like elastic it sticks and it stretches throughout our lifetime but we don’t have to be defined by our trauma. I love your enthusiasm and transparency. I actually posted that picture of my current relationship partner who’s been there for me thick and thin. He’s the reason why I can talk about my trauma and has helped me not self-destruct. Thank you for lighting up my day with your kind response! 😉

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    • You can & you will ! Love this . Definitely resonated with the finding your authentic self under the debris of the traumas & Feeling reclusive . It gets greater later though , we got this

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      • @sadeb101 appreciate your encouraging words of validation 😉 I’m happy I could be encouraging to you as well and you resonated with my poem. Yes, it does improve day by day some days are more difficult but it doesn’t have to control us, we do got this in the bag! 😉

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