I only hope you’ve had your moment of clarity now before it smears on the rearview mirror and can’t be refocused. I only hope that the changes you’ve made in yourself not only heal you but make you want to heal others you’ve hurt along the way. I only wish that the words you speak now and the softness in your voice were present when I was soaking it all in at a vulnerable time in my life, young with a mind so clean it absorbed anything it heard and saw. I only wish that time gave us the ability to move forward from the past and not forgive or forget but make peace with it. I can only imagine what life would have been like if you were you now- then. Was I jipped? Did the ones who came into your life later get the version of you I deserved? I can only hope there’s time left to get my shot. Do you deserve it? Maybe not. Do I hold grudges? Absolutely. Can people change to the core? I couldn’t say. I can only hope, and I can only accept what you’re offering for what it is and not for what I’d wished for before, because lately I’ve been wondering what’s next, what’s the rest of this life got in store? I can’t rewrite history but we can open a new door.