Run

Running from the past like if my stamina could forever last. Sweat dripping down my face letting fear take its place as I run the never ending race. The memories flood my mind why can’t I unbind. Left turn , right turn but when is it my turn. I trip on a curb and come tumbling down letting all the memories drown around. Laying in what used t…read more

You’re so social they say. But little do they know my skin crawls and I feel like I’m going to ball every time I’m in front of you all. The panic and manic start to settle in , where do I even begin. I worry if I’m worthy or if they’ll all look at me and scurry. It all starts to get blurry and my mind starts to scatter like if everything I’ve acc…read more

I accept you vs I’m compliant towards you. These two words are often confused, confused like me. Acceptance ; when someone agrees with a group and internalizes their beliefs. 
Compliance ; when someone publicly agrees with a group, but doesn’t change their own beliefs.
You date acceptance but are married to compliance. You dip your toes in the oc…read more

I’m the star child, isn’t that wild? The one who got good grades and was always praised. “It must feel so nice always feeling suffice”, people always say, but they never see my dismay. My brother and sister messed up, but not me, I’m the star child. The child who never messes up and keeps her chin tucked , the child that they tell their fri…read more

Most people when they think of green they think of trees , grass , simple things. When I think of green I think of my whole life. My future wife. It’s hard to think of you in such simple ways, you’re vast. Even with your past you still find ways to laugh and smile I’d drag my bloody feet a thousand miles just to see you smile. I still can’t…read more

Your fire is what I admire, what I desire. You light a fire in my soul and fill the bowl in my chest with passion my mind can’t even ration. I must be in a daze or maze, trying to run and hide but every corner I turn your fire still burns. I crash into wall after wall getting burned and even then I wouldn’t want to return. Because a life wit…read more

I used to make a wish on 11:11. But now the time goes by and I don’t even bat an eye, because I used to wish for you and I. You are the shooting star I wished on when I was young , the birthday candles I blew out on my 23rd birthday, the penny I threw in the fountain, you are everything I asked for and more. How did I get so lucky ? Was it all t…read more

Old self

You’re so social they say. But little do they know my skin crawls and I feel like I’m going to ball every time I’m in front of you all. The panic and manic start to settle in , where do I even begin. I worry if I’m worthy or if they’ll all look at me and scurry. It all starts to get blurry and my mind starts to scatter like if everythin…read more