Dear sweet little one
My sweet little one crying in the shower so no one can see your tears to avoid their fake concern. Holding yourself as silent sobs rattle your bones. Wondering what it’s all for. The cursing you barely understand. The pain for things is out of your control. The silent prayers to anyone who would listen. For your journey to end before you wake.
My dear little one life is impossibly hard for you right now And Completely and totally unfair to you. The things you are going through no child should ever go through. You have seen first-hand horror that most adults would avoid their bowels with just the telling of it.
So with all you have gone through and will go through. There is still strength in you to see the sun every day and the Glorious Moon every night. Some days will be harder than others, and some days will fill you with so much joy you will weep. Your life is worth living for them all the bad days and the good days. So please, little one, keep your head up high, chin to the sky, shoulders back, and know that your life is an adventure, one that is packed full of chaos and love, sorrows and joy, amazing hellos, and mournful goodbyes.
You are brave you are smart you’re amazing in every way you are also selfish and stubborn and a big pain in people’s butts this is all Who You Are The Good The Bad and The Ugly and you know what that is perfectly fine you don’t have to be beautiful and you don’t have to be ugly you don’t have to be anything other than who you are I love you little one a sweet little me The Lost Child. Who has been forgotten by people who are supposed to love you right now. Alone in that shower crying her heart out, I remember you, and I love you, my little past self. You’re so much stronger than you think you are, and in the future, you will be loved. We’ll find people who love us Just the Way We Are.
Lots of love
Your future self