I don’t really talk that much
Unless I’m excited about something
I’m usually too busy listening
Listening to the people in front of me
And listening to the words in my head
It’s a lot to process

And then there’s the anxiety
The generally low hum of shakiness in my body
I got myself to stop overthinking as much
But the feeling remains
Especially when I talk

I usually seem so calm cool and collected
But inside I’m scared
Scared people will get tired of me
Scared I’m too annoying
Scared to take up space in my large body

I’m working on it though
I’m trying to put myself out there more
I’m trying to be more confident
I think I used to be confident
But then some people disappointed me
And I got depressed
And now I’m trying to find myself again
Since I’m finally happy

I’m not the same person
And it sucks ‘cause she was cool
I miss her
But this new version of me
She’ll be even better