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  • Misunderstood Mourning

    You tell me that you see me
    And you tell me that you know
    You show up with trite words
    You hope will somehow show
    You have the best intentions
    With peace offerings that fall flat
    In covered casseroles and
    Withering plants I just can’t
    Seem to keep alive either.

    There’s no more suffering now
    You say to me—and he’s in
    A better place without pain
    But what you don’t see—is within
    I need you to see my pain
    Deep into my eyes where it
    Holds everything you cannot.

    I’m tired of the stupid shit
    With all your false platitudes
    Please go read the beatitudes
    Blessed are the meek they say
    Blessed are those who mourn
    For they shall be comforted
    So please when you’re ready
    To mourn alongside me
    I’m not ready to pretend
    That anything else you say
    Is what I need to hear.

    Kristin Schaaf

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    • Kristin, everyone mourns differently, so it is exhausting when others have expectations about how you should process your grief. It is also exhausting to pretend to be comforted by well-intentioned casseroles, plants, and visits when all you want is to wallow. I hope that you are able to find someone to mourn alongside you and expect nothing more…read more

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  • One Day

    One day

    One day, I may have the right words to make sense of all that I am. All that I had to became because of what you did to me. All of who I am now, but not in spite. No, despite you, and all those words you said to me, all those belts and wooden spoons no child deserves. Because of your sins, I had to pay your debts. For the anxiety, depression, and BPD. For every time I needed you there, and you were nowhere to be found. I now want you to stay that way.

    All those days I sat alone in my head with your words on repeat. All those times I tried to run and hide. What about that time that I took enough to turn yellow, and I just went to sleep hoping it would be mellow in the end? That night that the silver gauge had my name on it… but who would be there to protect my sisters? So I laid it down that night. This story isn’t long enough to tell you about all the times I wanted to just feel normal and safe. To feel loved, wanted, and worthy of the bare minimum. That part I’m still searching for. I think it’s one of the last things to come. But what you didn’t realize when you created a monster with the madness is that when that monster gains control of their mind and bodies, then magic happens. My body has grown strong, but my mind has become more gentle. I am all those things that I needed. I am patient, I am kind, I am loving, I am genuine. Was I always those things? No, and I hurt way too many good people. While I am responsible for my actions, ultimately I know that. When you suffer like you made me, the reality isn’t the same. So the decisions are based in an altered perception. It’s a hard pill to swallow, but I know that I will not have an ego like you. Also, unlike you, I will face my demons. I will battle them every single day so that my kids know how to fight, who and what to as well.

    But what I have now learned is that voice in my head that so resembles yours. Is, in fact, not mine to keep, but it’s back to yours now. I have that ability. To avenge every moment you stole, I took back that power and will fight to always make my future better.

    Every once in a while I am reminded of what I never had. I see the smiles on the daughter’s faces knowing they are safe. Some days I wish for that. Some days I wish I could run and you would save me. But you aren’t the one to save me. No, what you did was the opposite. I didn’t start out as the black sheep of the family, did I? No, before I had a voice, I was the sacrificial lamb. And when I got my voice and my black hair, that’s when you left. Interesting how the timing plays out, isn’t it…

    Oh, how quickly I learned to hide the things that would make you rage. I learn to quiet myself as best I could. But when your brain is alphabet soup, that’s hard to do. To shrink, to hide, but in a body and mind that could not, would not fit into societi’s mold. No, so what we did to survive is what so many have done before. We created smiles in the surrounding ones. Because if we were left alone in the silence of our minds, there isn’t any peace left. So we laugh, we joke, we entertain. We act like nothing can hurt us, so the words keep coming. And every day that no one sees the pain just proves to us we aren’t worthy of the notice. So we hide it better. The walls keep building. And like all walls, mine ultimately did its job, I’m here…And if you are still here too, I promise you there is hope. I never thought I could feel the way I do now.

    So one day, maybe one day I may find out who I am, but I can promise you that when that day comes, you will not find me. Don’t ever come looking. I know what I am about to do is going to get back to you one day. And when that day comes, I hope you know not to call. I never want to hear your voice in my head again.

    In the end, the one thing that I am certain of is that my children will never know your voice in their heads. My daughter will never feel like hugging a stranger has meant more than a hug from you. She will never know how scary the world is when you have no family to count on. My sons will not base their worth on their athletic abilities. The will not be bullied by family will I ideally watch and participate. No, I will meet their life struggles in the way I deserved to be supported through mine. And there is a beauty in that, just because you didn’t teach me how to be a healthy parent, partner, or person. You did, however show me all of which I don’t want to be as a human being. So if you read this one day and you disagree, then I am happy. I will never sacrifice my happiness or that of my children’s ever again.

    I survived, now it’s time to thrive.

    Signed,

    An Unloved Daughter

    LaurelRae

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  • Deep & Wide

    My father always told me
    I lived life a mile wide
    And an inch deep
    I was never certain if I agreed
    Because although I have traveled
    Far and continuously
    I believe somewhere inside of me
    Unhinged
    And I can’t decide if
    Seeing too much
    Is a privilege or a hindrance
    But I do know how deeply
    I feel about a wide range of places

    It’s hard to look at a parent
    And see a stranger
    So maybe I take their words
    With too much weight
    Questioning my own character
    So maybe I can relate
    But they are the ones who have
    Always stood still
    And I am the one who seeks change
    A mile wide, a mile deep

    It’s hard not to be seen

    L.C. McQuillen

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    • L.C., I feel like living a mile wide and an inch deep is a way for people who are stuck to describe others who refuse to be contained. You should never feel bad for wanting to experience many facets of life, and just because you don’t stay somewhere for a long time doesn’t mean you didn’t experience it deeply. Keep seeking change. Thank you for sharing!

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  • Anxiety Is A Struggle

    Anxiety is an endless invisible string you carry on your shoulders
    Anxiety is often misunderstood and not a simple to-be-fixed mistake
    Anxiety is a daily struggle that never stops
    Anxiety takes over the mind with overthinking, worries, and constant self-shame
    Anxiety can’t a hundred percent be fixed with medication
    Anxiety can make you look calm, but you feel like you’re dying inside
    Anxiety can cause mental and physical struggles unknowingly
    Anxiety can easily cause panic attacks like your lungs collapsing
    Anxiety makes you worry over the simple little things frequently
    Anxiety can make you practice conversations in your head before you speak
    Anxiety makes it uneasy to relax and destress and takes guidance
    Anxiety involves every stress of life that makes it worse
    Anxiety isn’t just “you’re overreacting” or “just relax.”
    Anxiety can cause misunderstandings and misinterpretations
    Anxiety can lead to some having a lack of empathy when it’s unbearable to grasp
    Anxiety can make you isolate from social situations and want to be alone
    Anxiety isn’t for the weak but shows how strong you really are
    Anxiety is a big deal of a disorder and is treatable but still tough
    Anxiety is a horrible mental struggle that not many understand
    Anxiety takes depth to truly comprehend and help those when needed
    People who don’t understand anxiety need to understand two things
    It is a struggle and know what to do to help and deal with someone who does

    Alexcia Cegelski

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    • Alexcia, I think that anxiety causes a lot of people to feel misunderstood. When you feel like you aren’t in control of your mind, it is difficult to help others understand you. I agree that by teaching others that anxiety is a real struggle and providing ways to help those experiencing it, we can make a true difference. Thank you for sharing your…read more

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  • the silences between

    Just yesterday, I watched a girl laugh at a joke she didn’t find funny.
    Not a real laugh—just a quick, practiced sound,
    a reflex built from years of knowing when to play along.
    Her friends didn’t notice.
    They grinned, clinked their glasses, kept talking.
    But for half a second, her face fell,
    and I saw it—
    the quiet between the noise,
    the moment where she was just herself.

    And I just stood there.
    I didn’t ask if she was okay.
    Didn’t tell her I knew what it was like
    to sit in a room full of people and still feel alone.
    Didn’t tell her that sometimes, pretending to belong
    is lonelier than never belonging at all.

    But here’s what she didn’t see:
    I recognized that laugh because I’ve used it, too.
    I’ve filled silences with words that weren’t mine,
    nodded at conversations that never really reached me.
    And I’ve left rooms where no one noticed I was gone,
    wondering if I was ever really there in the first place.

    This is how it always is.
    People think loneliness is being alone,
    but I promise you, it’s lonelier to be misunderstood.
    It’s laughing on cue,
    filling a space where you don’t quite fit,
    and realizing—when the night ends—that no one saw you at all.

    I feel everything at 110%,
    but I only know how to show it at 10%.
    And silence has never been good at explaining itself.

    JY

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    • JY, so much of what you wrote here resonates with me! I feel like those of us who experience the feeling of not belonging even when we are with a group of people understand the weight of those insincere laughs and unnoticed exits. Honestly, I think we enjoy our own company more anyway! Thank you for sharing your experience!

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  • Color Matching

    Somehow I’ve spent a whole week
    Trying to figure out who I am. And
    I’ve been living with myself for over twenty years, and
    I’ve seen everyday my nose, feet, hands, and
    I’ve heard my thoughts louder than anyone can, and
    And yet I can’t seem to figure out who I am.
    But identity crisis? No. That was so two years ago.
    I’m just a bit incohesive.

    I make myself inexcusably late (but excused by my chronic lateness),
    Stuck deliberating between
    My Pantone two eighty jeans or the two eight two blue
    That might match a little better
    With my one dollar belt, my eight year old coat, and my handmedown tee
    So that people don’t see me
    As a frumpy kid who’d be better off
    If still dressed by her mom.
    I don’t think it’s wrong to put in the effort without putting in the cash,
    And besides, it’s not like I don’t have money to spend;
    I just choose to treat myself
    In moments shared by family and friends.

    And before I leave, I glance in that silver coated glass.
    Walk away. Return. Another quick glance.
    A stranger looks at me
    Through brown eyes, brown hair, brown
    Skin, but really it’s more of a Pantone one sixty three.
    I almost forgot I can’t be brown when there’s colorful people around.
    I am so full of muted colors and triumphs
    from the past
    That I am lost searching for me in the present.
    And though my Jewish heritage runs coarse through my blood,
    Thick blood like that of the Paschal lamb that is now our mezuzah,
    I don’t believe in that stuff.
    And though my body is defined by being female,
    I either hate it or don’t recognize it.
    And though my Mexican heritage flows rich on my skin,
    It only shines in the sun in the summer.
    The equatorial sun has kissed my blood
    But European skies suck out all the fun.
    Now my darkest shades come from
    The spots on my face, my neck and back dotted,
    But I’m the one who put them there.
    Just like I’m the one responsible for the bits
    That don’t rest nicely on my stomach or my hips.

    I’ve peeled back that fleshy pink layer
    To examine my mind. I am
    A floating consciousness: black and white, cartoon-drawn,
    Just a brain and a spinal cord encased in an
    Invisible vessel. To the world I am not colorless,
    But I wish it were blind to me.
    Here, I have no shape or form; I’m either all in power
    Or all entropic. But to be who I am, I have full control
    Over behavior, traits, the things that make me a whole
    Person. What to think. How to speak. Who to be.
    My senses are intrinsic to me.
    For all I know, you and I could have a different green
    Where you, dear reader, see Pantone three six two
    But I a three fourteen.

    I create and build, crunch numbers ‘cause I can.
    I’m proud to present as a woman in STEM.
    Ideas bounce around my head, but no structure to my thought,
    So how can I build bridges
    When I can’t even build a sentence of prose?
    Who knows? Maybe by the end of this
    I’ll find there’s nothing I can do.
    I’ve the EM spectrum in me, but you only see visible light.
    My rainbow may be quenched, but
    There’s more to seeing than sight.
    I’ve spent the week trying to figure me out;
    I just had to close my eyes.

    Maya Pena-Lobel

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    • Maya, this is an absolutely beautiful and powerful poem. I love where you wrote “I’m just a bit incohesive” to describe the reason you’ve been trying to “find” yourself. The way you use the varying shades of color, some so similar others might not even notice a difference, to describe the varying facets of existence is insightful and thought-pro…read more

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    Artist Manifesto

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  • Flowers for you my Love

    Have you seen a garden of Lilies and Forget-me-not’s?
    Deepest melancholic blue,
    And a pure white,

    They grow only in the best soil, and that’s my chest.
    Their roots tangle into my lungs and nourish them with tears.

    You could never understand this strange creature I call a heart.
    Ripping Flowers from my skin to make you a bouquet.
    My blood drips for you, my ghost.
    Something that wasn’t truly living could never die.

    Like the warmth from an “I love you”
    It lingers every day, to once a week, once a month,
    Soon enough to become an ache in your chest.

    I can wish on Stars, but I know the cost of the dead.
    But hope is the last to die, so I grow a garden in my chest.
    Each flower is a gravestone for every hope, dream, and what-if

    But my Ghost, and my love, it grows back every time
    Even if you won’t take my flowers,
    I love them just as much as I love you.

    Journey I.K Fox

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    • Journey, this poem is a powerful testament to the depth of the love you feel. Your detailed description of various flowers reflects your attention to detail in showing the true nature of your love. Even though it seems like your love may be unrequited, you are steadfast in your dedication. Thank you for sharing this beautiful poem!

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  • Documented

    As an addict, I know
    How it feels to be misunderstood.
    Most feel judgement,
    Feel inadequate,
    Once you make the decision
    To get clean, in my opinion. Feels
    Like nobody cares, lost in despair.
    As the ones who have never
    Been there, throw shade.
    Not understanding the difficulties
    In place. Probably why I feel
    More comfortable, around
    Other’s who have been through
    The pain, it’s not easy to
    To express if you don’t relate.
    From the outside Looking in,
    It seems crazy, just like anything.
    At first it’s misunderstood,
    Sometimes, you need the experience!
    Not just the scriptures out of a book.
    I know when I tell my story
    It will resonate with somebody.
    Understand me when I say,
    “Not everyone is gonna feel your pain”.
    But like most we’re all
    Misunderstood, we can
    Only imagine what another
    Has been through.
    If you see someone
    In a Mercedes or dresses fancy.
    You might think, ohh, they got it good.
    But that’s just the surface.
    You don’t know how they got it
    Or what it took.

    Michael L George jr

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    • Michael, though I am not an addict, I can imagine the feelings of judgment from others and from yourself can be nearly debilitating. You are right that when we see successful people, we have no idea how hard they worked to get to that point. They may have once been an addict, too. Thank you for sharing your experience! I wish you the best.

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  • Mask Off

    Maybe they don’t feel me
    Maybe they don’t understand
    Maybe they’re buying into
    Everything they think I am
    Maybe my reputation precedes me
    Maybe they Googled my name
    Maybe they’re bringing up old shit
    And the internet is to blame

    I hope they see me as
    Confident not arrogant
    Relevant & pertinent
    Affluent & Heaven-Sent
    Walking in my purpose
    And saying what I meant
    Flyer than a paper plane
    Marvelously working brain
    Shining like a supernova
    Without one trace of rain
    And when I stand up & speak
    All their knees get weak
    Cause my personality & delivery
    Be all the way on fleek

    But deep inside
    Despite my shine
    I feel lonely, conflicted in my mind
    Scared to show my true self
    Cause they wouldn’t understand
    All the levels and dimensions
    Of everything I am
    All my insecurities
    The powerful shadow side of me
    The good bad and ugly
    What an awful sight to see
    I feel that they won’t get me
    So I have to protect me
    And be everything I should be
    Until I’m brave enough to just be
    So I show them my light side
    Turn my wattage up real bright
    Just maybe I can blind them
    Into believing I’m alright

    (c) 2025 Misty Oaks Paxton (“Misty Reign”)

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    • Misty, this poem captures the conflicting emotions surrounding putting yourself out there. When we put ourselves in a position in which we may be judged, we start to doubt ourselves and question our decisions. Despite this conflict, I can tell that you have confidence and drive that will see you through any uncertainty. Thank you for sharing your…read more

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  • Everyone is watching me.

    It’s exhausting. Over-explaining, then under-explaining because now I’m scared to open my mouth and talk about it. Always an argument, always a debate, always a back and forth. I’m tired of it. So many times I have to correct myself to stroke people’s egos that I am now trapped in my own mind. I belittle myself to make others feel big. I have to explain over and over what I mean when I’m simply speaking to someone without the ability to comprehend. I diminish my thoughts because others are insecure. I hate being fake; I’d rather be real even if it hurts. See, no one ever holds their tongue with me, but I have to abide. So misunderstood, I feel like one of those princesses that’s great, but people have me locked inside. I’ve created my own anxiety and insecurity because I can’t be me. Overthinking every response because I don’t want any backlash. I’m tired. I’m tired of being caged while others roam free. Their trauma runs so deep they can only hear from their level of “free.” I’m paralyzed when others don’t do their healing work. I’m constantly in circles because others are hurt. When I’m alone, I know my worth. Being around those who don’t understand me cages me mentally. I just want to be free to be me without the misunderstandings.

    Ashley Jones

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    • Ashley, I think that the fact that you realize your worth when you are alone simply means that you are good enough company all on your own! You don’t need people to fill in the gaps for you when your mind has all it needs anyway. I hate that you feel the need to diminish yourself so that others are not uncomfortable, and I hope that one day you…read more

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  • How I’m Not Like All The Other Boys

    Oh, let me count the ways:
    I cannot shoot a basketball,
    I cannot sketch your face,
    I don’t kiss pretty girls,
    I don’t play petty games,
    I won’t ever win a game of Smash Bros,
    And I won’t ever drop my masks.
    I think I laugh too much,
    And I think I smile too large,
    I have a coat of dusky scars, from acne not from war,
    I have stretch marks, bone spurs, heat rash and
    I guess this is rosacea, the bloodrush from my mother’s side,
    (And I guess my face is prone to catching fire)
    I have never been inside a school bus,
    And I have never had a secret, at least not
    A secret more than this:

    I struggle with
    speaking
    like I’m
    reading
    two / of / lines / poetry
    of / two / poetry / lines
    simultaneous.

    /Special/ is the word you’d use
    For someone you just can’t quite understand.
    But that’s not what I am:
    I can’t shoot a basketball and
    I think I laugh too much.
    Is that so hard to understand?

    Lukas Quinn

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    • Lukas, I love everything about this poem! The way you described your trouble with speaking as being similar to trying to read two lines of poetry at the same time helped me understand a little more about what you experience. You may not be like everyone else, but you are you, and that is enough! Thank you for sharing your experience!

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  • LITTLE MISS

    Little Miss

    Little Miss
    Understood
    Little miss
    Never good
    Little Miss
    Selfish
    Little Miss
    Hellish
    Little Miss
    Feeling down
    Little Miss
    Broken crown
    Little Miss
    Always mean
    Little Miss
    Never seen
    Little Miss
    Sit quiet
    Little Miss
    Silence your riot
    Little Miss
    Hate the world
    Little Miss
    Take you for a whirl
    Little Miss
    Drama queen
    Little Miss
    Overtly keen
    Little Miss
    Sunshine
    Little Miss
    Undermined
    Little Miss
    Raging storm
    Little Miss
    Not the norm
    Little Miss
    Outcast
    Little Miss
    Backlash
    Little Miss
    Hopeless
    Little Miss
    No sense
    Little Miss
    Do as you should
    Little Miss
    Understood

    Martha C Moore

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    • Cherrie, I feel this piece! We are dynamic and ever-changing in our journey towards happiness. With so many facets of our personalities and goals, it is no wonder that we are often a little misunderstood. This poem inspires me to embrace all the parts of myself! Thank you for sharing!

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  • My Disability Doesn't Define Me, So Neither Should You

    I have learning disabilities, it’s not one that can be spotted by looking closely at the features of my face. And because it remains hidden I fear that sometimes I am misunderstood because of it.

    When I share that I have a learning disability I fear that people see me through a different lens than they previously did.

    I’ve had family members who have known about my learning disabilities tell me they didn’t know I was smart enough to make it on the honor roll even though I made honors every single semester of high school.

    When I tell people I have a learning disability it’s as if they expect me to then cause a disturbance and act out. But I sit there quietly absorbing everything.

    When I tell people that I have learning disabilities they immediately start putting limits as to my abilities and what I can and can’t achieve. So it’s easier to say nothing and silently prove them wrong.

    When I tell people that I have learning disabilities people tend to assume that my IEP and accommodations exempted me from hard work. I HATE when people assume that. I worked twice as hard as to learn the topics. And even though my accommodations lessened the amount of math problems I had to solve I would sometimes end up doing more than what I was assigned so that I could make sure I mastered the concept.

    When I struggle with learning or doing a task because of my learning disabilities people get frustrated with me and tell me that this should be easy. But in actuality my brain works differently and I may need to see it done a couple of times or have it explained in a different way in order to understand.

    When I tell people I have learning disabilities they tend to cheapen my achievements as if I weaseled my way through a Master’s program and was handed a degree instead of earning it myself. In reality though I worked countless hours to make my way through grad school and to end up where I am today.

    I had a boss who upon finding out about my learning disabilities made some distasteful and unprofessional comments about them as if I were bad and defective and not fit to serve in ministry. Oh the irony that this was after we had done a whole Inclusion Initiative geared towards people with disabilities. She barred me from helping with it.

    When I tell people that I have learning disabilities they often tend to question or doubt my capacity for leadership. But I can still lead and I lead with a greater empathy and understanding because I know what it’s like to struggle.

    I wish when I tell people I have learning disabilities they would see me for who I truly am…..

    An intelligent
    Inquisitive
    Attentive
    Hardworking
    Tenacious
    Creative
    Problem solving
    Professional
    Empathetic
    Leader

    Who demands and deserves respect
    And who can do whatever she puts her mind to.

    Hannah Gonneville

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    • Hannah, this letter is so inspiring to me. As a teacher, I know that there are countless students with disabilities who are bright, ambitious, and completely capable of the same work as their non-disabled peers. Accommodations are simply a way to even the playing field. I am so glad that you see your worth, and I know that you will continue to…read more

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  • Invisible

    You don’t get me
    You never will
    I’m sitting here screaming
    And you still
    Don’t hear me
    Don’t listen
    Don’t care
    Don’t see
    There is chaos
    Inside of me
    A mind that is not my own
    Consumed by thoughts
    That I don’t own
    Things I say
    I really don’t mean
    Never heard
    Often seen
    The highest of highs
    The lowest of lows
    I don’t understand it
    But that’s how it goes
    I’m tired of the meds
    Tired of pills
    The pain isn’t numb
    It actually kills
    My spirt
    My soul
    My will to survive
    Yet I go on
    Trying to thrive
    Navigating roads
    Yet unable to drive
    I’m tired
    I’m drained
    Not mentally there
    To young to give up
    To old to care
    What you think
    How you feel
    You haven’t a clue
    How it feels
    What it’s like
    When you are the glue
    Holding together
    A paper so thin
    Knowing I’ll lose
    But hoping I’ll win
    So please be kind
    When I am around
    I’m totaly lost
    Looking for found
    Mental illness
    It’s not for the weak
    Wanting to hide
    But forced to seek
    Love
    Acceptance
    You think that you know
    You haven’t a clue where my mind can go
    And I don’t know either
    It’s truly a trip
    When you hold on so tightly
    But never had a grip

    Andrea Mcgonagle

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    • Andrea, this poem is beautiful and powerful. So many of us struggle with feeling like we aren’t truly seen or heard, and your words capture the complex nature of that. The succinct lines evoke an image of someone torn between conflicting emotions, and I can definitely relate. Thank you for sharing your experience!

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      • That was so nice of you to say!! I feel so many people go untreated or unnoticed in this world, and usually they are the best people too.

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  • On Confidence

    I miss being confident.
    Having a secure attachment style.
    I miss not being on antidepressants
    or anti-anxiety pills
    or testosterone.
    Being content with life.
    I miss my in-laws—
    More like family than my actual family.

    I miss a life that doesn’t turn itself inside-out every other week.
    One week, I’m Dad of the Year.
    My kismet, supposedly, according to astrology.
    Demystifying geometric terminology,
    explaining the difference between punching up and punching down,
    helping girl scouts glue
    and get
    Their shit together.

    The next, I’m wearing eye-liner
    Mascara
    Deep inhale of poppers;
    searching for an escape.
    Like an episode of Euphoria — surrounded by
    Creatures of the night.
    The duality of man isn’t poetic.
    It’s fucking comedic.
    But like, the Shakespearean version of comedy…
    Tragic.
    Heartbreaking.
    Wretched.
    But wretched enough to laugh hysterically at.
    People win Oscars for playing these types of roles, after all.
    Can I at least get some residuals out of this?
    No? Fine.

    I’m not a fucking poet, anyway.
    But this poetry class sure makes me want to be one.
    I googled how to write poetry—
    Find different words.
    Avoid is/was/are, when possible.
    Be vulnerable.
    Experiment
    With
    Line Breaks.
    Whatever.

    So I put on my eyeliner and mascara
    And put the lip gloss in my pocket for later
    As I plan my temporary
    slipfast
    drift
    Windows down, racing,
    Crisp night sky enters
    Montrose lures.
    Madonna or Gaga drown out the voice
    Telling me to stay home.
    Gin and tonics mute my poor, wrinkled brain
    Filling in the cracks, to make it smooth.
    Smooth brains don’t think.
    It’s an insult, and a metaphor
    so it works.
    Choking it
    when it screams at me to stop numbing it.

    And I wear the makeup
    Instead of the makeup wearing me.
    Because you need confidence to pull off wearing makeup.

    Ryan Lester

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    • “People win Oscars for playing these types of roles. Can I at least get some residuals out of this? No? Fine.” A brilliant and relatable poem. Thanks for sharing this.

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    • Ryan, this poem is powerful and moving. I love how you end with “And I wear the makeup/ Instead of the makeup wearing me./ Because you need confidence to pull off wearing makeup.” When we are confident and proud, the makeup enhances our beauty instead of taking away from it. Thank you for sharing your experience!

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  • My Own

    My own is strong and fearless
    It has scars but is fearless.
    It has been silenced and shooed.
    But now stands tall and renewed.

    My own is purposeful and unique.
    It tells a story that has made its peak.
    It shines light into those who are weak and provides words for those who cannot speak.

    My own is beautiful and bold.
    It has depth and is precious as gold.
    It seeks value and truth.
    The love of my own can never be renewed.

    My own is my voice. It’s my weapon of choice.
    Sometimes misunderstood but protected from all the noise.
    It’s powerful and worthy, standing out no matter the journey.

    Always pondering on where marks were made.
    Never wanting to feel betrayed.
    My own fills dark rooms with light
    Something that will be worth the fight.

    Alexandra Houston

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    • Alexandra, this poem is a beautiful depiction of the strength of your voice. You are powerful and brave enough to stand up and use your words to speak truth and fight for it! I love how you describe your voice as your “weapon of choice” because our voices really do hold that power. Thank you for sharing your experience!

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