I am writing to you not with anger or frustration, but with acknowledgment. You have been a companion in my journey, showing up in moments of uncertainty, and self-doubt, and when I’ve faced challenges that seemed insurmountable. Your presence has often been heavy, and your whispers have sometimes convinced me that I wasn’t capable or strong enough to push forward.

You appear when I face new obstacles, such as applying for scholarships, presenting my research, or when I think about my future in medicine and the impact I want to make. You remind me of the risks, the potential for failure, and the weight of my dreams.

But here’s the truth: I have learned not to fear you. I have confronted you, understood your shape and form, and started to understand that you are just a shadow of uncertainty. You don’t define me. You don’t determine my success.

I have chosen to face you head-on. When you show up, I take a deep breath and remind myself of the countless times I’ve succeeded despite the self-doubt you tried to plant. I am reminded of the work I’ve done in my community and the lives I’ve touched in underserved areas. I am reminded of the research I’ve contributed to, and the learning and growth I continue to experience in medical school. My passion to serve, to create equity in healthcare, and to make a difference in the world is far stronger than your whispers.

You might try to make me doubt my abilities, but you won’t win. I have a community of mentors, colleagues, and friends who remind me of my purpose and encourage me to push through the tough moments. I have a resilience that comes from years of facing adversity and turning it into strength.

So, fear, you won’t win. I will not let you stop me from pursuing my dreams and overcoming every challenge that comes my way. You may continue to visit, but you will never have control over my future.

With courage and strength,