Dear Life Inside of Me,
I know… I know…
I have to keep going 
This fight is for me
I must LIVE  
Yes it hurts 
Yes, I’m sad 
I know if I stop 
If I continue to stop 
I will continue to die 
So FEAR 
I’m calling you out 
You’ve hidden as my friend 
 behind the shadows 
You were killing me from within 
You tried to end my story 
introduced yourself as my protector 
I put myself at the mercy of your integrity
You created crisis after crisis 
Hamster wheel not stopping
then 
You took something from me 
Ground shaking, I couldn’t breathe 
Dying and fighting … dying and crying 
Darkness and death 
Here I am again? Howwwwwwww? 
Looking to the left 
Looking to the past 
This…. feels …..familiar …. 
Again… back here again ..
This makes no sense 
How..? What is it? 
Light …bulb…. FEAR 
Ahhhhhh
Goodbye you narcissist 
I will keep going 
I choose to live 
Forget my comfort 
Forget what was 
You kept me holding the past 
Afraid to LIVE
Long enough 
This feeling 
This feeling I’m feeling … 
It was you …
All along 
Not Rejection, Not Abandonment, Not Lack, YOU….
You’ve ruined enough for me 
ENOUGH….
Goodbye fear 
I will keep going 
You are no longer welcomed 
You die here 
And I 
I BEGAN HERE NOW AND FOREVERMORE …
BECAUSE I EXIST fear YOU ARE NO MORE!

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Little Bean Little Bean
I gots something to tells ya,
Little bean
It amazes me and leaves me in awe just how you light up a room
How you’re unapologetic for the swift cotton candy filled presence you bring
the attention you command
the hope you give bouncing off
the light you have within
little bean
little bean
you’re a wonder
oh how
I sit an awe, admiring you
you twirl with the winds
dance in the sun,
laugh in the rain,
play with the moon
weeds tried to end the seed planted
& upon suns rising you grabbed life and said
I won
Took off running
galaxies joined you
you stood up to the bullies
danced through it all
you sang your heart out
never cried when you fall
as if the Gods kissed you
the skies guided you
you created
what life needed
the missing peace
the yin to the yang
everywhere you placed your feet
Little bean
you’re a wonder
with a laugh like gardens
a soul of peonies
you turned
even the ugliest of things
into beauty
The beacon of hope you are
and were
A miracle and a sign
the empathetic star
I love everything about you
especially how unique you are
You are one of One
There is no other one.
Little Bean
I love everything about you
The Bold Miracle!
you defeated the odds
to give life what it was missing
you are the something beautiful
to every missing earth
You know what Little bean
You are heaven on Earth!