I appreciate you for everything you’ve done, because I saw the light in you as you saw the light in me, we transformed together, and as I write this letter I wish you were still here with me.
I thought love was a game, full of fantasies that could never be.
The saying “home is where the heart is” is true, and my heart chose you.
Over and over again i feel how we could’ve been more than just a fantasy,
We were real, the feelings we had for each other were bigger than just a feeling, we were mindfully connected. We knew other deeper than the world ever would,
I still would think about you after we broke up, waiting for you to come back home.
Unfortunately, i wasn’t the one you saw your life to be, you got a new girl,
But would you still think of me? I know you have missed me like i missed you, ‘
You even told me how you felt out of anger with your girl in the corner,
And yet you still couldn’t be open but your real feelings towards me.
As these feelings fade, all that was left was our memories, but now those are gone too.
I burned a thread of soul ties that made me think i couldn’t be alive,
Because without you I felt like nothing, but I realize now you taught me what true love could be.
I wish things didn’t have to end, at least the way it did, and now i hate that i can’t think of you,
I cant feel you in my bed when i wake up, and i can’t hear you, i cant feel your touch.
I believe we were destined to be like a dream, but now I know it was all a fantasy for me to believe we could’ve been something. When you hurt me, put your hands on me but I still wanted you, I know I could never find you.if you wanted me you would have fought for me, and not walked away when things didn’t go as plan, because that’s what i would’ve done, that’s what real love does,but it’s also true people don’t have the same hearts and never will, and that would be accepting the fact that we were not meant to be like i thought we were,but it still hurts.
Even burning our soul contact, I feel as if you’re almost near, that you can never truly disappear.
You were my knight and shining armor, that understood my darkness, as I did with yours.
So why walk away? From what could’ve been a dream come true if you were only honest and real.What a shame that I can’t even blame YOU. since i pushed you to that point, all my trauma took over me where i unleashed every last hurt onto you, so it was only right for you to react,
But when did it get so far , to not be able to heal and rebuild what possibly could have been
I can write you 15 to 30 letters but would you read them? Would you even care?
Would you dare? I know you would not have anything to say, since you are the one who walked away. Maybe you were just a selfish ghost, only in my life for a quick run through of my life,
But this isn’t what i wanted, or even still want, my heart wants you and always will,
And that will always be the hard truth. A pill to big to swallow, so i cry on my pillow, hoping maybe one day you see I’ve changed and we can come back to what we used to be,
Bu this is the fantasy, because you would’ve came back we would have talked it out, ‘
So there has to be a reason for all this chaos and all I wish it to teach me is the worm I can truly be for the next man that comes to pick me up off my feet, and strengthen me.
I always thought love at first sight was a lie, but not when I looked in your eyes.
How could you just get up and leave? When I need you..
I will wait for you.
And you will wait for me, ‘
Because we were destined to be.
Then a year later,
This stranger finds me handsome and put together.
I believe he is the one, not just looks but got his head put on right,
And isn’t getting high, but on the love of the sky,
He helped me to believe in my light, just who I was meant to be.
He understood my pain, because he was also in pain at the time,
We didn’t suck the souls out of each other like the past, but ignited creativity inside.
You were my light knight and shining armor, I’ve been waiting for.
You have always been there right outside the door.
You were there for me like no other, let me cry on your shoulder,
Walk outdoors with me, have adventures in the day, and at night.
It’s been everything I longed for, you taught me how to love again,
That true love I’ve been waiting for ignited inside for you helped me see who I can be,’
I hope I did the same for you, even though we went our separate ways,
You’ve impacted my life for a lifetime, and I will love you for the rest of my life.