There I sat frantic and anxious yet stunned,
Heart beating like the very drum I sat in front of.
Hide of a cow, treated and tanned,
And when we sing upon him the spirits will dance.
We sang a memorial song, for all our loved ones lost.
Our love measured, mourning irreplaceable treasure,
However the singing, although pleasant, was not our sole…read more

For context*this is to show the perspective, a tiny glimpse, of what addicts and alcoholics go through in moments of cravings.

23 more hours till forever
59 more minutes Lord we can do this together
59 more seconds of this storm we shall weather
59 more heads of this snake I must sever-
Its whatever.
But These urges are urging me,
To purge with…read more

Did you know?
That We are cognitively incapable, of being miserable and grateful at the same time?

 Let that sink in, I’ll wait.
Louder for the people in the back? Ok.

 I said We are cognitively incapable, of being miserable and grateful at the same time.

Gratitude is directly correlated to joy, like a toddler with its favorite toy, it’s never…read more

Vibes-
Enigmatic frequencies of emotion transferred through kinetic energy;

Receptors subconsciously receptive, now detecting a perception of selective empathy;

And immediately my neural pathways formed from unhealthy behaviors are signaling my codependency; 

But selective seeing isn’t a “thing”, I’m just consciously blind to the consiste…read more

In my late night thoughts like…

Why is there little babies overseas getting their faces melted off, while little rich kids are melting the faces of their Barbie’s off?

Why do they give you drugs to come off the alcohol, then give you drugs to come off the drugs, they give you to come off the alcohol?

Why is it that when I miss a phone call by…read more

Death is a part of life as life is a part of death;
And if it wasn’t for the worst, we would never appreciate the best;
As we look to the east and we look to the west;
While we ponder the mystery that follows the absence, of beating inside our chest;
A rumbling of gut rot, an unbearable weight;
As our spirituality tries to comfort us, from our u…read more