As the story of life a death goes, the struggle to find peace is always present. Is it a present? If you actually find the inner peace you seek then it definitely is a present, a gift. When I think of peace, my mind is filled with so many thoughts. Often it’s difficult to find that peace without organizing those thoughts into priorities. My first thought of peace is happiness, innately the two go hand in hand. Almost like supply and demand. Peace is found for me first by the love of my family. Family is where some people find that peace. Then I must look to the world and the current state we are in. A global state of peace is much harder to reach. It’s not impossible, because nothing is. I was taught very early in life that “can’t,” is not a word utilized in my vocabulary. I remembered that strategy throughout my life. How to obtain world peace is complicated but again, achievable. Although at times, if you feel uncertainty, it may be related to the peace you have not found. It is a problem but with a relatively easy solution. You have to look deep within to find your center, guidance, and peace. That is easier with maturity. It was for me, at any rate, my life has always been filled with insurmountable pain. I believe I have felt every possible format of pain that can be experienced mentally, and physically I have been blessed. I have my fair share of physical pain but not the worst amount. Comparison and contrasting others’ lives never gave me peace. Instead, it gave me more of an overwhelming feeling that I should conform to society. It’s fortunate for me that conforming never has been my norm. It becomes harder to perform no gain just the beginning of mental anguish and pain. To find my inner peace I realized that I am unique. Everyone has that feature in one way or another. It’s a light that exudes from you. To be unique can come with some hate as well, truly that’s nothing new to me. Just a constant reminder of the chaos we find ourselves in within this world. This perfect fit, or perfect face, maybe even a perfect body. It’s only drip-fed to you through every media outlet or resource you can find. It’s hard for me to imagine a world without that unique part of someone that is simply completely different than another. To me, it would be such a boring, dreary world. In finding inner peace I became comfortable with myself. That battle took me 38 years. I had to find beauty in trauma, beauty in pain, beauty in everything that surrounds you daily. The simplest of life’s beauty is forgotten, we get caught up in everyday life. The 9-5, 16 hours a day slaving away at a career. It’s fairly easy to lose yourself here. At that time I remain aware always. I’m in a constant state of chaos, so I find peace in the small things forgotten in daily life. You’ve gotten. so jaded that you forget to smile, forget to accept breath, and be thankful for that. You forget that having even the gift of sight or the ability to write is a gift, so you give thanks. I’m grateful for every breath taken because the world never stops spinning yet we forget so easily the simple gifts we have.
I find peace in thunder, in rain, in every second of pain. You don’t know if it will remain, what then is gained. Nothing you’ve lost because you couldn’t pause. Lost at what cost? At your own expense, it’s apparent and precedent. Live in pain and sorrow or swallow your pride. Open your mind and let all flow from inside. Examine yourself, look in the mirror. Who may be staring back at you after self-examination? That’s the truth that some aren’t willing to face. If you wish to find peace you must find cease hearing everything but the nature that surrounds you. If this is what created you then that is where your search begins but never ends. It’s a journey to find yourself while seeking to enjoy what you are given. If you ignore those small moments, life has passed you. Time stops for no one. The clock just keeps ticking, so why waste one second missing what’s directly in front of you? In front, behind, and all around at all times. The present is a gift also the past don’t waste too much time looking back. Look forward and enjoy every moment given because it isn’t promised to you. In some places, freedom isn’t given to you. Wars are waged for these things that we so frequently miss. Your body keeps the score and toll for every moment that you hold in regret. Instead, find something that works as a benefit. Anything you find is better than trying nothing at all. Enjoy every single moment. Or waste and watch them pass, they will entirely too fast. I found peace from within, thankfully I use that to help others see gifts they never did. It’s hard to see the light when living in complete darkness. Unfortunately, that is where so many live. Uneasy to forgive, forget the past, traumas that last. Instead, be thankful for the grass the seeds beneath your feet, and what may grow where you can take a seat. Imagine a place that is euphoric for you. Anytime you feel peace waning or fading go to that place, it’s where you will find your grace. Often it’s misplaced by others. Remember to breathe listen to the sounds around you, sing, and dance happiness can only last if you allow it. Try not to deny yourself the highest honor, peace.