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ashleylatour submitted a contest entry to Write a letter or poem to yourself sharing the most important lesson you’ve every learned 2 months ago
I Want to Be Perfect
I want to be perfect so you’ll notice me.
I will cut my hair,
Change my clothes,
Say hello,Â
If you will notice me.ÂI’ll dance around my room at night,
Write dozens of poems about you that you will never read,
Sing songs about you,
But I will never tell you how I feel.I’ll wear makeup,
Restrict how much food I eat,
Exercise for hours to stay thin,
All if you’ll notice me.ÂI’ll take up dance classes,
Not because I want to,
But, because you fancy that one girl from school who dances.I will change my entire outlook on life,Â
And change my friends,
And even love you more than I love myself.
But, you will never notice me.When I was growing up,
I looked up to you.
Looking back, I cannot remember why.
Because I never felt pretty,
And I never felt good enough because of you.And just because you were right in a lot of ways,
It didn’t make me wrong.
I still felt wrong.Because I loved the wrong person,
It took me a lifetime to learn how to love myself,
To be myself authentically,
And to believe in myself.
I needed to lose you to love myself.ÂThis illusion surrounding perfection,
It was that everyone had life figured out,Â
Everyone except me.Â
Truthfully, no one did.ÂThe moral of my story is do not chase perfection,
I tried to be perfect for someone, and it drained me.Â
It took everything and returned nothing.ÂLife is like a stage,
One that I did not rehearse for.
Growing up forced me to perform anyway.
I will watch who I perform for from now on.You were a page in my story of self-love and discovery.
Voting starts November 5, 2024 12:00am
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