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aimeevc submitted a contest entry to
What would the old version of you say to the new version of you? 1 months, 2 weeks ago
Old Self
You’re so social they say. But little do they know my skin crawls and I feel like I’m going to ball every time I’m in front of you all. The panic and manic start to settle in , where do I even begin. I worry if I’m worthy or if they’ll all look at me and scurry. It all starts to get blurry and my mind starts to scatter like if everything I’ve accomplished never even mattered. My heart beats fast, and I can’t look past my old self I thought I laid on the shelf. But here she is, with all her might ready to fight. I’ve learned to fight back, despite the pain I feel of my old self, that was never healed which I’ve kept so concealed. She keeps me from going out and makes me miss out. Some say it’s all in my mind but I can’t seem to unbind, we’re the same person even if she was a different version. Some times I win and some times I lose, either way, my old self always seems to loom.
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I can relate to so much of what you say to your old self. It is hard being sociable when anxiety and stress make even small interactions feel life-altering. Though many of us grow out of shyness and anxiety, for others, it lasts a lifetime and always rears its ugly head. Thank you for sharing your experience!
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