Dear Me,
Thank you for taking the time to sit with yourself and process your thoughts and feelings. This year, you really took yourself & your ideas seriously. Your perseverance through rejection is admirable and I appreciate you, even when others don’t.
When you lost your job in January- you didn’t beat yourself up.
When the bank funds were […] View
A silent thought that now demanded my attention.
The universe knew exactly how to reveal this to me.
A problem that I fixed had finally released me from its bind.
I was going home.
The road hugged my tires like excited friends reuniting,
Usually a 7 1/2 min walk, stretched to a 13 min run.
13 min , the length of a how to video that I’m sure I’ll be frequenting more.
The garage door
creaked opened &
I was ushered inside.
The love of my life,
I husband to her Bride
her face full of:
fear,
wonder ,
here,
follow me!
She exclaimed.
Every noise on the planet dissipated except our foot steps:
ile, carpet, tile.
The light switch felt like the weight of the world.
I found strength from your love to flip it.
A stranger awaited me in my own bathroom .
I was to confront this foe without any idea that my life had found the meaning i was searching for
A vacuum of time,
my life In the rear view.
Thankful that I saw words,
instead of lines on that clearview.
But I only see one, where is the “not?”
What a terrible malfunction,
how could they have forgot?
Then, the beacon of truth
began to break through the mystery.
Those 8 letters have the chance to
alter history:
PREGNANT
Every emotion that I’ve ever felt became
unified-
all the pain of my adolescence,
all the courage of my youth,
all the fun of my independence,
all the worry of my work,
all the adoration for your mom,
They All joined together
to bring me this unmatchable joy.
The true essence of what it means to feel happiness,
I get to be a dad to a beautiful Baby Boy.
Dear RW, your letter beautifully expresses the transformative experience of becoming a father. The emotions and joy you describe are truly heartwarming. I am sure your son will grow up to remember how amazing of a father you are to him.
Lauren I went through our first book, page by page and reached out to everyone that I could find.
I went through all of your tags to see everyone that was associated with the unsealed, and I got to say everyone that I was able to reach was on board with doing this.
I had a small glimpse in everyone’s lives, and your impact was always a shining moment at the epicenter. It was always something like “I can’t believe I see my name in a book!” or “I can’t believe I’m on a billboard!”
All these people who are writing your messages today they all said the same thing: that it was a wonderful idea and that they would be happy to help surprise you.
I can not thank you enough for you and the community that you lead with love.
This is me as your friend showing you my gratitude for giving us a space to share the things that we share here, you curated an environment for strangers to become friends.
I’m so proud of you and I look forward to further collaborations and I really hope that you take this to the highest level that you can. Happy birthday!
THIS IS AMAZING! I cried when I saw. And now I made it easier. You can add people as friends on The Unsealed. And whoever you are friends with you can direct message. But anyways, this is the absolute best birthday present ever. It is so kind and so motivating. I love it. Thank you. You are so kind and amazing. I love this gift and I love you.…read more
My body,
What do you think of when I say that phrase ?
Do you cringe in disgust or feel a deep praise?
Whichever side you find yourself on the line..
let me tell you about mine, and how an injury to my spine..
Completely changed the way that I lived life,
I’m grateful to be a father, because my surgeons weren’t sure if I could give life,
Even though it’s uncomfortable I’m thankful for this steel wear,
because the alternative, was being 23 in a wheelchair,
This shit got on my nerves,
especially after finding out that I had nerve damage,
I wasn’t disabled but definitely at a disadvantage.
I had to change my vantage point, and be thankful that my joints and tendons and bones-
overcame their adversity to reclaim my home.
My body.
the only place I know I get to live in,
I need to start honoring it and begin to forgive it.
There’s things I deal with but maybe you’re different,
Maybe you can’t help that you have a genetic diagnosis,
my heart shatters for every woman with endometriosis.
Maybe you have anxiety and depression,
maybe you carry an epipen and dread the day you need to press it.
Or maybe you suffer from Disphormia, or anorexia,
Or adhd, austism, dyslexia
But then again
Maybe you’ve never felt sexier,
Do your eyes turn to stone when you pass by a mirror,
But please open them and to see yourself clearer.
Seek out , don’t turn the other cheek baby let your cheeks out!
Let your freak out,
Speak out, no! speak up
to your body and give it praises,
cuz even if you despise it, each day it still raises..
you… out of your bed.
So , get of your head if you can, because just like you, the rest of us are doing the best we can.
But i get it, not feeling in love with yourself.
Man I really use to be in incredible shape,
Then I got injured and really struggled with my weight,
I would starve my self and would hate what I ate ,
I could feel judging eyes removing things from my plate.
But now I’ve accepted that I no longer need to be that athlete, my varsity days are over, I’m not going to the track meet,
I don’t need to complete great athletic feats anymore,
just want to play with and pick up my son,
I need to be thankful for what my body can do right now, rather than miss out on what it’s already done,
Why are we so concerned with the way we look rather than the way we feel,
we put our bodies through so much pain and never allow them to heal.
Also,
Let me just shout out to all the mothers!
Because you should love your body more than all the others,
So what ? you may have stretch marks, those battle scars makes you look more womanly,
you are everything that a man couldn’t be !
For you did the most physically demanding thing there is and gave birth.
A woman’s body is the most powerful thing on earth!
Your body has gone through a lot it’s changed I understand, but please, don’t hate your body for what it can’t do, and love it for what it can.
“For the great spirit and to my future self I’m so faithful,
I hope I emanate all things I am so grateful.”
Definitely a drop mic ending. Your heart and your talent shine through ever piece you write. You are amazing. Thank you for sharing and thank you for being a heartbeat of this unsealed family. <3 Lauren
Keep rocking on Rick! The pic is so cool this poem and the pic looks like you’re in your element. I want to hear more of your poetry live!! Hopefully we can have a live poetry session during one of our Unsealed conversations.
Thank you for sharing and inspiring !! 🙂
Another GEM! I think your ideal self is the man you are right now. I feel like you are such a soft kind soul. Once you figured out who and how you wanted to be, you went all in and it came so naturally. Your heart is changing the world. Thank you for being part of our family. Happy Holidays!<3 Lauren
Standing at a crossroads and I find my bones feeling lazy,
a vision towards my future but the road is hazy,
I always pour out to those who don’t realize that I’m giving them something sacred,
They let it spill over like the blood of the natives instead trying to save it.
So now I want to save myself, it was a happenstance of a chance , I told myself “let me go back for one more lap.”
I met a mystic whose mystique and music on the mountain drew me In, I felt like I was speaking to a feminine me,
she gave me.. a reading of tarot,
3 and 4 of swords, 8 of pentacles my heart was open but my mind still narrow.
She offered an invitation, “come, join us in a circle for an incantation
Oh, and bring a sacred vessel,
It’s contents can help remove impurities from your blood vessels.”
I found myself-
Surrounded by 7 goddesses, but I am not a god above them ,
In fact they welcomed this weary traveler so for that I love them
most were there because they wanted a change,
one was working through her social anxiety in the astral plane ,
one who was there, fulfilled her job as a mother, did you know a mothers love is like no other
In fact I felt it everywhere it invited this brother –
to lay his head on her lap ,
It said “come my child let your soul rest and take a nap.”
So as I drifted off between time and space,
I start to feel a tingle come upon my face
I felt my deep, rich, hot, blood being awoken ,
the spanish being spoken to the Spanish that left us broken.
Only hoping that my great, great, grandmother with high cheek bones and looooonng, flowing, raven hair was there.
And she was.
She explained to me that all we ever did was fight , now she’s asking me to rest ,
based off the four of swords during my reading, I think I will.
I felt a chill,
as the wind decided to inspect our ceremony- the clouds said “here follow me,”
the moon looked bigger I closed my eyes and a cloaked figure ,
invited me on to a boat ,
He “said do you want to see the future?
First you must see the fool and the fool is you.”
Using canabis to guide his canine to reveal the canines of the living shadow.
A monster, a myth, a mirror,
“come look inside my void and see yourself cleaner
Inspect your introspection ,ready front your reflection
Come, see that you’ve been so vulnerable.
Please give yourself some protection,
and on top of that- give yourself some love,
give yourself some patience,
and listen to yourself as your wisdom is amazing.”
I could hear this voice but was to afraid to face him, then I trusted myself and went to embrace him,
It was me, he was everything I’ve envisioned, now he’s the only person I look to when I make my decisions.
I said “you are so radiant, you’re exactly who I’m trying to be,”
he replied “good, you’re here finally but give yourself some time to be-
me, you, us, when I tell you something don’t second guess me, just trust . Ah ah ah, But no buts,
You’re here because you’re on the cusp of a new chapter,
to leave ink onto the first page you must first meet your master.”
First the mirror distorted, then the glass broke,
some footsteps approached it was the figure in cloak.
His presence was overpowering,
Emanating an energy at its zenith,
If I was faced with this Goliath then I must be David,
it was time for me to slay this behemoth.
But before I could unsheath my sword ,
I felt drawn to confront this chimera.
There I stood staring into
the blackness waiting for my terrors
to actualize,
I tore down his hood to meet his actual eyes.
It was me, again, looking even more divine than before.
He said “good, you passed the test because you don’t need to be afraid of yourself anymore!!!”
Then our guide brought us back to this plane,
I saw so much clarity to cut through that haze, this water sign now rolls with the waves as the moon beamed her rays, I give praise,
to this experience
as I’ve learned to shift my mind and my attitude ,
To live as my higher self, I will and I invite you, to always live with gratitude.
I love this piece. It’s so creative. I love how it unfolds and then at the end is a simple but powerful piece of wisdom. It’s like we leave our comfort zone and somehow through it, we find peace and wisdom. Thank you for sharing. Your writing is always such a beautiful piece of art. <3 Lauren
Thank you for that, I have definitely seen that going out of my comfort zone only leads to growth. This entire story was all within my minds eye but the final piece is what really Stuck “stop being afraid of yourself”
I’ve always been very weary of the unknown and trying new things. Clothes, hobbies, especially food. Mom would try to get me to try new food. Me: “I don’t like it”. Mom: “you never tried it”. Me: “ but I know I won’t like it”. My ex girlfriend was mystified by that thinking lol. My buddy says he has a buddy just like me. Go to a restaurant. Try something new? Why bother? Why deviate from what I know ? From the known?
The most recent and somewhat terrifying comfort zone was two summers ago. I went to visit my ex girlfriend in Manhattan. She was working for her company in herald square. I hadn’t traveled since 2011. And now i would have to travel post Covid, to an airport in New Jersey , then catch a train to Times Square. Solo. This didn’t match well with my slight anxiety of crowds and the unknown. Lots of crowds. Lots of unknown. I got the courage because I was so excited to go visit her that I just ignored the nervousness, told myself that people do this all the time, and that I’d be fine. I gained the courage because I had no choice haha. But mainly because I couldn’t wait to go see her.
The outcome of leaving my comfort zone last summer was total success. I got there fine (with maybe a bit of help from some kind folks along the way). The joy of walking down Manhattan and realizing I was going the right direction was so joyful and satisfying. We had a great time. Friday ws one of the best days of my life. We saw so many places. So many new things. Even though she got a little sick on Saturday, I got sent on a solo errand while she rested. An easy one, but I did it. And we made the best of that night. And made it to Times Square the next day before I left. I was so glad that I went out on that ledge, so to speak. Turned out so great
My advice to anyone scared of the unknown (including myself) is to forget your fears and just go for it. Take the chance. I’m glad I did last summer that’s for sure. Live those new moments and experiences. I figure it’s better to try and realize it was a good idea or bad idea than to wonder what could have been. Except jumping out of a plane. I don’t need to try that particular adventure.haha. But conquering the unknown one little experience at a time can be pretty satisfying. This I’ve learned and hopefully will continue to do so
James Corrao
Jim, I remember you told this story in one of our zooms before. I love it even more now reading it than I did when you told it. It’s really sweet. It shows your heart, and what happens when your passion is stronger than your fears,
I love this part: “My advice to anyone scared of the unknown (including myself) is to forget your fears and just go…read more
Hi Lauren. Thanks so much for the kind words 😊
Yeah it was a little daunting. But still worth it, even now knowing how things are w her. I wouldn’t change anything at all. It was so rewarding.
A plane huh? Well if I know you even a little, if it’s something you decide you wanna do, you will do it. I know that 100% 😊
Happy to be on the jou…read more
I want to be that guy that you can be free to speak your mind to, you can lean on all the time.
I want to be the mirror that helps you see yourself clearer, that encourages your true self to get a little nearer,
come and plays devils advocate for the angels make you look at things from different angles ,
Or I help the world value the person more than the work, Maybe I can help change minds to put people into trees instead of the dirt,
help be the change to say it’s OK to hurt
let me help you, because for so long we’ve been told it’s not ok to feel.
But that’s not real! Because every single person who will read this is struggling with something they may not admit,
or the pain and trauma they’ve suffered have caused them to forget
a healthy way to cope looking at life through the cross hairs of a rifle scope,
I want to help pull your finger away from the trigger and make it look towards hope,
Maybe I can help change the thought of 40 hours of work,
Instead, give those people 40 hours of freedom from all these imposed rules of life and society.
Imagine what this world would be like if we all were able to pursue what makes us happy,
I really mean it think about it. I don’t mean to get sappy
it’s just everyone that you meet seems to be drained at least a little bit of joy,
how do I find a way to intersect with my inner boy?
The world is so hell bent on getting another dollar or getting another follow,
but we lack soul and substance our bodies are merely hollow,
I want to help fill people with things that leave them fulfilled
where all we worry about is things that leave us with thrill instead of worried about bills.
The best way to do that is to embody that thought and let it it flow out.
I challenge you to do something you love today, let loose and show out !
Rick!!!!! I absolutely love this. The rhyme and the message are both so powerful. I am honored to know you. Your soul is so good and so pure. I am sure you have changed the lives of many and don’t even know it. Thank you for sharing this! <3 lauren
Lauren, thank you for your words of encouragement and your words of kindness. I really feel like a community like this one you have created is essential for people like us. I’ll do my best to continue on trying to make people hold onto my words
Can I write something for future me ? Because I know he’s be so proud of what current me, is currently doing.
Undoing 10 years of an identity, that was never meant for me.
Preparing the path to intersect with him, and finding healthy ways to cope mentally
Especially, since they did him kind of dirty
It’s never to late to start over.
Even if your thirty
It may seem a little scary
No, it’s terrifying
a leech in my mind slowly sapping away at times-
that should be spent living…
Sorry I gotta focus on surviving,
But first, I need to get out of bed. I’ve been trying to convince every piece of me to talk again,
no part of me ever grieved the fact that I had to learn how to walk again
Extremely well taken care of body, sold my soul for employment,
22 years old a broken vertebrae on deployment?
Came back to the states and didn’t know that I was in for the change of my life,
for the next four months, I was forboding going under the knife.
“But I’m 22, I’m in incredible shape,”
“I’m sure you are son, but you see this x ray? This is a clear break”
“You made a mistake, it was just some discomfort , I only felt a pinch”
Dr said, “I can tell you’re upset I’m gonna give you a bit. “
There I sat, main character to my own horror movie, blood became curdling
The words escaped my lips like death row inmates –
“I’m getting surgery”
There I lay, a husk of my former self ,
my right thumb begging the vicodin to drip faster, no wonder this is controlled.
I cried as soon as the nurse left, I’m 22 years old.
Could barley take care of my self ,
I wouldn’t have ate if my boy chav never came,
I felt so embarrassed to use a walker, only a little lesser with a cane.
But day by day , I did my best to get stronger , those slow painful walks would ease and become longer.
I was really worried that I’d never be able to swing a bat again,
To strengthen my back ,
I first needed to strengthen my glutes, hips, and abdomen .
Everyday after work, I’d do a light jog, yoga, then mobility,
trying to stifle the disdain of my depleted ability,
Before I was poetic, I found solace in athletics,
55 yard throws, home runs over 350, 4.7 forty, benching 250,
33 inch vert…
all that stuff went away when I got hurt.
I gained a bunch of weight lost all my range of motion ,
I was willing to do black magick take an elixir or a potion.
But, one day by the ocean,
Feet in the sand, and my head in my hands, I realized …
I had to love my body because for everything it went through,
it still lets me stand.
Now as a man,
I realize I’ll never be in the same shape I was when I was 21,
don’t need to be a good athlete anymore, just do my job and play with my son.
Wow! Wow! and Wow! This is so good. I am so sorry for the physical pain you endured, but the way it impacted your perspective and the way you have evolved is truly beautiful and inspiring. Your son is super lucky! Thank you for sharing and thank you for being part of our unsealed family. <3 Lauren