I Am Grateful –
In my twenty years of living, I have acquired a list of little things for which I am grateful. Family & friends. That’s a given, though maybe not for all people. But this is about me & not you right now. I digress, family & friends – they know who they are & how much I love them. But apart from the safe answer, I am grateful for quite a few things that include; rainbows after rain. Gel pens that erase. Hot caramel lattes with extra espresso no matter the temperature outside. The rush of fear mixed with adrenaline whenever I stand near the edge of something. I am grateful for all of my hyperfixations of haunted animatronic lore & morally grey fictional characters whom I continually find comfort. I am grateful for home-cooked meals by my Dad over the holidays. Especially his homemade pasta, gravy, & meatballs. Yes, it’s red sauce. Yes, it’s a family thing. No, it’s not weird. I am grateful for the way my skin marks at the slightest touch as if I am collecting bruises like charms on a charm bracelet. They are monuments to all my moments. Speaking of bruises, I am grateful for the first boy who bruised my heart. Well no actually he broke my heart. To be specific, he broke my heart exactly two weeks before my fifteenth birthday & to the boy whose heart I broke when I got tired of trying to revive something that died a while ago. Your parting words, “Thank you for the memories” will forever haunt me. A permanent skeleton in my crowded closet. I am grateful for the one who saved me in a way. Your late-night conversations & quiet compliments kept me sane as I was trying to find myself again. You are the person I would have waited an eternity for to come around. However, Lady Luck was on my side for once when I indulged in my desires that night. God, I am so grateful for that good weather, that clear October sky when we stargazed out of your sedan. Gazing at constellations, I told you how I felt. Who knew that the window to heaven was through your sunroof? So of course, I am grateful that you liked me too. & I am grateful for every moment, good or bad that I have ever had because that is what brings me to you.