There are moments when past memories of trauma hit us out of the blue, then we wonder what triggered it. But what we can do is look at where we are now, be present with God, and also see how far we’ve come. Growing up I was always outcasted, and discriminated against over my skin color, even my alternative grunge/gothic fashion. I’ve had moments of being suicidal, dealt with heartbreaks over relationships, betrayals by fake friends, and so on. It’s not fun at all dealing with these things, and feeling neglected and even outcasted by your own family, being black and loving different music genres via metal, and Alternative Rock. Although there are various of genres I love like Pop, R&B, Worship, J-Rock, Country Rock etc. and I’ve learned to stop seeking validation, and continue being my own person, because I love who I am.

I love being compassionate, and bringing positivity to others, especially those who deserve it. As I’ve learned to be authentic, I’ve became a magnet to others who was hurting too, and who understood. So I’ve made friends who also was on the same spiritual path as I. I’ve always stayed focused and gotten into meditation, looked into Hatha Yoga, Qi Gong, even Reiki, I look back and seen all the pain I’ve endured, then transmuted it into greatness, I’ve started writing music, as music is my greatest passion, now have two EP’s released, and working on my first album. I’ve started my online business 7 years ago, where I do prophetic readings for clients, also Quantum Reiki, and Hypnotherapy. Unfortunately my mother passed away 5 years ago, and I’ve struggled financially, but I’ve kept faith and picked myself back up and continued my career, and yes as a black man in the spiritual business, I’ve dealt with competition of others who tried to sabotage me, you would think those who so called share “love & light” wouldn’t do this, but unfortunately they do.

I remain focused, and even gotten into modeling 3 years ago, and now going for acting, I am doing all the things I’ve always wanted to do, even a spiritual consultant on YouTube via Ancient Bloodline of Light. I choose to keep pushing no matter what others try to throw at me, and I pray for them, I continue to be a service for others so they can understand that no matter what life throw at them, they can make it, and change their reality into better things. After getting my diploma in Hypnosis/Hypnotherapy, It was like my green light to personally being able to aid someone to reprogram their subconscious mind to become a better version of themselves, and I love that, I love I can provide guided meditation for others also. Don’t let these burdens get you down, at times we feel like giving up, but it’ll always work out so long as you keep faith; because your energy, and the energies around you will work with you, and you’ll be able to see the changes; the more present you are, the better the outcome.

We can all make it, whenever these bad memories pop in our head, keep in mind you react to them based on how you’ve felt during that experience, so when you reprogram your subconscious mind to feel something else, they won’t effect you as much. There are times where we may beat ourselves up, but you’re doing a better job than you think, the little things count as the big ones, so even a little progress matter, please keep that in mind. You’ve might had been belittled so much, that your self esteem was hurt by those who are close to you, I’ve experienced that with my older siblings, because I wasn’t superficial and street, I was targeted, especially being opened minded towards others sexuality, and didn’t felt threatened. And to them when I was a teenager and had my emo fashion, they’ve seen it to be equivalent to someone who came out as gay.

This was told to me by someone who was in relations with one of them. I am happy to keep my distance from them and go my own way, proving them wrong as a man, facing obstacles in life. I didn’t have to do illegal things to survive like them, no judgement. My point is others who try to bring you down, are proving to you that you are already above them, and later on you’ll understand it, this is why we must pray for others, instead of turning to hate like them.