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  • Roger Chamberlain shared a letter in the Group logo of PoetryPoetry group 2 weeks, 3 days ago

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    I wish I important enough
    That I didn’t question my own purpose
    Feeling lost amongst all that
    That is better, faster, stronger

    To feel like I am trapped inside
    A soundproof chamber
    Where the weakest cries and loudest yells
    Go unheard

    It is more than a curse to be plagued by it
    The enemy that is self doubt
    To feel no sense of matter
    Feeling as though it has all been a waste

    I’ve yet to allow these feelings to win
    Although it’s a battle most days I lose
    Even on the best days it’s hard to maintain
    The fleeting power of hope

    The only solace for a troubled mind
    Is the simple truth that I exist
    Whether it be for others benefit is a choice
    That I choose not to own

    Often through exhaustion do I feel
    An inherent want to just give up
    That want is quickly destroyed
    By a lightning bolt of desire
    That comes from a cloudless sky

    A storm that rages onward inside
    The very depths of my mind
    Swirling furiously for that idea
    That everything has it’s purpose

    This storm eats everything in the way
    Driving me on to be a person
    I’m not even sure this world will allow to be
    Undeterred this storm remains
    The storm inside of me.

    Roger
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    • Awww Roger, this poem is so good. Please stay strong. You are enough. You are more thane enough. You are strong. You are kind. You are giving. The world is lucky to have you. Keep being you. And please, love yourself. There is so much greatness inside of you that we all see. Now, you just got to look in the mirror and see it yourself <3

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      • Thanks Lauren,

        A lot of my feelings are very cyclic in nature and it seems almost like the moon phases.

        Lately I’ve been embroiled in a lot of personal change and redefining what and who and how I allow things into my life. It’s been stressful to really explore the definitions I used to use and how in many cases, that they were holding me back. Through some good feedback from my counselor I’ve been really revealing a lot of hidden emotions. They say growth isn’t easy and for someone like me, it’s downright tough.

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    • Powerful poem, Roger. I admire how you (and others) share the feelings & thoughts that you feel inside of you. That takes tremendous courage to do. Self-doubt is one of our greatest enemies because it’s something that never truly goes away. It always finds a way into our minds & hearts at the most random times. I’m glad you exist.

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      • Gerald,

        Believe me sometimes it’s not easy to do. Others it’s outright essential to get through the emotion of the moment to survive. I’ve kept notebook companies in business through the years I’m sure. In my early 20s I could fill a 1 subject notebook inside 2 or 3 days. For the last several years I hadn’t written very much and it started to show mightily in my mental health. I knew I had to refocus some of that emotion back into writing or I was bound to become a statistic.

        Some days the words will be happy, many other not so much. It’s the bad emotions that usually find their way to pages as a means of removing them from my mind, where if I let them stay, it leads me down a much darker road.

        I’m glad you exist as well my friend!

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        • Roger,

          I believe you. It’s important to put that emotion on a page to get it out of our system. I wish I had kept writing in a journal I had when I was 18. That journal helped me through a dark time in my life. Writing it down helped release a lot of frustration. I’m glad you started writing again. Putting those bad emotions down on a page is great for our health (in my opinion).

          Appreciate that friend!

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