Dear Abandonment,

You’re a relentless shadow that hangs over me, creating the suffocating anxiety that tightens its grip around my heart, a heavy weight on my chest, a constant reminder of past wounds and fears that refuse to fade. The ache in my stomach, the knot in my throat – they’re all echoes of your painful influence. You’re weaving self-sabotage into the scars of my heart.

I find myself trapped in a tug-of-war with my own thoughts. I’m caught between the desire for love and comfort and the fear of being hurt once more. Your icy embrace has created a barrier around my heart, an isolated fortress. Sadly, in doing so, you’ve robbed me of the chance to truly connect, to feel the warmth of genuine affection without the shadow of doubt looming overhead.

As I look back on the events that shaped me, I can’t help but wonder if you cursed me to fall under your control from the very beginning. Your grasp clouded my teenage years, which should’ve been filled with laughter and lightness, restricting my movements and limiting my desire to reach out. Was it a crime to love too deeply, too soon? To find comfort in those appearing caring, yet experience betrayal and cruelty.

I long to break free from the chains you’ve wrapped around me. I want to remove the layers of protection that have become a prison of my making. The walls of your fortress, built with bitter bricks of past traumas and heartaches, stand as a hurtful reminder of the pain you’ve insured in me. However, I refuse to be held captive any longer.

I beg you, Abandonment, let me go. Set me free from the constriction of your insufferable chamber. Unburdened by fear, I need space to breathe and move forward. I’m ready to move forward without fear, to face the unknown with open arms, and to leave behind the shadows of the past.
Please, I beg of you, let me go.

Sincerely, Amber Gonzales

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