Everything is happening at once yet nothing is happening at all the overwhelm feels like I’m drowning but I still stand tall regardless of the pain that I feel except someone once told me only love was actually real but why do I feel the anger and the sadness so deeply it feels like a part of me and inhibits me to see clearly why is the love i feel attachment why do my words not match my actions why do I confuse suffering for being noble why do I lack trust but continue to be hopeful for something that doesn’t exist because I’ve created someone even I can’t be safe with only to come to the realization that I’m the one who made this happen the exact way that it did to save myself in the end to learn that love is your greatest weapon to use or else it’s abuse to know it is to be it I became it so I could defeat it, just incase you needed a reason.

-Your Will to Live