I not quite sure how to say this became a very voracious feeling
Stuck in strong waters that pushed away just to spiral downward
Into a hard rock bay , i return to my sense becoming excited
Then deranged thinking the feeling lead my heart astray
The rush contain explosive energy overcame and scared me
So i shut myself off by crafting a key only true eyes could see
It popped when i win it storms in when i lose paying true prices
Through late dues after all its better become a jester to out play
All the kings fools. Out of all things that me sick Within the core
It has to be the ability not to do more as a whole aiming stars high
In the sky but denied each time by these so called winners its
Flashes back and forth in my head seeing great champion quitter
Society as a whole lays multiple taste then the dish became bitter
Then Legends becoming quitters the Lazy man drinking from the
World cup and taking his trophy wife out to dinner Cant believe
From what i was told through out the young and old Legends will
Deliver . I look Through this feeling with many mentals clues hold
Thy breath in positivity and out Toxicity two more times hold
My frustration gain in touch of dividing lines between the fallen
And great Divine .But things come and go as i understood with time why am
I complaining that there are no more greats in this time when i been sheltered
And put myself in the waters to make this my time ,okay then im ready to grind starting
To practice my poems into different styles of Rhymes. The time was nigh constant adrenalin
Created endless rhymes calling my name this was my time to step up on the mic
Spoke like a baby my first words were like .. (heavy breath) whispers in my head
Spoke in silent dread had all delivery but mine was a shutter fell to my knees pieces
Of the mind became clutter panic in the first 10 seconds to release a word only
To forget the next my God i sound so Absurd! I walked off faced formed into a fake smile
While telling myself that performance was vile with no true style
Defeated and self beaten i was ready to go caught a lyft back home
Thinking about my performance i question every thing i brought this
Loud soul so itself in house to become dormant in rain and harsh weather
Friends ask how i was doing i be like whatever until my friend notice something
While were together he read my words to that of an sad open letter
Looking towards (whatcha under the weather for?) i told him i dont have
The drive no more with a form he looks over raising eye brows he said( tell me
what happen and i’ll listen) Telled him i blew it at the spoken word competition
( You can let that define who you are) I respond that i wanted to rock To Gain applause
(And i get you wanted all but while that’s the image you there was one flaw)
What could it possibly be he smirked just to say (first practice makes perfect thats true in order to be you must believe and achieve ) Thought about the quote i can no longer deny my fearless
Turned into flames in my eyes and told him i gave up too soon thanks for this talk as we
Im going back to this competition and shootdown the competition with a BANG!
Okay take i know what got to do stay ground keep it cool took one breath to
Keep my cool then alright mic’s om me im to flow.
Im came to start this revolution open your third eye
To oversight mental hurdles and mental confusion
Peel off the infectious wall see the mold now unfold
Understand my people these dreams are crafted by the bold
I believe in my deeds will outlive me showcase through the
Screen i will never abandoned my creed to entertain those
Plebs of there constant greed breaking chains for free
Walking into mindsets step onto a mission echo’s in my head
I crafted a pathfinder written in a straight path description
I now realize my emotion fruition i discovered
All of this is my Ambition