I close my eyes and blow on a dandelion, making a wish to have you here for one more year. I open my eyes and watch as the seeds fly around. You are not here but I feel you are near, watching over me when I cry or feel fear. You will never know when that one more embrace, dance, or moment will be the last. If I had known when I woke you would be gone I would not have let go so fast. You sparkled brighter than any star in the sky, I would give them all to hear you sing one more lullaby. My guardian angel, you are so dear. I am still wishing for you to appear, one final moment to have you right here. One day I will join you for a dance in the sky, until then I will never be the first to let go again or deny a kiss goodbye.

Dear You, Not the Fabricated You,

But truly: You

When you breathed your last
I took my first into a life, unknowingly
without you.

I searched for you in other people.
The places you walked – I obsessed to be in.
I didn’t know how to be me.

I wanted to be you,
so you could always be with me.

Your voice is in the waves that humbled me.
You’re in every season now –
no longer frozen in the summer
that stunted my heart.

The closest I have ever felt to your love
was finally being me,
without you.

With Love,
Your daughter who climbed Apple trees to reach your hand

Theresa, may I see you
As it is this day?
May I take one final breath,
And with you fly away?
Who is there,
What do you see?
Have I questions aware,
That you come back to me…so fair?
Woman, I caught-another’s’ power
And so missed you on your final hour.
Honey, woman, darlin-Dear…
I know the One who answers clear.
May I not let this tear me up-
My knowing your there is comfort enough.
May now I see you? Bet!
I’ll stay in 2nd heaven soon,
On the Moon of my regret…
You’re alive in my heart-And True.
2 lines alive-one for me, and one for you.

Sincerely, Timothy