I remember, Laying sedated on a hospital bed. Angry and sad. Starring Into the dark hollow eyes of the officer dispatched to question my sanity.
I remember… Having the enemy of my enemy , kick in my door to save my life only to further make dim and tarnish my soul of drowning light.
I remember… That day in September when I regressed in meditation, asking God to show me what it was about me that attracted you.
I remember drifting into the void as the images of my uncle flashed upon mind between the basement and the water bed.
I remember the movie reel of the many lives, including my own daughter flooding my mind exposing the shared trauma.
( You were my uncle’s shadow)
In my mind I went crazy saying “ No! not my daughter!”
I remember the slander, the gossip,and the gaslighting between you and my family , who did nothing even when I was a child.
I remember sitting with grandmothers medicine in a field with other beacons trying to grasp for purpose … unpacking this , This hurt ,that goes deeper than DNA in a band of several life times , twirling around tree branches of the longest standing oak.
Ive battled demons that are not my own. Every moon cycle , through every upgrade of consciousness
I Rose above it all after every attack sent to my spirit that felt like lashes of fire being burned into my skin.
My inner child screamed louder than a death whistle on a foggy night of darkness, left to die .
They were wrong all wrong, every last one.
Because ive Opening doors in the darkest portals to only be handed a sword to slay every single figure of darkness.
I realize that After every blow of pressure I became a red diamond of cosmic power . A being birthed from many creeds
I know now that I am, and always was protected.