I see you-
Long lost loves,
The preciousness of life;
Snapshots of moments-
Now, too long ago.
The more love lost,
heavier do they seem.
Grief sits neatly in them,
For this I am grateful-
Storage full of levity.
I fall in love over and over-
With labels and dates,
Mostly incorrect now…
I was never meant to be keeper of the boxes.
They gawk at me…read more

Face Everything And Rise-
Fuck Everything And Run.

January 31st,
Last of the month of this new year
I got the call I’d dreaded-
My baby brother was found dead.
He supported me in every way,
As of my fear-
It cannot flourish,
I’m again six weeks along
I’ve got souls and bodies to nourish.
I have grief to grieve and life to live
To tremble or…read more

Thank you, my soul,

Thank you for getting through this moment, now. Thank you for everytime you said “I can’t do this anymore,” yet persisted.

Thank you for allowing yourself the time to let yourself truly rest. From finding your own way to stay in recovery, how to be at peace with yourself. How to not need approval from others. Thank you- for…read more

The world collapsed in
As I slept-
The rug fell out
While I wept.
The smiles got brighter
The more I met
But the world still collpased-
In on me and it’s very self.

I held for hope,
Held it until I couldn’t breathe.

Waited for an outstretched hand,
I hoped they’d know my name.
The world collapsed in,
While I slept
Into slumber- I crept..

The…read more

a line we draw,
Ever changing yet-
Rarely executed as conceived.
An idea beyond your skill level-
You draw the line,
You make up your mind-
You’ll accept nothing less…
Then it stretches and breaks,
You’ve got a chance to draw again.

It takes a lifetime of mistakes.
Or perhaps one very enlighteneing day-
Your lines are yours to draw,
Your…read more

To my young soul-

You didn’t know why-
You had a compulsion to lie.
You were born to sow chaos,
Then to watch from the side lines.

You didn’t know why-
You sat and read in the trees for hours…
Why you loved no one’s company,
As much as the magnolia flowers.

You didn’t know why-
You never felt like enough.

You didn’t know why-
You had a…read more

How sacred it is to be able to think-
To be sentient and corporeal.
When your veins tingle;
visit roots in mind’s memorial.
Touch your feet upon the bare earth,
Yet be mindful of parking lots-
Glass or nails can hurt.

Open eyes to gaze at the sky-
Be bold enough to see,
To know you know nothing, yet you don’t need to know why.
Stop and smell the…read more

I’m suddenly aware of frigid air;
A chill to my very core.
It’s only been a few months,
I miss you mom.
This is a cold I’ve never felt before,
Rising up behind me-
…. the air is compelling.
It shines, the air is in my sight.

Aunt Lisa, you taught me-
To see differently, to be different.
You two showed me the beauty of I…
Grandma, two…read more

Even everything
is nothing until it is free-
Stability in insecurity.
Dependable: independent.

Exhausted: motivated-
Weakness mirrors strength.
Liberation & flexibility
strength is having no needs.

Resilience- divine
breaking silence,
power through pain.
Vulnerability- resplendent.

Humble: malleable
peace through pain.
Adaptability is…read more