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  • “i’ve let furrowed brows conduct conversations”

    Dear Unsealers, (poem entry, not a letter)

    when it should have been the beating, red vessel sandwiched between my outside eyes

    if it were for the before days when society was feeling abandoned

    where the imposter we saw in the shadows were terrified news hosts and burnt out brethren retiring from their zoom calls

    i would have have fallen further beneath the undertow

    but the continued dance of shaking hands and friendly smiles made the chain of events commence

    and i began to embrace it:

    my lips exhale the affirmed words of safety

    the stares of the narrow-minded turn into LED bulbs-

    hang on… there might be something here

    open-mindedness is taking off its apron, rushing to greet me at the door,
    i used to get nervous having company

    but i have become my own best friend

    i can snuggle in safety, buckle in my seatbelt as my brain indicates to me i have permission to slow down and pump the breaks – once i have learned to drive

    i can touch my 8 x 11, knowing every jagged line is a mountain, ripple, pique and valley of a memory burned through trial and error-

    my oddly favorite smell, a worked-out body

    the feeling of ecstasy after nailing an impromptu choreography routine, loving the expressions i feed the mirror

    i can now ignore the lights getting brighter, signaling my ending is near

    and sure, i am only but a human. i have always seen where i’ve faltered, lacked, detracted. but i can feel myself become something grander – like a human version of a wind-up toy

    i’ve accepted my body as a vessel, an input output machine like gradeschool homework, correcting my body when i set my skin on fire-

    *takes a breath*

    i have eczema

    i’m slowly conquering the line between conceit and self-awareness

    discovered obsessive sorries are empty pockets of exoneration

    i replaced apprehension for curiosity, my pulse now beating within reason as the flicker of answered questions make way

    “what’s that?” is now celebrated, not mocked with disgust by the random grump on the street

    i recognize myself. really.

    i’ve changed “i’m so pretty” to “there you are… i’ve been looking everywhere for you.

    wow. you are magnified.

    here’s your handle.

    now hold on tight. you’re only going up.”

    Love,
    Me (Meghan Dhawan)

    Meghan Dhawan

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    Voting ends May 16, 2024 12:00am

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    • Aww Meghan, you are right, you are only going up. This piece is super creative, beautiful and powerful. Love this line “but i have become my own best friend

      i can snuggle in safety, buckle in my seatbelt as my brain indicates to me i have permission to slow down and pump the breaks – once i have learned to drive

      Thank you for sharing and t…read more

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  • That’s lovely. I’m glad you had that experience. <33 If I could go back in time I would want that for myself again, too. There's something about being a kid that makes life so carefree, but also so important at the same time.

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  • Thank you for your sweet words, Kayjah! I am touched that my letter resonated with you like this. I hope that future children in the world can have these same experiences with their parents/guardians, too. Do you, your siblings and your mom still frequent the cinemas together?

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  • That is SO cute! 6 years is considered old? That’s literally when I started getting into my passion for film! What was your favorite movie(s) that you two watched together?

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    • I am not even sure I have a favorite memory. I think it’s just overall spending so much time together in a way that was happy, peaceful and loving. <3 Lauren

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      • That’s lovely. I’m glad you had that experience. <33 If I could go back in time I would want that for myself again, too. There's something about being a kid that makes life so carefree, but also so important at the same time.

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  • @theunsealed Hi Lauren, thank you so much for your kind words. I’m touched that you found relatability with it. I would love to hear more about your stories watching movies with your dad. Thank you again, I’m glad to be a part of the family ❤
    – Meghan

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    • We mostly watched movies every sunday night when i was growing. When I was really young I used to cuddle with my dad on the couch, but at about 6 he told me I was too old. TO this day, he still loves watching movies with me. It’s an escape for him – a time for us to be still and be together. @abrill21

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  • The Intergenerational Path of Cinephiles and The Burning Desire to Keep Them Alive

    Dear future cinephile, the child born into the next generation,

    Hey, there, kid. You do not know me, nor will we cross paths, at least, not for a long time. However, I do know you. You are the chosen one, the child who will bring kindness and good fortune to those around you, who will be kind to the old people in grocery stores and pick up the soup for them on the high shelves as you stand on your tiptoes, your half centimeter shortness in height the only barrier between you two, preventing you from making sure that grandma gets her eight cans of tomato basil to nourish her for the week. You will persevere, perspire, and keep your balance steady as you bring yourself to the correct measurement to obtain that soup. Justice for grandma’s tummy! 

    Okay, maybe that was a little dramatic. I tend to behave like a kid. 

    Look at me, writing “Justice for grandma’s tummy” at 23 years of age. Grow up, Meghan! Jeez. 

    You might think I sound like the grandma who needs the soup from my tangent, but you must know that I have always been a grandma – or, a grandpa, for that matter. 

    You see, my grandpa was a cinephile of sorts. Basically, that means that he really liked movies. But he liked movies in a different way than most people. My grandpa and my grandma gave birth to four children, my father, my aunt, and my two uncles. They were all under the care of my grandparents, and all have different types of personalities, yet all come from the same couple. What brought my father, his siblings and my grandpa together were their visits to the local movie theatre. Basically, my grandpa took my father and his siblings to the movies when he wanted to bond with them. They would see whatever new movie was playing and would be cooped up in tiny seats next to one another, watching the screen with wide eyes in the dimly lit space. You see, movies were a way for families to come together and see something new, cool, and at times, innovative. My grandpa did not have the technology and ability to watch films in theatres when he was a kid, so he made it his personal mission to take his children to see them in person. 

    My grandpa, my father, and his siblings lived in India, and because of this, the theatres operate in a different way than in the United States. Films that were played in India had intermissions, just like how they do in modern Broadway plays, productions, and musicals. When this would happen, my grandpa would be the first one out of the theatre, cash in hand, ready to pick up the first, fresh batch of popcorn and concessions the theatre had to offer. It was at that moment my father and his siblings would reconvene with my grandpa and grandma in the lobby, munching on snacks and discussing a bit about the film they were watching, their eyes still glowing with excitement from the imagery displayed on the screen. 

    Flash forward thirty (30+) years later, and my father is in his mid-40s, taking my sister, mother, and I to the theatres for movie nights. We always bought food and drinks before the movie started, as there were no intermissions during the films in the United States, and there still aren’t. This left little room for us to bond about the film halfway through and had forced us to determine if the middle of the movie had past or not. Regardless, after the film had finished, I would be racing to the car, bursting with thoughts on the film, ready to tell my father everything I thought about the film. He did not care as much about my opinion, which is something I did not realize until much later in my life and made me very sad. However, I then discovered that he did the same with my grandpa, and my father felt sad when my grandpa did not pay attention to him. 

    I NEVER want that to happen to you, love. I want you to have fun with your family, to watch every movie that you want to see, to eat all the popcorn, tell your parents all your theories on who the villain was, and why grandma needs her tomato basil soup!!

    In all seriousness, I know I do not know you, and you do not know me, but I need you to know that I love you. You ARE the chosen one, though. The first of many movie clichés that will riddle your existence and provide you the ability to understand complex subject matter around you in the form of moving pictures. You may not be a boy, but you are my Harry Potter, my Luke Skywalker, and my best friend. The fact that you are here, and reading this letter, is good enough for me. Go out there and do some good, kid. It’s your destiny.

    Okay, no more clichés. Scout’s honor. 

    Thank you, my love. 

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  • The Intergenerational Path of Cinephiles and The Burning Desire to Keep Them Alive

    Dear future cinephile, the child born into the next generation,

    Hey, there, kid. You do not know me, nor will we cross paths, at least, not for a long time. However, I do know you. You are the chosen one, the child who will bring kindness and good fortune to those around you, who will be kind to the old people in grocery stores and pick up the soup for them on the high shelves as you stand on your tiptoes, your half centimeter shortness in height the only barrier between you two, preventing you from making sure that grandma gets her eight cans of tomato basil to nourish her for the week. You will persevere, perspire, and keep your balance steady as you bring yourself to the correct measurement to obtain that soup. Justice for grandma’s tummy! 

    Okay, maybe that was a little dramatic. I tend to behave like a kid. 

    Look at me, writing “Justice for grandma’s tummy” at 23 years of age. Grow up, Meghan! Jeez. 

    You might think I sound like the grandma who needs the soup from my tangent, but you must know that I have always been a grandma – or, a grandpa, for that matter. 

    You see, my grandpa was a cinephile of sorts. Basically, that means that he really liked movies. But he liked movies in a different way than most people. My grandpa and my grandma gave birth to four children, my father, my aunt, and my two uncles. They were all under the care of my grandparents, and all have different types of personalities, yet all come from the same couple. What brought my father, his siblings and my grandpa together were their visits to the local movie theatre. Basically, my grandpa took my father and his siblings to the movies when he wanted to bond with them. They would see whatever new movie was playing and would be cooped up in tiny seats next to one another, watching the screen with wide eyes in the dimly lit space. You see, movies were a way for families to come together and see something new, cool, and at times, innovative. My grandpa did not have the technology and ability to watch films in theatres when he was a kid, so he made it his personal mission to take his children to see them in person. 

    My grandpa, my father, and his siblings lived in India, and because of this, the theatres operate in a different way than in the United States. Films that were played in India had intermissions, just like how they do in modern Broadway plays, productions, and musicals. When this would happen, my grandpa would be the first one out of the theatre, cash in hand, ready to pick up the first, fresh batch of popcorn and concessions the theatre had to offer. It was at that moment my father and his siblings would reconvene with my grandpa and grandma in the lobby, munching on snacks and discussing a bit about the film they were watching, their eyes still glowing with excitement from the imagery displayed on the screen. 

    Flash forward thirty (30+) years later, and my father is in his mid-40s, taking my sister, mother, and I to the theatres for movie nights. We always bought food and drinks before the movie started, as there were no intermissions during the films in the United States, and there still aren’t. This left little room for us to bond about the film halfway through and had forced us to determine if the middle of the movie had past or not. Regardless, after the film had finished, I would be racing to the car, bursting with thoughts on the film, ready to tell my father everything I thought about the film. He did not care as much about my opinion, which is something I did not realize until much later in my life and made me very sad. However, I then discovered that he did the same with my grandpa, and my father felt sad when my grandpa did not pay attention to him. 

    I NEVER want that to happen to you, love. I want you to have fun with your family, to watch every movie that you want to see, to eat all the popcorn, tell your parents all your theories on who the villain was, and why grandma needs her tomato basil soup!!

    In all seriousness, I know I do not know you, and you do not know me, but I need you to know that I love you. You ARE the chosen one, though. The first of many movie clichés that will riddle your existence and provide you the ability to understand complex subject matter around you in the form of moving pictures. You may not be a boy, but you are my Harry Potter, my Luke Skywalker, and my best friend. The fact that you are here, and reading this letter, is good enough for me. Go out there and do some good, kid. It’s your destiny.

    Okay, no more clichés. Scout’s honor. 

    Thank you, my love. 

    <3 Meghan

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    • @meghan_dhawan Meghan – This is a great letter. You are a very good storyteller. I also related to your letter a lot. To this day, I still watch movies with my dad almost every night when I am home. And I am sure your dad cared about your opinion, he just may have had a funny way of showing it. Love your story. Thank you for sharing and being a…read more

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      • @theunsealed Hi Lauren, thank you so much for your kind words. I’m touched that you found relatability with it. I would love to hear more about your stories watching movies with your dad. Thank you again, I’m glad to be a part of the family ❤
        – Meghan

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        • We mostly watched movies every sunday night when i was growing. When I was really young I used to cuddle with my dad on the couch, but at about 6 he told me I was too old. TO this day, he still loves watching movies with me. It’s an escape for him – a time for us to be still and be together. @abrill21

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    • This story is so relatable for me because I myself used to hang out with my siblings and mom and go to the movie theaters to the point where we sneaked into another movie playing. Your story is so good. I know your future child will be able to share the same experience you had with your family and share it with you or their future children.

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      • Thank you for your sweet words, Kayjah! I am touched that my letter resonated with you like this. I hope that future children in the world can have these same experiences with their parents/guardians, too. Do you, your siblings and your mom still frequent the cinemas together?

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