Dear Michelle You Can Come Out Of Hiding Now,

“Write from your heart, Just do it”, This is your fifth attempt writing to you, Michelle! As the words eloquently fumble from thought, to ink, to paper, it dawns on me. I am still struggling with versions of inadequacy and feeling enough within my spirit, so here I am reminding myself. I AM Enough.

Michelle, look around you, look down at your hands? What do you see? Do you see a cage? Do you feel the invisible shackles around your ankles or mind? Do you see the guy you choose to sacrifice your identity for, for over 5 years? No you don’t. Why, because you freed yourself over a year ago, you knew your worth and value. You knew you were enough. You knew your time was running out and you made it. He swore you wouldn’t make it to each birthday, and each birthday you did! This last birthday you didnt just make it, you freed yourself alone. You are brave, bold, you survived one of the worst cases of abuse and you made it.. Because the universe knew you were enough, your soul knew you were enough. That is who you are. It’s time to free yourself from the cage within your beautiful mind!

Michelle, do you remember what you said, in 2008 after your last stroke,the one that left you semi paralyzed? You made a promise to yourself to live a peaceful life and help people. You looked at your body and said “ It was meant to be, now I’m clean. You’ve walked through life, through fire with a sheathed sword, a golden heart, yet a broken smile and so much hope it gave people wings. Yet you never took into account that you needed your own wings to fly. You so often showcased resilience through adversity and hid behind such falsehoods. But now it is time to include you, because you deserve it. You deserve love, you deserve to live in abundance, you deserve to share your truths!

I understand as I am you, and I’ve been every version of you. Some days you ask yourself what’s the purpose? You spent your entire life going through trials to the point it is almost comical. Michelle , you’re a beast to the ones who know your story. I want you to know, not everyday is going to be easy but you will persevere and get through this. I know you desire love, soul connection, even a family that doesn’t dislike you for being you. But remember the price of having a strong character is an uneasy life. That is why you were created for this path. It’s your time now to come out of hiding and show the world how to love again!

Remember you are not your past, your past does not define you, however it has molded you into the loving warrior you are today. You have so much to give, you are a voice for the voiceless, you stand for the dis-abled. You are a warrior for injustice. You no longer have an existence, you have a mission to fulfill, a purpose. Understand you went through these things because you are a blueprint, a survival manual.

Your voice will echo within the ones who need the message the most. Use your words as your warpaint and never be silenced again. I signed you up for this challenge, because I believe in you and I do love you. Thank you for loving yourself enough to heal.