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  • Joy Before Happiness

    Dear world,
    The message I’m sending to you today may sound indelicate, abrasive even, and I sincerely apologize for that. I’m a part-time people pleaser trying to unlearn the more negative aspects of that personality dynamic, one of which is the notion that people should be kept happy AT ALL TIMES. That being said, I will forewarn you that my message may not make you feel happy,, but I promise you, it will bring you joy- that joy which is an abiding and abundant reality, always awaiting our approach, deliberately desiring our determined efforts to dwell within its keep.

    The only way through to this true joy, requires the swallowing of a veritable buffet of what at first glance appear to be bitter pills- the first of which is the fact that you will suffer and you will die. When you swallow this truth, you free yourself from fear and despair. Suffering has the potential to be our most powerful teacher, and it can become a friend, if we are brave enough to reach out a hand. Now get me wrong, I don’t want to encourage you to intentionally seek out opportunities to get hurt or to cause suffering for others. What I mean is, suffering may be inevitable, but we can choose to transform its energy within us to strengthen ourselves and to bring that same gift of healing to the world around us as well.

    Depending on how we approach the wounds we bear, we can choose to shape a future of growth and evolution. Through the shattering capabilities of grief, loss, and evil, we can learn to truly appreciate the beauty of life. That is the balancing act, seeking gratitude for life despite its myriad challenges and afflictions. We have the power to transform our hurts into growing pains.
    Although, we can just as easily turn them our slowing pains. These wounds can fester and rot, weighing us down with crushing regret. What makes the difference between the two outcomes? How do we choose the better way?

    We must summon the courage to swallow the bittersweet pill. I found it through writing and being still. Now I’d like to share (bear with me if you will). More words onto this page are ready to spill. Watch now how they turn to a poem. I pray they may help steer you back home.

    Yo, is it true? Do I have the world’s ear?

    Then the first words I’d disperse would be about fear.
    Our greatest nemesis; it lives in the mirror,
    Love alone beats it and can help you see clear, And without love, living’s so cavalier.

    It’s hard to believe that…

    The mere marvel of living, of your being here,
    Can be so easily swiped up and stolen within fear’s hostile grip,
    It’s right at your feet now, tryin’ and lyin’ to make you trip,
    It tells you you’re tiny, an insignificant drip.

    Just a
    drop
    in the sea.

    That’s a lie, an illusion, a thought we must flee.
    It’s a curse, a delusion, and we’re born just to be,
    Something much greater, Dig deep and you’ll see,
    That you are surely a drop
    But of your own degree,
    And that makes you much more,
    In fact, that sets you free.

    You must believe that…

    There’s a little bit of you in every me,
    There’s a little bit of sadness in every glee,
    An infinite universe in each little inch of a tree,
    A little bit of bitter coupled with every sweet.

    And once you start to believe that…

    You’ll come to see…

    We’re shaped for our spot, and where we stay to our zone,
    You’ll find in those “ruins,” that you sit on a throne.
    Not just the word,
    But the meaning inside it,
    Abide now in peace, ever beside it.
    Let the words guide you, as you grow on your way,
    Let them reveal themselves like the light of new day.
    Now gently breaking, now a luminous bloom,
    This presence now here that could fill up a room.

    The power of healing lies in each word you lay,
    To learn where love’s leading, let there be no delay,
    It’s calling your name, to be bold if I may,
    Here’s what you have, and here’s what I pray:

    You hold in your hands one moment, one day,
    And I pray you’ll unfold the wonder within it, That you’ll embrace the buffet,

    And in those moments of sorrow, when living looms grey,
    Let the love that still lingers reshape you like clay.
    Feel the power of love’s fingers arranging a novel array.

    Your greatest teacher and your greatest friend lives still in the wallows, in the shattered remains of your heart,
    And that broken heart within you isn’t the end,
    love, it’s the start.

    Voting starts November 5, 2024 12:00am

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  • Wow, thank you very much for your kind words and for taking the time to read my letter! 🙂

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  • Keepin' It Real & Livin' The Dream

    Dear Unsealers,

    My dreams so it seems
    Always happen in steams,
    Moments overflowing with love.
    But believing in dreams
    Can lead to extremes,
    So, remember the stars up above.

    Care for yourself,
    And realize you’re worth it.
    Then help to tell others,
    They also deserve it.

    A dream’s what we make it,
    And I know for me,
    My dream is to live,
    Completely
    Free.

    When you’re young, people often ask, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” It’s an exciting puzzle, and the bigger the dream, the more enthusiasm that meets it. As you grow, however, the pressure behind the question increases, and the vigorous responses are fewer and farther between. It was in this stage of life, when the world seemed to demand I pick a career and stick to it, that my notion of dreams took an unexpected turn. After all, at that point, my dream was to simply float around- a dirty, long-haired, guitar-strummin’ hippie. Boy, was that boy in for a surprise.
    Although I still chafed at the idea of picking a permanent job and becoming part of what I saw to be a messed-up machine, my mentors got through to me. My scholarship shouldn’t go to waste. What harm was there in further learning?

    Enrollment in the university meant declaring a major (there’s that pressure again), and in a fateful moment, I realized that teaching wouldn’t be the worst thing. After all, my English teacher had lit up my life dispelling the darkness that threatened to edge me out. She equipped me with beyond brilliant books, the power of the pen, and sent me to do some digging- into my hurt, into my power, into my truth, into my purpose.

    If I could repay the lifesaving gift of a teacher who cares, well, that would be something. And, hey, summers off? Hippy time! Thus, a dream became more practical, but also so much more complex.

    I got that dream job (even if it took a while to realize it), working at a Junior High, in the sweaty hormone-filled halls of the school so mid they call it middle. Despite the shenanigans, I sincerely loved it- the fruits of working with young people are incalculable. I had a great team of support around me, but it was still so heavy. And so hard. I felt like a complete failure many times those early years. Visualizing handing in my keys became a pastime.

    And yet, it was my dream. Was that the secret? That embracing the reality of a dream makes your dream a reality? Seemingly at the same moment that these thoughts began to bubble in my brain, I received word that I would have to transfer to a different school due to student numbers and budgetary concerns.

    Leaving the dream that I’d just begun to build? Fortune allowed me to keep a job, but I couldn’t shake the feeling I’d been dealt a losing hand. The change, as always seems to be the case, was brutal. I struggled and longed to return to my home school. A colleague would retire in the spring, so there was hope.

    If I could only hold on for a year.

    That mentality had me living a half-dream. I didn’t realize this until spring rolled around, and I did not get my dream job back. This ironic twist had the potential to crush me, but instead I stayed strong. I was the key factor in my dreams, not my circumstances. I decided then and there to reclaim and build upon the dream: to be fully me and more importantly to start rapping for my students. That single choice changed my classroom and my life in ways that could (and hopefully will) fill books.

    3 years later, the principal of dream school 2.0 informed me that the graduating class selected me to speak at commencement. This was the class. The group of kids who caught my first rap. Who saw me, believed in me, and helped me recreate a dream. Those were the students who witnessed my decision to lean into vulnerability, to own my expertise, and to unapologetically love myself. I couldn’t wait to have one more moment together on our serendipitous journey.

    I mostly kept to tradition and filled the speech with cliches, cheesy jokes, and of course, life advice from Shakespeare, but I couldn’t resist signing off with a rap. Standing on that stage, spittin’ bars in front of those kids- who’d grown so much, who’d made me so proud, who’d driven me so crazy, who’d helped me build a new home- now that was a moment that makes you pinch yourself.

    So, yes, I’m living my dream. Still, I wish more people asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?”

    Paul Weatherford

    Voting starts October 18, 2024 12:00am

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    • Paul, you are an incredibly creative writer!! You should be so proud of yourself for being able to achieve so much and be so happy while doing so. Love the line about you working “in the sweaty hormone-filled halls of the school so mid they call it middle.” You are hilarious!! I think you would be such a great author, or, you never know, a rapper!…read more

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