My fear began the moment I uttered the words that I’m pregnant.
My life was always filled with instability but when you were involved, it was stable.
My pregnancies were never good so I didn’t expect this one to be any different however, you were always my hero.
You see I went through them all by myself without any support.
But you were my best friend who guided me and held me up through my toughest moments,
So I didn’t expect you to be like them and leave me wandering lost and confused.
When our bond started to break then I started questioning my self worth.
I also started questioning if I was failing you as your lady.
A home isn’t always four walls.
A home can sometimes be two eyes and a heartbeat.
You were my home and knowing that I had part of you growing inside of me and you pulling yourself away from me,
I started to feel broken and homeless.
Time has passed and I just want it all back.
Things aren’t as easy but they are better.
You still give me butterflies and your kisses at the end of the day are the best.
Our daughter is so attached to you and our kids want this to work because they were the happiest when we were all a family.
But I’m in fear of being abandoned again as we are working on our relationship.
I love you so much and have loved you since we were kids.
That won’t ever change.
The love will continue to grow just like my fear will.