Growing
and
Withholding.
Knowing,
The anger was always sadness
A different emotion to replace my previous sorrowful state
Now, I’ve let the anger go
But it was mine for so long
I forgot what the sadness was like
The one who truly knows me
Reunited.
Within a shaky embrace
Wide and weak eyes
Reminding me
I’m not tough and I’m not mean
But why can I still not remember?
Why is it hard to speak only on occasion?
I’m scared.
Why can’t I remember?
Was I scared?
I can’t remember
I wonder if you do
If you remember the fear reflected in my sick gaze
Do you know what’s wrong?
I –
Forgot to water my plants again
Years of growth
Then the year of death
Granted with more time
Rebirth
You asked, “I thought you wanted to die?”
I can’t remember.
But through my rebirth I will remember it all
I will heal from it all