I see you mama dog
Your bones like rails
Showing through your skin
So frail

I see the neighborhood
Giving you food
Because your owner is up to no good

They try to help
Within their comfort zone
But they will never understand
Their actions make you feel so alone

I see you mama dog
I know your pain
I know what it is to feel everyone
So oblivious to your shame

I know what it is to have people
Care for you during the day
But at night when you need them the most
They are far away

Did they know?
Did they just shut their waspy eyes?
Abuse is a fine topic to discuss
Unless it happens from family lust

I see you mama dog
I know what it means to be afraid
Of the person
Whose job was to keep you safe

No one knew
Or wanted to know
How he screamed and controlled me
So I would be the most perfect to show

No one rescued me when
He said I needed to watch what I ate
As I needed to lose weight
As he wanted my body in a coke bottle shape

No one was there to steal me away
When he came uninvited
Into the bed where I lay
They didn’t think his morals were THAT misguided

They asked me if I was ok
They stood outside the door
But they didn’t recognize the feeling
Of being caged in fear on the floor

I couldn’t leave
He controlled me
I had tried to go and came back twice
As I rather know where the devil will be

The childhood trauma was so intense
My brain shut it out
Until his death

I don’t wish this shit on anyone
Not even the devil
As having flashbacks triggered by your
Amazing husband is unimaginable

But I didn’t imagine it. It happened
The others apologize to me and said
They should have stolen me away
That they were happy he was dead

Maybe they say that to make themselves
Feel better
But it doesn’t’ do anything to help
The life long panic attacks and anger

Therapy works
Support works
And love works
To help in healing

But you know what works even better?
Stopping it immediately
So you don’t have to read about the pain in a letter
Or a poem by the victim who is seething

So have those talks
Say something when you suspect any type of abuse
For the victims who go on their walks
Feel more alone and stuck in a life they didn’t choose

I see you mama dog
And I will do my part
To steal you away from that rotten log
Of a Man who doesn’t know your worth

Why?
Have you not read this poem?
Because I rather deal with the consequences than
Spend another sleepless night knowing of the abuse

You continue to ask why?

Because no one saved me